Jippie....
Back home in my bed, damn.... how nice....
Back at work again, damn... it felt good too. Mostly for being so welcomed by my employees, they are really sweet lovely persons and certenly live their values and share their minds in a great way.
This Friday really just flied away and I managed to have so many good conversations and meetings all over they day, different topics and different outcomes.. but a very good day.
Also, a highlight of the day was when I received a mail from US, one of my abstracts to the IBM conference have been accepted. Jippie ... yes, I am truly happy about it. And I will do my very best again over there. !!
I just had to scream out loud my happines in my office landscape as I was really happy.. and I did. It was lunch time so noone really heard it. I wish they did.
Friday evening and time for sofa, bed and some nice relaxing hours.
I deserve that. A hard week and all of a sudden it is Friday again..
Damn... how time is flying. Soon it is summer.
And tomorrow I will join a wedding and that will be very nice as I am extremely happy for the couple to be married .I am very honoured to be invited.But honestly, I wish I had some partner to join me.
Love and happy weekend to all of you from your very relaxed and happy Anna.
Friday, February 8, 2008
Thursday, February 7, 2008
Amsterdam Day 3 & 4
Business Intelligence... it feels great to be inspired like this and I truly will do my best in Nordea to make this be highlighted from a different perspective.
Many good sessions during day 2 of the conference, and maybe mostly the BI Excellence Competition sessions in the morning where 3 finalists did presentations of their work and way to good BI implementation.
Surprisingly, but maybe not, Folksam was one of the finalist and Chief Controller Stefan did really a good presentation. I took the opportunity to congratulate him during the coffee break and of course I was some extra proud that we had a Swede on the scene.
The lovely Astra Zeneca presenter from UK really got me. She was excellent in her way of presenting and also how she was so clear in her recommendation regarding strong management. A small woman but with huge management skills and capacity. Impressing.
Energo Energy from Holland had some very very good powerpoint slides and a good story, but sorry, it does not help if you are not a good speaker. A man with his position in such a big company, yes I expect more. One the other hand, he did his best I think and all respect to that. And he was one of the finalist. Very good work.
Stopped by at the HP monter again to say hello to my nowadays most favourite HP representative. I was honoured with a book and I truly really was so very happy about it. To be honest again,,, i start reading it during one of the session ( seems to be a great book so far) held by an IBM guy and the presenter was really a catastrophy. Oh.. if I was IBM, I would very much secure the presenter/speaker skills before letting that guy on stage again. This session really was bad, so sad. For IBM.
Day 3 ended in a great way. A trip downtown to some very nice bars and grovy nightlife. Amsterdam is really a fantastic city in many ways. The pulse, the lights, the beauty and the love and passion to a liberal life. I really like this city.
Day 4 of my visit and the last day of the conference,,,
Not much to say. I am filled and very much satisfied with the information and sharing given. If I summarize what I appreciated mostly I have to mention the case studies given by E-bay, Philips, Cisco and others. Btw, Ciscos presenter was also from Sweden and he was really good.
Bye Netherlands and Amsterdam, back to lovely Stockholm and Sweden. Some love spread over my lovely friends and colleagues in Copenhagen on the way back....they deserve it.
Many good sessions during day 2 of the conference, and maybe mostly the BI Excellence Competition sessions in the morning where 3 finalists did presentations of their work and way to good BI implementation.
Surprisingly, but maybe not, Folksam was one of the finalist and Chief Controller Stefan did really a good presentation. I took the opportunity to congratulate him during the coffee break and of course I was some extra proud that we had a Swede on the scene.
The lovely Astra Zeneca presenter from UK really got me. She was excellent in her way of presenting and also how she was so clear in her recommendation regarding strong management. A small woman but with huge management skills and capacity. Impressing.
Energo Energy from Holland had some very very good powerpoint slides and a good story, but sorry, it does not help if you are not a good speaker. A man with his position in such a big company, yes I expect more. One the other hand, he did his best I think and all respect to that. And he was one of the finalist. Very good work.
