was just a dream...., we will never reach it and we could not hold on to the very last end.
Sisters and brothers can have their fights and arguments, that is quiet normal... I guess. Same with me and my younger sister. I remember those fights as horrible when we were youngsters and I wanted to kill her. She was kind of jealous of me of everything, without no reason.. I thought, at that time. Same now.
But now I can understand why she is. Of my spirit and energy and most for choosing happiness even in the worst situations.
The older you get, the more you understand what is going on. The genes are coming up, shows and dancing you straight in the face and even closer. Some genes are more lovely then others. Some are awful.
The hour of truth is just here. The final heritage meeting will take place Friday. Since the D day in November 2006 the grief has brought us togheter. This ongoing discussions, meetings and agreements have been ok. Until now.
In this last hour the truth everyting just exploded. The jealousy with the big J. We have never been so far away from each other as this day. A lot of truths were served like a five course dinner. And it´s all about money.
I have done my best to keep cool, been nice, been structured, strong and also kind of energized in this common sharing.
Its over now. Now we will have to fight on our own, pick up the left overs of huge sadness, keep on smiling and be cool inside. Just survive and be strong.
Money has never been any of my drivers in life ( prob stupid) and will maybe be.
Lucky I got some potential, or.. quiet high actually, even without it.
Give me a hand for both of us, we truly need it.
A
Wednesday, February 27, 2008
Tuesday, February 26, 2008
Personal mission statement - lets go for it - Love , Live , Learn and leave a Legacy
I am heavy busy involved in my resources PDD:s at the moment. Personal Development Dialouges which actually should be seen as the most important tools for the person to be serious about a plan for the coming months, and year.
This is one of the most intersting and challenging tasks as a manager during the year, to be part of the employees evaluation of progress, plan for the future and development for the coming year. I truly enjoy it, and it requires a lot, full attention, support and coaching to the right level and also inspiration and idées for further development and challenges.
I truly encourage my employees to take the fully ownership of this PD plan as it is so very important when we expect to see improvement, engagement, progress and performance on a very high level. And they do, and they want to. That is great. They deserve it.
I also very much encourage everyone to really consider some broader future thinking of what they really want and want to achieve in life and in work. But...Here we get some challenges. They normally have problems in being honest with their wishes, thoughts and dreams, and mostly, they never allow themselves to think this way, some further, some self oriented. It is to put yourself in the first room and it is a bit scary....or?
My former manager René, really encourage me the same way which made me create my first personal mission statement plan i have ever have. And it is still valid. Some minor corrections during the way, but still. I have created a road map for the coming 5 years, not in details, but overall milestones and what to achieve and so on. I am just so happy about it.
It was not easy, some nights, weeks and days to really consider what choices I really wanted to make ...
One day it was more clear then before and good enough and I could start writing it down.
Most best outcome of this mindwork and thinking is that I started to make choices that fit into my strategies for achieving my goal. So easy, so right. I started to make clear choices. Well, how hard can it be you might ask? But honest, to me it has mostly been somone else that have been part of my choices by asking me, hunting me, requesting me, encourage me to and so on... and I just realized that it and I felt better when I just start doing the choices on my own more often then before.
I can truly recommend You for some deeper thinking regarding this. I was very much encourage by a good manager and also the book and author Steven R Covey and his book, 7 Habits of Highly Effective People. If you should buy one book during March, choose this one.
Not only in working life I started to make my choices, also in private life.
There is no guarantee that you always choose the right things all the time, but it is definately worth trying if you believe in something.
Sometimes you pick the right ones, and sometimes you just get some golden experiences, and that is also very uplifting, to see it with some positive eyes..
I look forward to my PDD this year, I will really challenge my manager in a good way. He deserves that. But my Personal Mission statement Plan, I keep for myself. That is my private.
Allt the best to you out there,
Love from here.
Anna
PS Happy birthday Grady. You are my second best favourite System Analyst, forever young!!
Sunday, February 24, 2008
Say it right...
japp.... that is sometimes really hard and important...
lets get some emotional inspired here late at Sunday evening by Nelly Furtado,
Just heard this very lovely song on the radio.. and as
Nelly is one of my favourite girlfriends she wrote this for me, only for me.
Thanks Nelly , it is some great lyrics and you sing them marvellous good.
/ A
"Say It Right"
In the day
In the night
Say it right
Say it all
You either got it
Or you don't
You either stand or you fall
When your will is broken
When it slips from your hand
When there's no time for joking
There's a hole in the plan
Oh you don't mean nothing at all to me
No you don't mean nothing at all to me
But you got what it takes to set me free
Oh you could mean everything to me
I can't say that I'm not lost and at fault
I can't say that I don't love the light and the dark
I can't say that I don't know that I am alive
And all of what I feel I could show
You tonight you tonight
Oh you don't mean nothing at all to me
No you don't mean nothing at all to me
But you got what it takes to set me free
Oh you could mean everything to me
From my hands I could give you
Something that I made
From my mouth I could sing you another brick that I laid
From my body I could show you a place God knows
You should know the space is holy
Do you really want to go?
lets get some emotional inspired here late at Sunday evening by Nelly Furtado,
Just heard this very lovely song on the radio.. and as
Nelly is one of my favourite girlfriends she wrote this for me, only for me.
