God´s grafitti...

the other day I noticed I have got a few more greyer hair strings... well.. I dont cry and I dont die, I just reflect on it, thanks.. i probably deserve them. Its not to many actually so I prefer to see them as signs to me.


One of my very grey haired friends see it as a proper gift, from his blog "Grey hair is God´s grafitti ".....and myself, i buy that one and say that God is reminding me about something.


Today I was reminded again about the difficulty in honesty, and the dance in a relation. It would not surprise me if I get some more smaller greys of it..


On the other hand, they might do me good, and I will look even more sofisticated. Because that is what I feel.


I wonder about the ones that do not get grey hair at all... what signs are that? Probably none .., zero, empty, no life and no reactions. it just crossed my crazy minds, that those people fight with things and dont let anything comes out as it should. Neither from skin, mouth, minds or actions. Hold back, being afraid, lie, hide and do things like hurting others, and that are totally against their real wantings and needs.

Sometimes we often limit ourseleves in embracing the joy we find, either because denial of the needs or self- constrain ourselves. So sad.

some words on the way..

" you need to decide if you want to act in such a fashion that it is the integrety of your needs, both´s needs... that is the dance that all in intimate realtionsships must attend to"

" promises are good, but you can only judge people by their actions, true?"

Thank you for giving me lovely words on the way. I truly need it.

Anna

what a week...

I notice i have not written any post since last Sunday... hello... obviously I have been very busy all week long and have not had a thought about the blog ...do I?

Honestly.. no. This has been a, great, strange, sad, happy but also a lovable week with love on a distance .. what a great expression...

Monday Tuesday.. heavy busy in the hotel... fully booked. This week filled with a lof of people from northen part of Sweden and they have given me many laughs. But also from southern Sweden and they are great as well... there are so many friendly guests visiting the hotel, thank godness for that. They are so friendly that they apologize for keeping me wating to late at night for late check in as they know they will find me asleep with the head in the laptop... eh.. true.. but not to often luckily.

This week I also implemented my monthly letter to the guests ,telling them now what is going on, comings and some smaller details about my maintenance plans. So much positive reactions on this letter. .. they all are very exited and supportive and wish all the best

Perfect timing as well since the painter came along and started to paint the foaje and I can tell you that the result will be marvellous great. It feels like another hotel entrance totally , and only by changing colours. Great. I was jumping and screaming and singing around as the colour came visible. My architect Brownwynne has done a fantastic work, I am happy and impressed.

Wednesday I went on a Medium session. Yes true. Unfortunately I could not stay as long as planned so I missed the spirits came visiting my uncles wife, attending the same session. Strange is, that when I left the session... the medium told her some true words from the holy ghost and I guessed she was chocked. But ... what goes around comes around.....even to her and my uncle who has let me down in a sad way for the last 2.5 years... But, I have kept cool and it will be paid, at least I am happy about my way to dealing with it.

Thursday... I went on a private medium session and I was reminded about intresting things coming and is. I promise... I am not crazy.. I just have a great flow of energy and that you all know.

Friday.. last day of the week and I felt exhausted this morning. ... too. I have not slept to much this week which pays off. .. so.... damn tired all week and especially mornings. But In the morning today I read a letter from a friend that made me laugh like a crazy .. I think I woke up all guests at 0630 by laughing loud.

And in the end of the day... I read another letter from a person I thought was my friend... but obviously just do nothing but kill me in a very very sad way. This time... i cried like a crazy... but in silence. My instinct tells me that something really bad is ongoing.But but.. I have to choose to think it will be solved ...it must be. And I cant help in any way.

Puh.....now.. Friday evening, in my sofa just relaxing.

Waiting and longing and just feel... relaxed and in love. That is not to bad on a week like this..


oh.. i forgot... the week is not over yet, so still some stories to tell. Tomorrow I look forward to a great lovely meeting and it just have to be. I cant wait .

Love and happiness from

Anna

Record....

This weekend the hotel beat some records that will be hard to challenge any weekend coming, but not impossible. Most number of guests in the hotel ever... and on a Saturday as well.

The hotel has been crowded with Entertainment... , Artists, Two different party people groups and that was a lot. Especially in the morning at breakfast. I did not have enough tables and chairs so I hold my thumbs for them coming not at the same time. And i was mentally prepared and that is good. If your mindset is right, you can fix anything.

