Next last day of 2008 ..... and soon the 3 of January...

oboy... i have had some great days here in Stockholm and I truly enjoy it. I have become so relaxed that I feel kind of lazy.. but that is ok, at least it feels good.

Teamclinic will go for 2009 with big steps and very much good energy, and that makes me very happy. I give a 5 for our coming work. Truly and gladly and it means more work in Stockholm and I look forward to it.

Myself will go for a challenging and best year 2009 that is for sure and I start up at 3 of January to gather the information, vision and mission given to set the plan.

If I dont have a clear vision and purpose I will just remain standing on the same place as before and their will be no room for expanding, growing and change. And I need the motivation for a change and future coming.

/ A

Hero gifts... Guitar Hero Band

So, Christmas Day is over and out. At least for me.. my boys are still awake and play around with maybe the best christmas gift ever. Guitar Hero Band. Well.. I thank myself all evening that I did not hesitate to buy it, even if it was very much to expensive... but, today I just realized it was worth it. The boys were both surprised and so happy about it and we had fun all afternoon and also this evening.

Quiet hard to hang on to the songs but we managed so good together. Some of the songs I sang but mostly I played the guitar and I did it very good. True.....

In the end I got the feeling of being sea sick, that much we played. But it was great fun and we had such a great time together playing, concentrating and laughing.

Another hero is some far away from here but he is anyway present very much and have been during the evening.

To me this cristmas is about being together in one way and not to in another. The great thing is that both scenarious are good and will be good in the end.

Now.. to bed and a long night of sleeping.

God Jul och Gott nytt År.

Anna

23th of December....a puma in town

I have just had the best 23th December ever. Celebrated in a Mc Donalds restaurant with 3 men who makes me crazy happy in different ways. Just the freedom and spirit in a pure happiness that is the truth and nothing but the truth. Unexpected, simple and as good as the best time ever. How hard can it be.

I just got that lovely feeling again... reminding me about my choices and the pure and honest energy i own.

Share, give and get is strong and right.

Welcome Mr Santa, time for some christmas celebration.

The puma is ready.

Love
A

Merry Christmas

Another Christmas is coming.. just straight into your face and I just shake my head. One more year and I still remember when i wrote last year blog from Christmas and new year.



I was not in happy pappy mood so to say and the reason was kind of a few. Mainly because i should celebrate my first christmas in Stockholm for years, without the children and without going to my father which I normally did when not seing the boys.



Of course I surviced that Christmas, damn good, actually It became one of the best ever. I still remember the happiness and great laugh we shared in the bar in the department store, Gunilla and I with the owner of the bar. We drank champagne and also blueberry glogg and we were tipsy and giggling all day and night long.



Well hello,,, and the walk thrue old city to to a bar and the rest.... yeah... we did our choices and we enjoyed every minute. Even though.... be both shared a strange feeling to not celebrate with the one you love and want to have close.



This year, my children are in place and that gives me some kind of calmness and satisfaction I cant describe. I can be the present mother every minute and just spend love.



The celebration started today here in Stockholm and will continue in Arboga. I look forward to spend some days in the old apartment over there, truly I do.



I will do the Christmas as good as I want to and have energy to do and I have asked my children to do the same.



Time for reflections, time for decision and time for some resting. But also.. time for sharing and love as much as possible. Even to the ones that are to far away... half full glasses have to be enough .. at least for this christmas and some more days.



After new years eve and a few days more I will celebrate and drink the lovely champagne I got today in full glasses. No matter what will be the first strategic initiative for 2009, and no matter the challenges to face . I am ready for a new year, just ready to go out and make it the best year ever.

I love to live.



Merry Christmas and a Happy New Year.





A

Time...

One and a half week since I updated the blog and I guess it is time.

So many things are happening at the moment and I just think what I can write or not.

But truly, since the time out last week things have been more visible and clear to me.

I am even more eager to give myself energy and trust to sort things out, that is what i need, me too.

Luckily it is soon Christmas time and I will keep the hotel closed for some days and some extra days to consider something good.

I had some great meetings in Stockholm yesterday and today which gave me a lot of energy and confident in certain ways.

And I went shopping the first and maybe also the last christmas gifts today...expensive yes, but i hope it will be great fun.