Thanks Nelly , it is some great lyrics and you sing them marvellous good.
/ A
"Say It Right"
In the day
In the night
Say it right
Say it all
You either got it
Or you don't
You either stand or you fall
When your will is broken
When it slips from your hand
When there's no time for joking
There's a hole in the plan
Oh you don't mean nothing at all to me
No you don't mean nothing at all to me
But you got what it takes to set me free
Oh you could mean everything to me
I can't say that I'm not lost and at fault
I can't say that I don't love the light and the dark
I can't say that I don't know that I am alive
And all of what I feel I could show
You tonight you tonight
Oh you don't mean nothing at all to me
No you don't mean nothing at all to me
But you got what it takes to set me free
Oh you could mean everything to me
From my hands I could give you
Something that I made
From my mouth I could sing you another brick that I laid
From my body I could show you a place God knows
You should know the space is holy
Do you really want to go?
Unexpected .. the worst......-- Jesus To A Child
Sometimes you just wonder why?
One of the smallest words, but probably most biggest and effectful when using it, reacting on it and even more harder to understand and give an answer to it.
Get me out of here... really.
Fyi, I keep on staying confident, happy and inspired as ever before, no doubt.
Just listen to this sensual song, As you know I love music and lyrics and this is one of my old favourite records, suitable for a blog posting like this.
Enjoy.. and thanks.
Jesus to a child , George Michael
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=0egWXAPGVOo&feature=related
/ A
One of the smallest words, but probably most biggest and effectful when using it, reacting on it and even more harder to understand and give an answer to it.
Get me out of here... really.
Fyi, I keep on staying confident, happy and inspired as ever before, no doubt.
Just listen to this sensual song, As you know I love music and lyrics and this is one of my old favourite records, suitable for a blog posting like this.
Enjoy.. and thanks.
Jesus to a child , George Michael
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=0egWXAPGVOo&feature=related
/ A
Saturday, February 23, 2008
Unexpected happenings ...... the best
Lovely Saturday. What a day, what a feeling! Sun is shining and the spring just seems to be around the corner.
Lovely walk with my friend Gunilla for two hours along the lake side here and you can imagine the beauty and the atmosphere close to the water, it was just great.
Both of us girls have excellent :-) skills in communication.... so there are a lot of nice conversations when we are having our walks... regarding just everything. You can imagine.
Especially one thing made her so very happy and she was almost just flying when telling me over and over again about here very most unexpected happening this Friday. Eh... it was a great story, and I was so happy ( and also jealous) for her that I was as thrilled as her.
The unexpected happenings are the best arent they? To often you raise the expectations and get some disappointed as it does not fit to your minds. So lets reduce the expectations then and just go for the flow.. more easier said then done..
I did this Friday afternoon.. no expectations at all for the coming calm weekend, but just relax and take care of my oldest sons. ... and so..... I also got the very very best unexpected notice as well, and it will last for the whole weekend and some weeks as well.
Keep on enjoy the weekend and go with the flow ....
Love / A
Thursday, February 21, 2008
Worthwile work....motivation
Another day in paradise. just passed and it went out to be a great working day. Am I surprised?
No, not much. Many good things are inspiring my at the moment and some demotivating things are inspiring too.. that is even better.
Told you about the KPI 2008 workshop included ESI actions planned for today and the outcome was really great. Mostly because of great commitment from all resources and the smart goals to reach the KPI.s.
I am not surprised about this either. I am working with a team of highly skilled and motivated people that really walk their talk from many perspective. That is motivating to me.
Ended the day with an exercise in giving constructive negative feedback and that was really interesting. To give this kind of feedback requires some training but also gut to be honest in the best way.
Feedback should be seen as a gift, and we all love gifts, dont we?
I am tired but very happy, that is a good ending for today.
A
No, not much. Many good things are inspiring my at the moment and some demotivating things are inspiring too.. that is even better.
Told you about the KPI 2008 workshop included ESI actions planned for today and the outcome was really great. Mostly because of great commitment from all resources and the smart goals to reach the KPI.s.
I am not surprised about this either. I am working with a team of highly skilled and motivated people that really walk their talk from many perspective. That is motivating to me.
Ended the day with an exercise in giving constructive negative feedback and that was really interesting. To give this kind of feedback requires some training but also gut to be honest in the best way.
Feedback should be seen as a gift, and we all love gifts, dont we?
I am tired but very happy, that is a good ending for today.
A
Wednesday, February 20, 2008
PPM 25 .... here we go
Please, feel welcome to share the headlines for my coming speaker session at IBM Rational Sofware Conference in US Florida.
""
PPM25 Case Study at Nordea Bank: Survival Kits for Successful Process Adoption
Tuesday, June 3, 3:30 pm - 4:30/5:00 pm
You can have the best process in the world but if people don't adopt it, it is not very useful. Process adoption is a challenge in all methodology camps. The bigger the change is the harder it is. The agile movement has been very successful primarily because they didn't take bigger pieces than people can adopt naturally. On the other hand agile methods are harder to scale. In this talk we will combine the two approaches. We will show how process adoption can be made in small digestible steps but also how it can scale. The change will be driven by the development team itself. We get highly motivated teams that focus on project delivery and on customer success. Good examples and success stories will be presented.