Stopped by at the HP monter again to say hello to my nowadays most favourite HP representative. I was honoured with a book and I truly really was so very happy about it. To be honest again,,, i start reading it during one of the session ( seems to be a great book so far) held by an IBM guy and the presenter was really a catastrophy. Oh.. if I was IBM, I would very much secure the presenter/speaker skills before letting that guy on stage again. This session really was bad, so sad. For IBM.
Day 3 ended in a great way. A trip downtown to some very nice bars and grovy nightlife. Amsterdam is really a fantastic city in many ways. The pulse, the lights, the beauty and the love and passion to a liberal life. I really like this city.
Day 4 of my visit and the last day of the conference,,,
Not much to say. I am filled and very much satisfied with the information and sharing given. If I summarize what I appreciated mostly I have to mention the case studies given by E-bay, Philips, Cisco and others. Btw, Ciscos presenter was also from Sweden and he was really good.
Bye Netherlands and Amsterdam, back to lovely Stockholm and Sweden. Some love spread over my lovely friends and colleagues in Copenhagen on the way back....they deserve it.
Tuesday, February 5, 2008
Amsterdam Day 2
Puuhh....
First day at the Businesse Intelligence Summit conference and I am really exhausted. Really exiting so far and some really good speakers and also one good panel discussion. And a lot of selling and selling...
To be honest, and maybe make my dearest friend Annika surprised, I have never ever been so quiet during a whole day. I dont know, but I am not in the mood for networking, only sneaking around, mingeling, listening and take what is in for me and just be cool. I manage very well. Trust me.
Surprisingly.. one colleague from Nordea passed me and just stared at me without saying hello... no good behaviour or what do you think. well well.. how fascinating.
But, at the last Cocktail reception I mingled with a glass of mine and passed one of the pannel discussion presenters from HP and he start talking to me. Of course I stopped by and gave him some really relevant and honest feedback. Of course he could see some business opportunities here as well but I kept very secret and that felt good. I left him after a few minutes good conversation and a promise to give me a book if I came around to his session tomorrow. Selling and selling again...Of course I will go there.
Satisfied and filled with a lot of information I left the reception only after 30 minutes... that is not normally Anna, but ok.. it felt good and you should leave at your best.
Just to add that people are really curious about me and Nordea sign... that feels good, we have a good brand I am a great ambassadeur. That feels also great and is adding value to this trip and work.
Back to the hotel and down to the hotel restaurant again after concidering going to the city... but no, I have no energy. So I stayed, and again, hard to be placed alone at a table... and that feels just so strange... feels like left out.
Very good salad and some mineralwater, now back to room and some room made coffee and some candys( just had to ) , nice.
A bath, a call home and then to bed.
I look forward to tomrrow sessions and adventures.
Love and intelligence from Amsterdam and RAI area.
Your A
First day at the Businesse Intelligence Summit conference and I am really exhausted. Really exiting so far and some really good speakers and also one good panel discussion. And a lot of selling and selling...
To be honest, and maybe make my dearest friend Annika surprised, I have never ever been so quiet during a whole day. I dont know, but I am not in the mood for networking, only sneaking around, mingeling, listening and take what is in for me and just be cool. I manage very well. Trust me.
Surprisingly.. one colleague from Nordea passed me and just stared at me without saying hello... no good behaviour or what do you think. well well.. how fascinating.
But, at the last Cocktail reception I mingled with a glass of mine and passed one of the pannel discussion presenters from HP and he start talking to me. Of course I stopped by and gave him some really relevant and honest feedback. Of course he could see some business opportunities here as well but I kept very secret and that felt good. I left him after a few minutes good conversation and a promise to give me a book if I came around to his session tomorrow. Selling and selling again...Of course I will go there.
Satisfied and filled with a lot of information I left the reception only after 30 minutes... that is not normally Anna, but ok.. it felt good and you should leave at your best.
Just to add that people are really curious about me and Nordea sign... that feels good, we have a good brand I am a great ambassadeur. That feels also great and is adding value to this trip and work.
Back to the hotel and down to the hotel restaurant again after concidering going to the city... but no, I have no energy. So I stayed, and again, hard to be placed alone at a table... and that feels just so strange... feels like left out.