Also time to put the formality problem regarding the restaurant in a koma for a while. Now we need some time to work and mobilize for some other suggestions. Thats life.

TIme for bed. I am dead tired.

Good night
A

Friday --- time to cool down..

Went to work in the morning for a shorter meeting to gather the staff and give them trust and energy to continue their great work as done so far without me. Atually they dont need me.... and that is the best record to both them and me.

Have to admit it was kind of swetty to be in the hotel but it felt good to meet everyone.

Further on to my body and soul worker Mervi. Great output and outcome.

Drive to Stockholm for a lunch meeting, great content... great feeling and great is just the word.

Further drive to Stockholm for some business...

And finally, picked up Robin and Linnea for an amusing afternoon at Heron City.

Bowling, playing and eating and finally the movie Madagaskar 2.

What a movie. The translation was excellent and the movie was just wonderful. I laughed as much as the kids and even more. So much love and humour, i just loved it.

I thought of a very lovely special man when I saw the movie and I want to see it again together with him.

The drive home with two tired lovely kids in the backseat, happy and stuffed and they just wanted to be put into bed.

Quickest bed issue for a long time.

A calm Friday and I feel very ok.


Love

Anna

Wake up Anna ... 4th December

did you read about the happy Monday? well at least it lasted for about 20 hours... then.. down .. the happiness.. was kind of far away.


Deep down. Honestly I went down for sleep for 48 hours.. almost. Woke up today... this morning.... punished by the lovely people in the hospital that took care of me.... and reminded me about my blindness.

No one will ever understand me... but when I woke up today at 0530 .... i could open my eyes, smile, move my face and body again and also talk normally. I almost wanted to scream out loud that feeling.

Tuesday night my body was drained of my lifeline and energy... and today thursday morning I felt the Anna nerv was back again. And I promised myself to enjoy it even more from now on.

These days during shitty sad circumstances you realize the truth and prioritizing close to you ..
Hard but true and that is also a good wake up even if my heart goes spinning and hurts badly again.

Back to reality....Some calls today made my day. I could laugh out loud and I felt the lovely happiness again I normally fell and own , thank good...when enjoying my life and the speed of trust. Fuck the sadness Anna, and lets choose the happiness. Absolutely.

4th December will be on my mind for some time.


listen to this song.... A Million Candles burning

I like it and it makes me wanna move my burned body slowly....

guess what version I prefer today?

http://se.youtube.com/watch?v=lyPRwwTxJiI&feature=related slow....

http://se.youtube.com/watch?v=5PS3cn72Lfo&feature=related not so slow...


a beautiful place with power and grace, where the sun never sets The cities of hope with people that cold A vision is born
(Chorus)

A million candles burning From now you are never alone 'cause people's minds are turning From now a conscious mind

With fire and flame, water and rain She calls out for help We lived and we learned this love got burned It's over and out

(Chorus) A million candles burning From now you are never alone 'cause people's minds are turning From now you are never alone

Now the tide is turning From now you are never alone 'cause people's minds are turning From now

Today we turn the page A change from deep inside
Tonight we celebrate the beauty and the power of this turn
Tonight

(Chorus) A million candles burning From now you are never alone 'cause people's minds are turning From now you are never alone Now the tide is turning From now you are never alone 'cause people's mind are turning
From now Today we can change Tomorrow's too late From now a conscious mind
Everyone knows Where we must go From now a conscious mind

Happy Monday....

Yesterday evening was a nightmare in some minds and the night of happiness as well in other minds.

This morning was some hard to get up early to make the breakfast .. puh. After a minor party I was dead tired, snoring like an idiot and still up and running at 0515. The rule and regulation to never go to work with a hangover was just flewing away in the river of Arboga.

Luckily I had the time for massage this morning and it did great to my back and body. So great that I cried almost all day in silence.. and maybe some visible to.


Unbelievable, today I can tell you that all the guests at the hotel have been so friendly and kind that I was just overwelmed. DId they see or did they just guessed that something was going on with the young hotel director today? I know.. i probably looked like a ghost today... the hair just unfixed like a wilder... and black dark eyes with a long distance to the very bottom.

At least... I felt I was very greatful about this Monday in the end. .. up .

Nothing else is expected .

I wished I had a watch that could cheer me up with some pokals if I have been a good girl and doing my homework according to my pulse and heartbeat.


Goodnight
Anna