""
If You attend the conference you just have to step by, I promise that it will be great Infotainement, worthwile topic. Welcome.
------------------------------
This Wednesday was quiet busy and full of challenges all day long... but it ended up so very very great.
Very many reasons but let me mention some of them and also promote some of the persons I both respect and see as good role models...
- Unified Process Mentors . I got a mail from one of best Process mentors in Europe, sending me congratulations to the submission of my session at RSDC this year. Thank You Julian!!
I was happy to see that Julian also will be a speaker as well in the same track and I will be the first one in the audience when ít starts.... Congratulations to you Julian, you are excellent and a great inspirer to me!! I truly recommend you to any partner working with process implementations.
http://www.upmentors.com/
https://1bosweb3.experient-inc.com/Events/Rational/RSDC2008/Agenda/agenda_by_track.cfm?track=PPM&#PPM21
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-- Julie Gardiner , Grove Consultants . Julie just made me jump of happiness tonight since she accepted our request to be one of the key speaker at the Nordea IT conference in May.
Holy moses, that really will make a difference and happiness to many I can tell.
As I am the task force manager for this IT conference I am eager to get the best speakers of course and Julie is one of my very true Test Manager favourites. The audience in IT Con in Copenhagen were thrilled and very happy about her session.
So Julie, feel welcome to Stockholm. We will make a great set up.
Fyi, I will mention that Jim Webber also has accepted among other very good speakers in the developer track.
-- , Coaching and energizing,,, i got the very best coaching late in the afternoon before going home as well, and I truly like the way of sparring, even if you get exhausted and dizzy about the conclusions and answers about certain questions. Damn, that is both hard and great. Mostly great.
Keep on having a lovely February, soon it is March.
Cheers
A
""
PPM25 Case Study at Nordea Bank: Survival Kits for Successful Process Adoption
Tuesday, June 3, 3:30 pm - 4:30/5:00 pm
You can have the best process in the world but if people don't adopt it, it is not very useful. Process adoption is a challenge in all methodology camps. The bigger the change is the harder it is. The agile movement has been very successful primarily because they didn't take bigger pieces than people can adopt naturally. On the other hand agile methods are harder to scale. In this talk we will combine the two approaches. We will show how process adoption can be made in small digestible steps but also how it can scale. The change will be driven by the development team itself. We get highly motivated teams that focus on project delivery and on customer success. Good examples and success stories will be presented.
""
If You attend the conference you just have to step by, I promise that it will be great Infotainement, worthwile topic. Welcome.
------------------------------
This Wednesday was quiet busy and full of challenges all day long... but it ended up so very very great.
Very many reasons but let me mention some of them and also promote some of the persons I both respect and see as good role models...
- Unified Process Mentors . I got a mail from one of best Process mentors in Europe, sending me congratulations to the submission of my session at RSDC this year. Thank You Julian!!
I was happy to see that Julian also will be a speaker as well in the same track and I will be the first one in the audience when ít starts.... Congratulations to you Julian, you are excellent and a great inspirer to me!! I truly recommend you to any partner working with process implementations.
http://www.upmentors.com/
https://1bosweb3.experient-inc.com/Events/Rational/RSDC2008/Agenda/agenda_by_track.cfm?track=PPM&#PPM21
--------------------------
-- Julie Gardiner , Grove Consultants . Julie just made me jump of happiness tonight since she accepted our request to be one of the key speaker at the Nordea IT conference in May.
Holy moses, that really will make a difference and happiness to many I can tell.
As I am the task force manager for this IT conference I am eager to get the best speakers of course and Julie is one of my very true Test Manager favourites. The audience in IT Con in Copenhagen were thrilled and very happy about her session.
So Julie, feel welcome to Stockholm. We will make a great set up.
Fyi, I will mention that Jim Webber also has accepted among other very good speakers in the developer track.
-- , Coaching and energizing,,, i got the very best coaching late in the afternoon before going home as well, and I truly like the way of sparring, even if you get exhausted and dizzy about the conclusions and answers about certain questions. Damn, that is both hard and great. Mostly great.
Keep on having a lovely February, soon it is March.
Cheers
A
Tuesday, February 19, 2008
Confirmation ....
of ticket and vacation very soon. How nice. I can´t wait and I truly long for it, badly and madly ... yippey for that one.
Business Intelligence, yes it is really interesting and if you want to know more about it I truly recommend Gartner and Forrester research institutes for more information.
Back to office tomorrow... At the moment I will focus on people , PDD and ESI plan for 2008 and will make the best workshop ever regarding Employee satisfaction KPI:s on Thursday. My team is just the best one to deliver and they will once again prove their capability.
Energy, love and strenght to all of you ....and for me as well...
/ A
Business Intelligence, yes it is really interesting and if you want to know more about it I truly recommend Gartner and Forrester research institutes for more information.