Very good salad and some mineralwater, now back to room and some room made coffee and some candys( just had to ) , nice.
A bath, a call home and then to bed.
I look forward to tomrrow sessions and adventures.
Love and intelligence from Amsterdam and RAI area.
Your A
Monday, February 4, 2008
Amsterdam Day 1
Back in Amsterdam, this really lovely, naughty wonderful city.
Kind of mixed emotions this time as we took ground at Shiphol Airport.
Passed the bars I have some nice memories from and that was kind of hard.
Joined the hotel shuttle bus, and just realized that it seems that whole Scandinavia is down here.
I am truly a lucky bastard having this challenging job and get this opportunities to go to different conferences. I cant wait to get back home and tell my colleagues about the content of the conference. It will be really exiting.
Entered the hotel in RAI area and that is definately not the red light district area... but on the other hand, this is business no pleasure trip. But anyway, I have a nice view from my window, two great highways and world trade centre, not to bad.
I was extremely tired after the flight, and I guess i got some help by the white wine I ordered. As the captain warned for some turbulens it was an easy choice, and i almost just drank everything in two drinks. And almost fell asleep, sweet dreams.
So, with red cheeks I fell of the plane ... in to the hotel, and down to the bar in the hotel. Hungry as a wolf I ordered some food which took a long time to get... almost fell a sleep in the bar as well wail waiting,,.ate like crazy .. and as I mention wolves... there are a lot of them here I can tell.... at the moment I love my hotel room.
Time for bed now, and I will be the first one in the line to sign up tommorow at the conference and hopefully be waked up by my telephone. I truly hope so.
Good night and love from here.
A
Kind of mixed emotions this time as we took ground at Shiphol Airport.
Passed the bars I have some nice memories from and that was kind of hard.
Joined the hotel shuttle bus, and just realized that it seems that whole Scandinavia is down here.
I am truly a lucky bastard having this challenging job and get this opportunities to go to different conferences. I cant wait to get back home and tell my colleagues about the content of the conference. It will be really exiting.
Entered the hotel in RAI area and that is definately not the red light district area... but on the other hand, this is business no pleasure trip. But anyway, I have a nice view from my window, two great highways and world trade centre, not to bad.
I was extremely tired after the flight, and I guess i got some help by the white wine I ordered. As the captain warned for some turbulens it was an easy choice, and i almost just drank everything in two drinks. And almost fell asleep, sweet dreams.
So, with red cheeks I fell of the plane ... in to the hotel, and down to the bar in the hotel. Hungry as a wolf I ordered some food which took a long time to get... almost fell a sleep in the bar as well wail waiting,,.ate like crazy .. and as I mention wolves... there are a lot of them here I can tell.... at the moment I love my hotel room.
Time for bed now, and I will be the first one in the line to sign up tommorow at the conference and hopefully be waked up by my telephone. I truly hope so.
Good night and love from here.
A
Sunday, February 3, 2008
Dreamworld....
Remember I told you about many questions coming to me here on the blog?
I give.. and I get, thank you.
You deserve to read some of the lovely questions and comments from one reader…. Or let me call a dreamer….
The “dreamer” writer is trying both to coach me and make an analysis of me ( good luck) . I just have to answer and support him in his eager….and I pick and choose from the comments as I like. I cant publish the whole comment … sorry.
I truly want to encourage the “dreamer” writer to start his own blog, I would like to read every written line ..
W= Writing guest- the dreamer
A= Anna
W: “Hello my dreamgirl....
A: Well hello hello dreamer… thanks for your attention, I am overvelmed and will comment you on a very own posting, feel honoured.
W:”Naughty writing....!!! Hm... let me think... Should I write something naughty, or shouldn't I .. Somehow I feel like you want me to write naughty stuff... “
A: stop it Mr W .. “you feel I like too” ?
Even if I wanted, I would never tell you….that is for shure
W: “You see... I'm a married man... Well not happy married, but still married... Were my marriage goes I cant tell. Only time can.... But I can tell you this much...”