I also prepared my sistersd daughter Ida to come and help me and also learn for future coming work. Ida is 15 years old but had a great energy, willingness and good attitude to fix the rush hours in the morning.

And we fixed it.

Summary, good business, good great customer eperiences and very good team up with Ida today and Annalena yesterday as she worked some extra due to the heave guest load. Super great.

I am not surprised I almost killed myself in the car, driving crazy tired and fast until I felt the slippery road just let go of the car. Luckily neither of my sons did notice.. because they had been really scared.

So.. let´s end February in a splendid way., i just need a month that will be something extra. No matter if it is business, love or performane. I need trustwothy relations and lovely energy.. and I promise I will deliver my part of that.

I wish I was skiing downhill with my lovely great bf or just sitting on a balcony in the lovely moonshine street. Well. actually it does not matter where to enjoy and relax.

Damn how nice.
Energy and love to your all

K & H
A

One week ago....

Sitting in my dining room, having the a sober and calm Friday here in Arboga and I actually enjoy. Thinking back one week ago.. hm... time is just running. One week ago I was sitting in probably one of the best restaurants in Fuengirola with the most lovely company and enjoyed a great dinner. Several small courses like tapas variadas was served with an excellent bottle of red wine ( honest it was two).

One week ago, I was standing on the balcony, looking out over the Medditerrainen just straight into the lovely moonshine and felt a nice breeze coming over my skin. Marvellous and lovely.

One week ago I was walking in the sun on the beach, listening to music and did some power walk every now and then.. and finally stopped by for a coffee in one of the many bars.

Damn .. i miss it. And I wonder what I am doing here actually...so much missing. It can be lovely.
Good night and a happy weekend.

Love / A

somethings gotta give..

hey...



Back in Stockholm Sweden again and I have to admit it was pretty tuff to put the feets on the Swedish ground again. Damn... the landing can be mention in two ways ... lovely wonderful, safe and very very close... but also.. very cold... minus 5 degrees celcius, and minds and feelings that wanted to be somewere else. Wrong wrong....



I have had some great super duper days in southern Spain and I actually did not want to go home. Not at all. Well... maybe some.. to make the arrangements for another trip soon. I will make sure we go back within a short future. Actually... the whole lovely future is just waiting and I am full of energy and love and of course that will be the best journey ever.



Some words and their meenings are just very deep lovely flowing in and out at the moment and it is as it should.... sharing, loving, giving, laughing and creating. Creating the days you want.



regarding sharing.....Have you seen the movie "Somethings gotta give" .?.. in Swedish its called.. Crazy in love and I can just agree. I did see half of the film yesterday when flying and yes.. it is good, funny, but also very thoughtful in a lovely way. I truly recommend it. Especially to watch with someone you love and that will share the lovely phrases, comments, feelings and atmosphere in the film with you. Jack Nickolson and Diane Keaton are marvellous actors.



Love, sharing and happiness

AKG

more Puerto Banus

Its kind of hard to live this Puerto Banus life here.. so many choices to make every day… puh...

How long can I stay in bed and just enjoy? What clothes to wear ? How high heels on the shoes… ? How much to spend on shopping? What coffee place to visit?… Which restaurant to choose…gosh..!!

And as I am thinking…and considering I am walking around the yachts waiting for an invitation for a Pina colada drink or two in the lovely sunshine, in the back of one of the beautiful boats here.

Or maybe a short ride in one of the lovely Bentleys or Ferraris cruising on the beach side. I think I got potential.. especially in one of the pair of shoes I have not bought yet… They might be a good investment... or not?

At least, I have made two choices …. Which yacht to visit first and and which Ferrari to drive, its a black one with a babysitter in the front... but what he heck..

… I am just waiting ….. and in between I put my white body in the sun trying to get a fancy tan as well.

Here I am on the pir in Puerto Banus. Just considering and do my best to walk my talk.

How hard can it be?

Besos und amor from Marbella, Puerto Banus

Anna

Puerto Banus -

So.. I have found another favourite place in Europe to visit every now and then ..

Just sitting on a lovely terrace in a lovely flat in Puerto Banus, Costa del Sol and have a great time. I am just stunned by the jetset smell and the place as it is. And not to forget all the Yachts that actually filled the whole harbour here. Amazing and asume and just very fantastic to experience.

And the "golden card" we got to acess to the Puerto Banus harbour area with the car was even more fancy and VIP. To be honest.. it fits us very very well. And so the small bars and restaurant. I can recommend Picasso for good Pizzas and Sinatra bar for good kissing and great caffe con leche.