Back to office tomorrow... At the moment I will focus on people , PDD and ESI plan for 2008 and will make the best workshop ever regarding Employee satisfaction KPI:s on Thursday. My team is just the best one to deliver and they will once again prove their capability.
Energy, love and strenght to all of you ....and for me as well...
/ A
Sunday, February 17, 2008
Seriousity ...
So.. lets be some serious here in the blog after some really emotional writings ...
This blog is my private blog and does not reflect any of my employees or colleagues way of working, thínking or acting. I just want to remind you about that.
Neither I will promote my company as the best, profitable and customer oriented company in the Nordic and Baltic area, as I guess already know it, and its a fact,,,
And neither will I tell You that highly skilled resources outside the bank contact me for being employed in the company, due to good reputation regarding both interesting technologies and also very much focus on people development valuebased leadership, lets say good management.
I guess you already have understood that as well.. so..
Of course I have a golden box of experiences, stories, best practices and you name it from my company to tell.
If you ever meet me you will definatley be aware of me being dead serious about my work, acting and loyalty to my company. No doubt. I would never ever had stay for so long if it was not the case. Some people reacted to my Micro Management blog post before... but regarding that... yes yes. I still think it is so bad and I truly hope that the manager reads it and see it as a gift.
I will comment some of my daily it development-bank manager experiences here in the blog as well, and I both wish and want to write even more, that is for shure, but I have to be aware of what to tell you, from a selfish point of view...some of it is worth a lot...
On the other hand, I can tell you what ever I want regarding myself and my private living, that is also for shure. But I guess I have to be aware there as well.
Btw, did you know that I truly dreamt about being a journalist or a doctor when I was a child? The Journalist dream is maybe still there and that is why I like writing, and just writing here all the time.
Regarding writings, have had some comments here on the blog regarding loyalty, openness and other small little details about being cynical as well, ... so what to comment on that?
To be cynical and ironic is maybe two great sence of humours to me. Some people hate it and some love it. My father typically, he could never ever understand being ironic..oh my good, you can imagine how many good laughs I had, and how many he did not have...
My mind, heart and brain is open and honest (mostly) so please trust what I am writing, I am very honest in here to be honest. And if you dont like it, just dont like it, and stop reading, it is ok.
Btw, I can recommend you one blog here regarding being serious. One blogger I truly wish all the best since he is same dead serious as I am in my professional life.
I also want to mention and promote the bloggers lovely comment here in February, John Santaferraro , which to me is a great mindset...
"" --- I’ve heard 100 stories where business intelligence helps companies make a dollar. I’ve only heard a handful of stories where intelligence makes a difference....""
John, I will never forget that statement, you just did hit so many people with that comment and made us leave the room and the conference with an open attitude for a further win-win situation and a great feeling of happiness. Great
http://h20325.www2.hp.com/blogs/businessintelligence
Ok, Business Intelligence or not in this blog ?.well at least a comment today regarding BI.. and make a difference?? yes, that is what my blogging is about. To get you into my mindset and daily life and maybe get some input or make a difference... in one or another way.
To gather a lot of data from a very busy, high performing manager perspective can definately be seen as some female intelligence...
And remember, dont incapsulate your data to hard and complicated, that means challenge for further integrations and implementations.
Monday and only 4 weeks to some smaller brilliant vacation... how nice.
Love/
Anna
This blog is my private blog and does not reflect any of my employees or colleagues way of working, thínking or acting. I just want to remind you about that.
Neither I will promote my company as the best, profitable and customer oriented company in the Nordic and Baltic area, as I guess already know it, and its a fact,,,
And neither will I tell You that highly skilled resources outside the bank contact me for being employed in the company, due to good reputation regarding both interesting technologies and also very much focus on people development valuebased leadership, lets say good management.
I guess you already have understood that as well.. so..
Of course I have a golden box of experiences, stories, best practices and you name it from my company to tell.
If you ever meet me you will definatley be aware of me being dead serious about my work, acting and loyalty to my company. No doubt. I would never ever had stay for so long if it was not the case. Some people reacted to my Micro Management blog post before... but regarding that... yes yes. I still think it is so bad and I truly hope that the manager reads it and see it as a gift.
I will comment some of my daily it development-bank manager experiences here in the blog as well, and I both wish and want to write even more, that is for shure, but I have to be aware of what to tell you, from a selfish point of view...some of it is worth a lot...
On the other hand, I can tell you what ever I want regarding myself and my private living, that is also for shure. But I guess I have to be aware there as well.
Btw, did you know that I truly dreamt about being a journalist or a doctor when I was a child? The Journalist dream is maybe still there and that is why I like writing, and just writing here all the time.
Regarding writings, have had some comments here on the blog regarding loyalty, openness and other small little details about being cynical as well, ... so what to comment on that?
To be cynical and ironic is maybe two great sence of humours to me. Some people hate it and some love it. My father typically, he could never ever understand being ironic..oh my good, you can imagine how many good laughs I had, and how many he did not have...
My mind, heart and brain is open and honest (mostly) so please trust what I am writing, I am very honest in here to be honest. And if you dont like it, just dont like it, and stop reading, it is ok.