A: stop again…Mr W, I got some very golden experiences from married men, and I can tell you I stay away as far as I can as I have burned my self almost dead with those lovely creatures . To shitty …to lovely, asume ...but mostly…to painful . but ok, I always listen to what stories (really good ones… ) they come up with, so I will give you an ear as well even if I recommend you to clean up darling.
W: “Your energy is a little scary... I mean... Here I am... Fancying you... Dreaming about how it would be to live with you...”
A: Keep on dreaming my dear W,… You are right, I am an energetic woman, and I am not to bad I think, and yes you are right, my energy both scare and attract, mostly scare …don’t trust me baby. I am hopeless.
W: Would you go nuts on me for being to relaxed?
A “to Relaxed” ? In what way… lazy ? definitely not and maybe yes…. I am very much energetic and in between I need to relax and be lazy to recover and gather new energy,,, to be honest, I can be the most lazy person ever and enjoy it 1000. … but you got me!! I am a restless person as well, depending on the company I guess…but if you are to relaxed I would put some fire into you and you will notice.. but never without commitment.
W : “ I see you as very happy and enjoying your situation...
I like to watch, and I have been watching you many times... Love to watch you....
What about you? Do you love to watch? Do you like to explore others happiness and enjoyments?
A; eh…. Watch !!? Sorry but this triggers my naughty minds… and I don’t dare to answer , but Ok, lets say Yes to your questions from my perspective... Happiness and enjoyments are my key favourite words, in the right occasions …. and definitely regarding others, that’s me. Are you really watching me??
W: “ Dear Anna I really look forward to read your blog. I can imagine that people from a lot of countries like Norway, Sweden, Denmark and maybe Netherlands are following your blog, and maybe they will join in with comments...
A: “ stop for a second…Netherlands..??!! What is this? Now, you got me again… I will go to NL next week!! True, and now I just wonder if you know about that trip, will you also attend the Gartner conference?? Just let me know. hmm….. and luckily I have some fancy connections down there in NL…that actually might read this,,, . I keep that to myself….or… wait….. are you one of the dutch fancy boys I happen to know…. ?? I have to watch my words that is for shure….
W: In case you are interested in details about me, you just have to ask... Anything but my name...
A: Dear mr W, Thank you… yes, I might be…but I wait with some questions for now.. ok? start your blog and I will visit you, promise. And you will soon give me your name, I am convinced…but really… first some cleaning.
W:” I would like to start asking you as being single with a couple of marriages behind you... What would it take to make you stay with a man for the rest of your life? “
A: “ a couple of marriages” , You are just a very nice reader and dreamer…grrr , fyi, I have only been married once, and to be honest, I can merry as many as I like, if it is right… remember, diamonds are a girls best friend…
...
And what would make me stay? For the rest of my life as well ? Sorry, but these questions are not on my mind at the moment as I don’t want to sign up now…., but some things are for shure… Love love and love, respect, sharing and moments of trust… and a lot more. And also, without good laughs and humour I would die and get bored (experience in that), but overall, agreement and understanding that we are on a trip, in the same world and it is ok to grow even within a marriage. Sharing and sharing.
Think of backpackers… there you got me… I will write more about it later on.. but that will give you a hint…Enough for now??
W: What are the basic components in a relationship that has to be strong for you to keep on loving your man enough to stay? Certainly there must be a couple of things...
A; Damn, you are a deep thinking guy, and you give me a hard time now…and to be honest, I like your questions and mindset…. Have missed that lately... It can take a lifetime to give a good answer on that one so I cant give you that now, sorry. Maybe you are the one to tell me.
Trust and love. But to be the father of my lovely children is not a reason for holding on if no good, my children deserve good role models and love.. and also be aware that relations are the most lovely, challenging and wonderful you can ever experience, it is just about how to deal with it. Promise to come back on that one too. And remember the backpack…
W: My nickname…. I was thinking of…()
A: Please who ever you are, please don’t use that nickname.. I don’t like it.
Finally…
I also enjoy that I am only 41 so I have another 40 years still to practice and enjoy life,
That feeling and thought is so lovely.
Keep on writing to me….