I have had some lovely days here and still two more to go. Great atmosphere and great company and actually I wish I could stay some more days.

But.. you should always leave as it´s best and I promise to come back, really.

I have also found another pair of high heels shoes here that I want to buy .. but can´t decide weather I should or not... black.. very high heels and kind of to much expensive I guess.. but they are on sale... and they looked very good on ... Maybe I should listen to my boyfriend that they are maybe to high for a 42... but on the other hand I think he liked them as well .. at least some. ... decison tomorrow and you can imagine what kind of big challenges I have to deal with at the moment..... :-).

A trip to Gibraltar today as well and it was a great experience. The lovely Rock coming out of the ocean and just appearing very strong, high and fashinating, and the caves and the tunnels as well... Fantastic. I have never been so close to Africa as today.. fun and exiting.

And I have never seen a submarin from the British Navy either, entering the harbour and coming visible out of the water.. fantastic. I love the sea and everything arounds it. Here the sea is just around the corner.. cold.. but lovely.

Tomorrow is another day and i will keep on enjoying... for the rest of my life, I promise.

Love and sharing from
Anna

Reminder ..... Ain´t no mountain....

high enough.... true .....

regarding dancing and singing and feeling great..

I get lovely feelings listening to this song and it also reminds me about happiness and sharing..so much.

Raise the volume and sing it from your heart... I do, I dedicate it to a person who deserves it, need it and is very welcome.

Tammi and Marvin.. you do it in a joyful way... how hard can it be to let the happiness flow?

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=IVFT7i94zQU

/ HP

" she sucks"........ but "stay the night "

Sitting in the sofa... watching the Swedish Eurovison song contest together with my son Robin 6 years old.

In between he comes to my knee, and in between we dance a bit.. and our energy definately depends on the tempo and the hit feeling in the songs..

One of them was / is our favourite so far and we both danced when Stay the night ...was played

and ... one of them was definately so crazy bad ... sorry to say...

and the best evidence and reaction for this was my sons very young and fashionable comment in the most calmest way when he listened fascinating to this song .....

" she sucks"..... he just said.. frank and straight out in the air....


ehhhh.... he just stared at the television and I asked him...--- excuse me sir .. what did you just say?

" she sucks " ..... he stated again.... in swedish it is.. " hon suger"


Well.., honestly.. I have to agree... the title and the content of the song was not my favourite topic or neither my favourite singer so.. I agree.

Damn... the youngsters today really have their expressions and this one he must have learned by his lovely older brothers... but also.. from all the others that nowadays use that expression..

Sing on..

I put some of my money on the group Alcazar... Stay the night..

Happiness , fashion and dancing and a great tempo. I hope they will be one of the top 3 this year.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=1oY7NYTW75s

/ Love A

Retrospective

The "retrospective" in Scrum is supposed to be done by the end of the sprint to state the situation, get the health check of the ongoing work and make sure you go on forward by using the lessons learned and go for the right next sprintplan.

Today I did a smaller retrospective of this week number 6 and honestly .. it has been a sprint I will never forget.

From a critical red Monday to a Friday filled with laughs, happy goodbye but also.. future sharing, planning and the statement of earning trust.

Today I went to the office for Nordea IT and gave away my laptop, keys and everything else requested after 22 years employment. Sad`?? well.. not really. Filled with respect to a company that have been open to all my carréer plans and development on many levels and that have supported me all the way in my ideas, energy and full execution... well I am just very calm but also ready for somethin new.

So.. no way.... no sorrows... I leave the company with great happiness and a mindset "lets keep in touch". You can imagine doing a full retrospective of the 22 years... I just did a very small one here.... enough for now.

Planning.... after a retrospective you start to plan for another sprint. And so we did.. A short, explosive and wanted sprint with sharing and trust as the target.

feels great, good and exiting.. and I long to walk on the beach and feel the wind in my hair and neck.

And maybe.... I dare to put my feets in the water... I want to swim

/ Love Anna

http://blog.teamclinic.se/

Hey... good news... Teamclinic ´s blog is in the air.. and you can expect a lot from it.

Have a first glance and please come up with suggestion of topics and things to comment.

I promise that I will do my best to get some "stars" to be our guestbloggers" and that I will keep my private writings here...