Btw, I can recommend you one blog here regarding being serious. One blogger I truly wish all the best since he is same dead serious as I am in my professional life.
I also want to mention and promote the bloggers lovely comment here in February, John Santaferraro , which to me is a great mindset...
"" --- I’ve heard 100 stories where business intelligence helps companies make a dollar. I’ve only heard a handful of stories where intelligence makes a difference....""
John, I will never forget that statement, you just did hit so many people with that comment and made us leave the room and the conference with an open attitude for a further win-win situation and a great feeling of happiness. Great
http://h20325.www2.hp.com/blogs/businessintelligence
Ok, Business Intelligence or not in this blog ?.well at least a comment today regarding BI.. and make a difference?? yes, that is what my blogging is about. To get you into my mindset and daily life and maybe get some input or make a difference... in one or another way.
To gather a lot of data from a very busy, high performing manager perspective can definately be seen as some female intelligence...
And remember, dont incapsulate your data to hard and complicated, that means challenge for further integrations and implementations.
Monday and only 4 weeks to some smaller brilliant vacation... how nice.
Love/
Anna
Friday, February 15, 2008
Little voice...imagination..
So much to say, so much to share and so much else....
I will not tell you a thing today ...only sing.
Just remind you about using your imagination sometimes and also choose happiness.
That is really a good choice.
I am not crazy, I just cant stop dancing....
" please dont stop the music...."
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=xsRWpK4pf90
Baby are you ready cause its getting close
Don't you feel the passion ready to explode
What goes on between us no one has to know
This is a private show (oh)
Do you know what you started
I just came here to party
But now we're rockin on the dancefloor
Acting naughty
Your hands around my waist
Just let the music play
We're hand in hand
Chest to chest
And now we're face to face
I wanna take you away
Lets escape into the music
DJ let it play
I just can't refuse it
Like the way you do this
Keep on rockin to it
Please don't stop the
Please don't stop the
Please don't stop the music
-----------------
Lovely Friday,
A
I will not tell you a thing today ...only sing.
Just remind you about using your imagination sometimes and also choose happiness.
That is really a good choice.
I am not crazy, I just cant stop dancing....
" please dont stop the music...."
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=xsRWpK4pf90
Baby are you ready cause its getting close
Don't you feel the passion ready to explode
What goes on between us no one has to know
This is a private show (oh)
Do you know what you started
I just came here to party
But now we're rockin on the dancefloor
Acting naughty
Your hands around my waist
Just let the music play
We're hand in hand
Chest to chest
And now we're face to face
I wanna take you away
Lets escape into the music
DJ let it play
I just can't refuse it
Like the way you do this
Keep on rockin to it
Please don't stop the
Please don't stop the
Please don't stop the music
-----------------
Lovely Friday,
A
Thursday, February 14, 2008
14 February - Alla hjärtans dag ....
The best Valentine Day ever!!! I dont know how it happened, it just did.
What and how you give is also what you get, That is for shure.
This Day will turn out to be the very best 14 February ever as I remember, let me share.
-- Love and Kiss in the morning and love and kiss in the evening when picking up my little Ninja Turtle at pre-school. Thank you for making a maskerade at preschool... that was so much love from the children in that. Absolutely geourgious he was and the most beauty boy of course, I love you Robin.
-- Love and kiss for the Valentine card I got today, that made me so very happy...
-- Love and kiss for some lovely arrangements coming.. i very much look forward to that vacation...
-- Love ( and no kiss) for a very motivating phonecall from an internal unit today, i got a good " brand" that is good to know... and at this day, of course boosting.
-- Love ( and maybe a small kiss ) for the letter from laywer!!! I can just tell you this, It looks really good , Yahooo.... and remember February 29th.... that is the signing day. I will come back to you about this, promise.
-- Love and sharing at lunch with my two favourite female colleagues..
-- Happiness for the health check I did this morning. The nurse looked at me and the e-form that I had filled in before and just concluded, it looks like you are in a very good condition and mood and it fits to your answer in the form..
Yes, that was really true.... My feelings and happiness inside is visible on the outside.
( I have to admit I got some remarks about the weight ...yeah yeah... and I promise some progress, soon I will start biking) no doubt .
Finally,
Love and kiss to all my girlfriends and friends, you are very far away, but always very close anyway,,
Love and kiss to my lovely boys, I truly love you and promise to keep on telling you, not only on a day like this.
/ L& K
A
What and how you give is also what you get, That is for shure.
This Day will turn out to be the very best 14 February ever as I remember, let me share.
-- Love and Kiss in the morning and love and kiss in the evening when picking up my little Ninja Turtle at pre-school. Thank you for making a maskerade at preschool... that was so much love from the children in that. Absolutely geourgious he was and the most beauty boy of course, I love you Robin.
-- Love and kiss for the Valentine card I got today, that made me so very happy...
-- Love and kiss for some lovely arrangements coming.. i very much look forward to that vacation...
-- Love ( and no kiss) for a very motivating phonecall from an internal unit today, i got a good " brand" that is good to know... and at this day, of course boosting.
-- Love ( and maybe a small kiss ) for the letter from laywer!!! I can just tell you this, It looks really good , Yahooo.... and remember February 29th.... that is the signing day. I will come back to you about this, promise.