I will keep on dancing…..Amsterdam here I come, watch out!!
Your A
I give.. and I get, thank you.
You deserve to read some of the lovely questions and comments from one reader…. Or let me call a dreamer….
The “dreamer” writer is trying both to coach me and make an analysis of me ( good luck) . I just have to answer and support him in his eager….and I pick and choose from the comments as I like. I cant publish the whole comment … sorry.
I truly want to encourage the “dreamer” writer to start his own blog, I would like to read every written line ..
W= Writing guest- the dreamer
A= Anna
W: “Hello my dreamgirl....
A: Well hello hello dreamer… thanks for your attention, I am overvelmed and will comment you on a very own posting, feel honoured.
W:”Naughty writing....!!! Hm... let me think... Should I write something naughty, or shouldn't I .. Somehow I feel like you want me to write naughty stuff... “
A: stop it Mr W .. “you feel I like too” ?
Even if I wanted, I would never tell you….that is for shure
W: “You see... I'm a married man... Well not happy married, but still married... Were my marriage goes I cant tell. Only time can.... But I can tell you this much...”
A: stop again…Mr W, I got some very golden experiences from married men, and I can tell you I stay away as far as I can as I have burned my self almost dead with those lovely creatures . To shitty …to lovely, asume ...but mostly…to painful . but ok, I always listen to what stories (really good ones… ) they come up with, so I will give you an ear as well even if I recommend you to clean up darling.
W: “Your energy is a little scary... I mean... Here I am... Fancying you... Dreaming about how it would be to live with you...”
A: Keep on dreaming my dear W,… You are right, I am an energetic woman, and I am not to bad I think, and yes you are right, my energy both scare and attract, mostly scare …don’t trust me baby. I am hopeless.
W: Would you go nuts on me for being to relaxed?
A “to Relaxed” ? In what way… lazy ? definitely not and maybe yes…. I am very much energetic and in between I need to relax and be lazy to recover and gather new energy,,, to be honest, I can be the most lazy person ever and enjoy it 1000. … but you got me!! I am a restless person as well, depending on the company I guess…but if you are to relaxed I would put some fire into you and you will notice.. but never without commitment.
W : “ I see you as very happy and enjoying your situation...
I like to watch, and I have been watching you many times... Love to watch you....
What about you? Do you love to watch? Do you like to explore others happiness and enjoyments?
A; eh…. Watch !!? Sorry but this triggers my naughty minds… and I don’t dare to answer , but Ok, lets say Yes to your questions from my perspective... Happiness and enjoyments are my key favourite words, in the right occasions …. and definitely regarding others, that’s me. Are you really watching me??
W: “ Dear Anna I really look forward to read your blog. I can imagine that people from a lot of countries like Norway, Sweden, Denmark and maybe Netherlands are following your blog, and maybe they will join in with comments...
A: “ stop for a second…Netherlands..??!! What is this? Now, you got me again… I will go to NL next week!! True, and now I just wonder if you know about that trip, will you also attend the Gartner conference?? Just let me know. hmm….. and luckily I have some fancy connections down there in NL…that actually might read this,,, . I keep that to myself….or… wait….. are you one of the dutch fancy boys I happen to know…. ?? I have to watch my words that is for shure….
W: In case you are interested in details about me, you just have to ask... Anything but my name...
A: Dear mr W, Thank you… yes, I might be…but I wait with some questions for now.. ok? start your blog and I will visit you, promise. And you will soon give me your name, I am convinced…but really… first some cleaning.
W:” I would like to start asking you as being single with a couple of marriages behind you... What would it take to make you stay with a man for the rest of your life? “
A: “ a couple of marriages” , You are just a very nice reader and dreamer…grrr , fyi, I have only been married once, and to be honest, I can merry as many as I like, if it is right… remember, diamonds are a girls best friend…
...
And what would make me stay? For the rest of my life as well ? Sorry, but these questions are not on my mind at the moment as I don’t want to sign up now…., but some things are for shure… Love love and love, respect, sharing and moments of trust… and a lot more. And also, without good laughs and humour I would die and get bored (experience in that), but overall, agreement and understanding that we are on a trip, in the same world and it is ok to grow even within a marriage. Sharing and sharing.