For those of you who does want to read more professional things then my ongoing issues... you just switch blog... and for those of you who wants to join me.. yes you are just welcome to continue reading.


// Blog on

Anna

Please dont stop the music..

Several times here on the blog I have presented songs and lyrics that I like and connect to.

Typically... Please dont stop the music,.. Rihanna... a great dance and singing girl.

Some of the blogreaders here kept complaining to me on those posts... that they were to boring. And some.... recommend this blog on music sites... eh.. that was funny.

So I am a music person as well.. by the way,,did you know that I played violin for several years in my younger days? No.. how could you...

I did and I loved it, especially when I played in the orchestra. I was not very found of doing the weekly homeworks alone in my rooms since violin sounds best in team, at least is that what I think . With my full attention i joined the orchestra and played with happiness and koncentration and I truly enjoyed it.

My mother used to ask me to not play to high and she never ever checked upon my trainings .. she did not like the noice at all. My father instead, he asked for concerts, layed in the bed and I played all the things to him gladly. I guess he wanted some payback for the halfyearly fee that he loved to pay even if I know it was quiet much at that time.

Nowadays.. the violin is kind of very dusty and I dont play that much. Some years ago I played a lot to some rocksongs... as I got hooked up and had a crush on the electric violin sound... its very cool I think.

I think I am born with music in my blood, I love to listen to and learn lyrics and of course sing them out loud all the songs coming on the radio.

And sometimes I think some songs are just coming in the right occasions and moments just for you.

Its even more nice when somebody else send you a song with a reminder that this one .. this is for you.

Today, I got a song sent to me. Thank you. I will keep it for myself for a while.. and publish it later.

It is not this song... but this is the one I am dancing heavily to in my car driving back and forth at the moment. Its energy and it is a lovely rythm in it and also.. its co written by one Swedish guy, familiar in the Swedish Idol jury. Damn... they are good these 3 guys. As I looked at the record I could see that all 3 of them were involved in almost all songs on that record. I am impressed. Anders Bagge, Laila Bagge och Andreas Carlsson, you are just great. Keep on writing.

/ A

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=tLZO0thbVgM&feature=related

Blogs- Inspiration in your software development work.. hopefully some Agile mindset included

The financial news all around the world and shown on telivision are not very positive at the moment. We are all affected in one way or another. So far I have not noticed very much here in the hotel of the ongoing crise but this week I think we just are aware. Not many guests really but ok.. i have been very lucky or what ever, and it is so far still good business.

I wonder how the organizations are dealing with their employees out there at the moment? I miss my manager position among the architects and developers where I could feel and touch upon their energy and innovation minds almost every day. Some are more hot then others but I loved to hear and see the synergize in their work and co-operation together.

I hope that IT companies take the opportunity to make this financial crise to something good and take the advantaged of the power, skill and potential in all.

My experience but also fear says and is that they way companies deal with cutting down issues are managed in such a lousy way that people get drained of future positive mindset and also.. mindset for keep on innovating , maintain and improve the existing golden systems, skills and people with capacity to grow.

I have told you before.. I am not to much impressed by things normally as I want to be impressed by all humans... but ok... I have my three favourite IT guys I like and that I want to recommend to you out there. Of course there are some more.. but ok.. i list these guys.

No matter crizes, depression and cost-cutting these guys are going strong and keep the innovation floating and... never stops. Thank godness for that.

Grady Booch, Jim Webber and Scott Ambler. You keep inspiring me with your writings and work and almost always add a great laugh. I cant live without laughing.

I recommend their blogs for furhter inspiration and good value.

http://jim.webber.name/

http://www.ibm.com/developerworks/blogs/page/ambler

http://www.handbookofsoftwarearchitecture.com/index.jsp?page=Blog&part=Current


Great sharing
Anna

For real....

Some things are for real and some things are not.

When I stepped out in the hall to watch this huge fantastic rocket I was stunned. Is it really a real one.. ? Has it it been in the air... in the atmosphere and in space and what?

Tonight I was reminded about my last trip to US and Florida and I have great feelings, memories and photos from it.

Japp.. its me, standing in front of Apollo something I dont know if it was 5 or 13... and it actually did not matter that hot day, neither today.

To me it matter the feeling I had when seeing it for the first time. Impressive and fantastic and so much smile in me that day.

As you can see.. its huge and huge and I still think of the take off for this kind of rocket. So much energy and power.

Fantastic. And it is for real.

/ Love A