-- Love and sharing at lunch with my two favourite female colleagues..
-- Happiness for the health check I did this morning. The nurse looked at me and the e-form that I had filled in before and just concluded, it looks like you are in a very good condition and mood and it fits to your answer in the form..
Yes, that was really true.... My feelings and happiness inside is visible on the outside.
( I have to admit I got some remarks about the weight ...yeah yeah... and I promise some progress, soon I will start biking) no doubt .
Finally,
Love and kiss to all my girlfriends and friends, you are very far away, but always very close anyway,,
Love and kiss to my lovely boys, I truly love you and promise to keep on telling you, not only on a day like this.
/ L& K
A
Wednesday, February 13, 2008
Frustration.... opportunity?
Have you ever had the feeling of frustration,kind of panicing.. you know, when your feeling is that something is really bad, or the opposite, totally wonderful, and you can´t do anything about it even if you want to and have the capacity?
I am there. Damn... it is hard to deal with and I have to see this as a testing period coming to me as a gift to learn how to handle.
And, mostly, I want it to be the best opportunity ever.
Thank God, I just have to stick to the people I want to, that is for shure, and also try to hold my horses.
Life is just so wonderful and challenging.
That is lovely and the best opportunity.
// A
I am there. Damn... it is hard to deal with and I have to see this as a testing period coming to me as a gift to learn how to handle.
And, mostly, I want it to be the best opportunity ever.
Thank God, I just have to stick to the people I want to, that is for shure, and also try to hold my horses.
Life is just so wonderful and challenging.
That is lovely and the best opportunity.
// A
Tuesday, February 12, 2008
Hometown...
View from my lovely hometown Arboga.
Look forward to some nice travels very soon. Really.
Feel welcome.
/A
Monday, February 11, 2008
Micro management....
Micro Management, have you heard of it? I thought that this "detail management" was the last part of some questioned non surviving leadership, did not exist.
In my wildest dream, 2008, I had hoped that this kind of management would not come to me.... but it did.
Today I was affected by the MM, Micro Management, leadership, which I can tell just will end up in to something really bad for my company... you can just imagine in what ways it will affect. The last one to realize this is the Micro manager himself....and this of course will be the very best and most expensive experience ever...
But but.... It is a fact and as long as someone tries to turn this into something good ant not too humiliating, I will survive, as always...... ?
-- How fascinating, and thank you for showing me the power of a real bad example!!
To all managers out there, and to all my employees as well, and for those who reads this, never go for this kind of management ever.... it is demotivating, frustrating, and so far away from trust as you can get. Put trust in your people and you will see the energy and performance in execution.
And If I ever start acting as a Micro Manager .... please hit me and give me the very best kick and reminder to go on...
Hit and kick... yes, that could also be the perfect words ending this blog today...
Hit.... I am hit by a lot of happiness, love and good emotions at the moment.
and
Kick.... yes, I will truly kick myself to keep it and make something really good about it...
/ love A
In my wildest dream, 2008, I had hoped that this kind of management would not come to me.... but it did.
Today I was affected by the MM, Micro Management, leadership, which I can tell just will end up in to something really bad for my company... you can just imagine in what ways it will affect. The last one to realize this is the Micro manager himself....and this of course will be the very best and most expensive experience ever...
But but.... It is a fact and as long as someone tries to turn this into something good ant not too humiliating, I will survive, as always...... ?
-- How fascinating, and thank you for showing me the power of a real bad example!!
To all managers out there, and to all my employees as well, and for those who reads this, never go for this kind of management ever.... it is demotivating, frustrating, and so far away from trust as you can get. Put trust in your people and you will see the energy and performance in execution.
And If I ever start acting as a Micro Manager .... please hit me and give me the very best kick and reminder to go on...
Hit and kick... yes, that could also be the perfect words ending this blog today...
Hit.... I am hit by a lot of happiness, love and good emotions at the moment.
and
Kick.... yes, I will truly kick myself to keep it and make something really good about it...
/ love A
Sunday, February 10, 2008
Wedding ... the day after
What a lovely wedding I attended yesterday. The best Thomas I know, got his Molly Inger in a lovely ceremony in an old castle in the northen part of Stockholm.
So romantic, so cool, and also a lot of emotions during the ceremony. Inger had a lovely black ( yes you read right) wedding dress and Thomas the same black costume. Very fancy, chick and so cool. I could not get down my lips from smiling and adoring their happiness and the perfect couple they seems to be. Congratulations all luck for a great future.
The party was a very nice arrangement including good food, great music and some amusing dancing. I really enjoyed to party with some of my colleagues and their wifes during this happy celebration.
I danced all the way to bed and fell asleep with a lovely smile in my face.
Oohh, except from the very small dirty incident just before bed of the very drunk and not so intelligent woman who all of a sudden started to accuse me for being: to beautiful dressed, to good smelling, to bracky and stupid, to much of a stockholm citizen ( yes I am ) and mostly.... the very worst manager who will walk over corps and dead bodies to get what I want!!! Then she slammed the door in public..!!