Think of backpackers… there you got me… I will write more about it later on.. but that will give you a hint…Enough for now??
W: What are the basic components in a relationship that has to be strong for you to keep on loving your man enough to stay? Certainly there must be a couple of things...
A; Damn, you are a deep thinking guy, and you give me a hard time now…and to be honest, I like your questions and mindset…. Have missed that lately... It can take a lifetime to give a good answer on that one so I cant give you that now, sorry. Maybe you are the one to tell me.
Trust and love. But to be the father of my lovely children is not a reason for holding on if no good, my children deserve good role models and love.. and also be aware that relations are the most lovely, challenging and wonderful you can ever experience, it is just about how to deal with it. Promise to come back on that one too. And remember the backpack…
W: My nickname…. I was thinking of…()
A: Please who ever you are, please don’t use that nickname.. I don’t like it.
Finally…
I also enjoy that I am only 41 so I have another 40 years still to practice and enjoy life,
That feeling and thought is so lovely.
Keep on writing to me….
I will keep on dancing…..Amsterdam here I come, watch out!!
Your A
Saturday, February 2, 2008
Enjoy
In the middle of the weekend and I am so lazy, lovely and also very very happy.
Have a calm time with my boys doing just nothing then being a very present mother.
Also very curious to read and write in my blog. I have got some very nice, funny and also very naughty..comments and that is really interesting, especially from strangers that seems to want to teas me in one or another way. Hm.... kind of nice.
Continue writing to me, but I will not publish any naughty writings here, just for your information, I am in charge. And it is ok asking me questions, .. I will consider to publish your curious questions, they are some kind of really private.. !!
Keep on having a great weekend. I will just lean back, be present and enjoy my sons, and think of the very best call i got today. I will celebrate all night, all the way to Monday.
Enjoy a lovely evening. Love A
Have a calm time with my boys doing just nothing then being a very present mother.
Also very curious to read and write in my blog. I have got some very nice, funny and also very naughty..comments and that is really interesting, especially from strangers that seems to want to teas me in one or another way. Hm.... kind of nice.
Continue writing to me, but I will not publish any naughty writings here, just for your information, I am in charge. And it is ok asking me questions, .. I will consider to publish your curious questions, they are some kind of really private.. !!
Keep on having a great weekend. I will just lean back, be present and enjoy my sons, and think of the very best call i got today. I will celebrate all night, all the way to Monday.
Enjoy a lovely evening. Love A
Friday, February 1, 2008
Single Friday....
I got my very first comment on the blog yesterday... please have a look. I just had to publish it as I am flattered and so curious... who are you and where do you come from? Please let me know stranger. ( i hope it is a man as i got kisses... :-)
One very good colleague who follows my blog asked me if I should write about more drunkers..... and I did not really understand the question I have to admit. Probably my blog bored him to death about that, but anyway.... just for his information I can tell that I got a another proposal today on my way home and that is really the truth, this time 2 beauty drunkers..., I promise, I just said no thank you, I am married....
That was a nice thing to say, and now I was lying.... Sweet little lovely lie and I also pretend sleeping ( with a big smile) . I have to admit that my self confident have really been boosted the last two days... two proposals in two days... jesus, I should been grateful. And I just realize I dont need to be single one more day if I dont want to...
Hmm... how interesting. I will come back to some single thoughts soon...
Another friend commented my blog today and told me to keep on blogging because it was nice following me from a very long distance. I am grateful of that feedback too.
Back to the single thingy again. One of the most common questions I get among men, friends and people I meet when i am out is, - How come that you are single ? What is the real, real problem with you?? You seem to be a nice woman and jadi jadi jadi...
That 's it.!! Thank you very much for that. Feels like a hit in the face. It is definately something wrong with me.... isnt it, it has to be or...? We can argue about this for a long time, and why not ask some really good sources as well ?