Yes, true. I had not talked to her during the evening and obviously she had made a real case study of me for these accusations.
Oboy... what to say.
I will lock my self into my house and maybe go to a monestary or something. What is the problem with some people nowadays? Happiness and enjoyment are obviously not allowed to be shown.
Fyi, I can tell that she came to me this morning and wanted to apologizie for her very bad behaviour, and....she had also made some real research about my management skills ... and was now convinced I was a very good manager... oboy..!!
what to say???
Women, women.... Drunk women can be very embarrasing humiliating and if they are also very depressed even worse.... and I was just hit by the single phenomen according to my friend AL.
If I accepted the apologize? What do you think?
Back to bed and some hours before Monday.
Love / A
So romantic, so cool, and also a lot of emotions during the ceremony. Inger had a lovely black ( yes you read right) wedding dress and Thomas the same black costume. Very fancy, chick and so cool. I could not get down my lips from smiling and adoring their happiness and the perfect couple they seems to be. Congratulations all luck for a great future.
The party was a very nice arrangement including good food, great music and some amusing dancing. I really enjoyed to party with some of my colleagues and their wifes during this happy celebration.
I danced all the way to bed and fell asleep with a lovely smile in my face.
Oohh, except from the very small dirty incident just before bed of the very drunk and not so intelligent woman who all of a sudden started to accuse me for being: to beautiful dressed, to good smelling, to bracky and stupid, to much of a stockholm citizen ( yes I am ) and mostly.... the very worst manager who will walk over corps and dead bodies to get what I want!!! Then she slammed the door in public..!!
Yes, true. I had not talked to her during the evening and obviously she had made a real case study of me for these accusations.
Oboy... what to say.
I will lock my self into my house and maybe go to a monestary or something. What is the problem with some people nowadays? Happiness and enjoyment are obviously not allowed to be shown.
Fyi, I can tell that she came to me this morning and wanted to apologizie for her very bad behaviour, and....she had also made some real research about my management skills ... and was now convinced I was a very good manager... oboy..!!
what to say???
Women, women.... Drunk women can be very embarrasing humiliating and if they are also very depressed even worse.... and I was just hit by the single phenomen according to my friend AL.
If I accepted the apologize? What do you think?
Back to bed and some hours before Monday.
Love / A
Friday, February 8, 2008
Jippie !!....Ready steady home again...
Jippie....
Back home in my bed, damn.... how nice....
Back at work again, damn... it felt good too. Mostly for being so welcomed by my employees, they are really sweet lovely persons and certenly live their values and share their minds in a great way.
This Friday really just flied away and I managed to have so many good conversations and meetings all over they day, different topics and different outcomes.. but a very good day.
Also, a highlight of the day was when I received a mail from US, one of my abstracts to the IBM conference have been accepted. Jippie ... yes, I am truly happy about it. And I will do my very best again over there. !!
I just had to scream out loud my happines in my office landscape as I was really happy.. and I did. It was lunch time so noone really heard it. I wish they did.
Friday evening and time for sofa, bed and some nice relaxing hours.
I deserve that. A hard week and all of a sudden it is Friday again..
Damn... how time is flying. Soon it is summer.
And tomorrow I will join a wedding and that will be very nice as I am extremely happy for the couple to be married .I am very honoured to be invited.But honestly, I wish I had some partner to join me.
Love and happy weekend to all of you from your very relaxed and happy Anna.
Back home in my bed, damn.... how nice....
Back at work again, damn... it felt good too. Mostly for being so welcomed by my employees, they are really sweet lovely persons and certenly live their values and share their minds in a great way.
This Friday really just flied away and I managed to have so many good conversations and meetings all over they day, different topics and different outcomes.. but a very good day.
Also, a highlight of the day was when I received a mail from US, one of my abstracts to the IBM conference have been accepted. Jippie ... yes, I am truly happy about it. And I will do my very best again over there. !!
I just had to scream out loud my happines in my office landscape as I was really happy.. and I did. It was lunch time so noone really heard it. I wish they did.
Friday evening and time for sofa, bed and some nice relaxing hours.
I deserve that. A hard week and all of a sudden it is Friday again..
Damn... how time is flying. Soon it is summer.
And tomorrow I will join a wedding and that will be very nice as I am extremely happy for the couple to be married .I am very honoured to be invited.But honestly, I wish I had some partner to join me.
Love and happy weekend to all of you from your very relaxed and happy Anna.
Thursday, February 7, 2008
Amsterdam Day 3 & 4
Business Intelligence... it feels great to be inspired like this and I truly will do my best in Nordea to make this be highlighted from a different perspective.
Many good sessions during day 2 of the conference, and maybe mostly the BI Excellence Competition sessions in the morning where 3 finalists did presentations of their work and way to good BI implementation.
Surprisingly, but maybe not, Folksam was one of the finalist and Chief Controller Stefan did really a good presentation. I took the opportunity to congratulate him during the coffee break and of course I was some extra proud that we had a Swede on the scene.
The lovely Astra Zeneca presenter from UK really got me. She was excellent in her way of presenting and also how she was so clear in her recommendation regarding strong management. A small woman but with huge management skills and capacity. Impressing.