Let me say like this, Yes, it probably is a lot of wrongs and things with me, I would be surprised if not, I am a very much alive person with my own values and behaviours in my relationshiop management. And, I will wait for that day when somebody tells me that it is alright, and ok, all my wrongs and difficulties...
if we should call them problems or whatever.... I cant be someone else than I am, that is really to put violence into the personality and that would be hard and probably impossible. I am not Miss perfect ,definately not..
but of course... I need to sharpen my saw in many ways, that is for shure. And as long as I am aware of that, i am not that really worried. ( and I am making progress, promise, at least on the theoretically level)
And I will never ever tell anybody about my choices I have made related to relations and how grateful I am about taking the steps to get out of relations that are not worth put more energy into. When You give more then you get and you just get out of air and basically just die. Sad but true. And that is really not me, as I am mostly the most alive person in many ways.
With full respect to my ex men, I truly love and respect them in one way and always will, and I also wish them the very best life ever. I was not the right one for them. I am happy I realized that before total catastrophies and break downs, and yes, so are probably they. And also, I secured a lot of feedback to add on to my personal relationship CV, and that is golden. But damn, it is real hard.
Let me share some songs I truly love at the moment and also make me remember and dream both back and forward. They are a combination of sad, happy and kind of sexy songs that I just like at the moment. Please share my favourites...and my mood.
Have a nice weekend. A
Please don´t stop the music --- Rihanna
Say it right -- Nelly Furtado
To late to apologize - Timbaland / One republic
Bleeding Love - Leona Lewis
One very good colleague who follows my blog asked me if I should write about more drunkers..... and I did not really understand the question I have to admit. Probably my blog bored him to death about that, but anyway.... just for his information I can tell that I got a another proposal today on my way home and that is really the truth, this time 2 beauty drunkers..., I promise, I just said no thank you, I am married....
That was a nice thing to say, and now I was lying.... Sweet little lovely lie and I also pretend sleeping ( with a big smile) . I have to admit that my self confident have really been boosted the last two days... two proposals in two days... jesus, I should been grateful. And I just realize I dont need to be single one more day if I dont want to...
Hmm... how interesting. I will come back to some single thoughts soon...
Another friend commented my blog today and told me to keep on blogging because it was nice following me from a very long distance. I am grateful of that feedback too.
Back to the single thingy again. One of the most common questions I get among men, friends and people I meet when i am out is, - How come that you are single ? What is the real, real problem with you?? You seem to be a nice woman and jadi jadi jadi...
That 's it.!! Thank you very much for that. Feels like a hit in the face. It is definately something wrong with me.... isnt it, it has to be or...? We can argue about this for a long time, and why not ask some really good sources as well ?
Let me say like this, Yes, it probably is a lot of wrongs and things with me, I would be surprised if not, I am a very much alive person with my own values and behaviours in my relationshiop management. And, I will wait for that day when somebody tells me that it is alright, and ok, all my wrongs and difficulties...
if we should call them problems or whatever.... I cant be someone else than I am, that is really to put violence into the personality and that would be hard and probably impossible. I am not Miss perfect ,definately not..
but of course... I need to sharpen my saw in many ways, that is for shure. And as long as I am aware of that, i am not that really worried. ( and I am making progress, promise, at least on the theoretically level)
And I will never ever tell anybody about my choices I have made related to relations and how grateful I am about taking the steps to get out of relations that are not worth put more energy into. When You give more then you get and you just get out of air and basically just die. Sad but true. And that is really not me, as I am mostly the most alive person in many ways.
With full respect to my ex men, I truly love and respect them in one way and always will, and I also wish them the very best life ever. I was not the right one for them. I am happy I realized that before total catastrophies and break downs, and yes, so are probably they. And also, I secured a lot of feedback to add on to my personal relationship CV, and that is golden. But damn, it is real hard.
Let me share some songs I truly love at the moment and also make me remember and dream both back and forward. They are a combination of sad, happy and kind of sexy songs that I just like at the moment. Please share my favourites...and my mood.
Have a nice weekend. A
Please don´t stop the music --- Rihanna
Say it right -- Nelly Furtado
To late to apologize - Timbaland / One republic
Bleeding Love - Leona Lewis
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