Energo Energy from Holland had some very very good powerpoint slides and a good story, but sorry, it does not help if you are not a good speaker. A man with his position in such a big company, yes I expect more. One the other hand, he did his best I think and all respect to that. And he was one of the finalist. Very good work.
Stopped by at the HP monter again to say hello to my nowadays most favourite HP representative. I was honoured with a book and I truly really was so very happy about it. To be honest again,,, i start reading it during one of the session ( seems to be a great book so far) held by an IBM guy and the presenter was really a catastrophy. Oh.. if I was IBM, I would very much secure the presenter/speaker skills before letting that guy on stage again. This session really was bad, so sad. For IBM.
Day 3 ended in a great way. A trip downtown to some very nice bars and grovy nightlife. Amsterdam is really a fantastic city in many ways. The pulse, the lights, the beauty and the love and passion to a liberal life. I really like this city.
Day 4 of my visit and the last day of the conference,,,
Not much to say. I am filled and very much satisfied with the information and sharing given. If I summarize what I appreciated mostly I have to mention the case studies given by E-bay, Philips, Cisco and others. Btw, Ciscos presenter was also from Sweden and he was really good.
Bye Netherlands and Amsterdam, back to lovely Stockholm and Sweden. Some love spread over my lovely friends and colleagues in Copenhagen on the way back....they deserve it.
Many good sessions during day 2 of the conference, and maybe mostly the BI Excellence Competition sessions in the morning where 3 finalists did presentations of their work and way to good BI implementation.
Surprisingly, but maybe not, Folksam was one of the finalist and Chief Controller Stefan did really a good presentation. I took the opportunity to congratulate him during the coffee break and of course I was some extra proud that we had a Swede on the scene.
The lovely Astra Zeneca presenter from UK really got me. She was excellent in her way of presenting and also how she was so clear in her recommendation regarding strong management. A small woman but with huge management skills and capacity. Impressing.
Energo Energy from Holland had some very very good powerpoint slides and a good story, but sorry, it does not help if you are not a good speaker. A man with his position in such a big company, yes I expect more. One the other hand, he did his best I think and all respect to that. And he was one of the finalist. Very good work.
Stopped by at the HP monter again to say hello to my nowadays most favourite HP representative. I was honoured with a book and I truly really was so very happy about it. To be honest again,,, i start reading it during one of the session ( seems to be a great book so far) held by an IBM guy and the presenter was really a catastrophy. Oh.. if I was IBM, I would very much secure the presenter/speaker skills before letting that guy on stage again. This session really was bad, so sad. For IBM.
Day 3 ended in a great way. A trip downtown to some very nice bars and grovy nightlife. Amsterdam is really a fantastic city in many ways. The pulse, the lights, the beauty and the love and passion to a liberal life. I really like this city.
Day 4 of my visit and the last day of the conference,,,
Not much to say. I am filled and very much satisfied with the information and sharing given. If I summarize what I appreciated mostly I have to mention the case studies given by E-bay, Philips, Cisco and others. Btw, Ciscos presenter was also from Sweden and he was really good.
Bye Netherlands and Amsterdam, back to lovely Stockholm and Sweden. Some love spread over my lovely friends and colleagues in Copenhagen on the way back....they deserve it.
Tuesday, February 5, 2008
Amsterdam Day 2
Puuhh....
First day at the Businesse Intelligence Summit conference and I am really exhausted. Really exiting so far and some really good speakers and also one good panel discussion. And a lot of selling and selling...
To be honest, and maybe make my dearest friend Annika surprised, I have never ever been so quiet during a whole day. I dont know, but I am not in the mood for networking, only sneaking around, mingeling, listening and take what is in for me and just be cool. I manage very well. Trust me.
Surprisingly.. one colleague from Nordea passed me and just stared at me without saying hello... no good behaviour or what do you think. well well.. how fascinating.
But, at the last Cocktail reception I mingled with a glass of mine and passed one of the pannel discussion presenters from HP and he start talking to me. Of course I stopped by and gave him some really relevant and honest feedback. Of course he could see some business opportunities here as well but I kept very secret and that felt good. I left him after a few minutes good conversation and a promise to give me a book if I came around to his session tomorrow. Selling and selling again...Of course I will go there.
Satisfied and filled with a lot of information I left the reception only after 30 minutes... that is not normally Anna, but ok.. it felt good and you should leave at your best.
Just to add that people are really curious about me and Nordea sign... that feels good, we have a good brand I am a great ambassadeur. That feels also great and is adding value to this trip and work.
Back to the hotel and down to the hotel restaurant again after concidering going to the city... but no, I have no energy. So I stayed, and again, hard to be placed alone at a table... and that feels just so strange... feels like left out.
Very good salad and some mineralwater, now back to room and some room made coffee and some candys( just had to ) , nice.
A bath, a call home and then to bed.
I look forward to tomrrow sessions and adventures.
Love and intelligence from Amsterdam and RAI area.
Your A
First day at the Businesse Intelligence Summit conference and I am really exhausted. Really exiting so far and some really good speakers and also one good panel discussion. And a lot of selling and selling...
To be honest, and maybe make my dearest friend Annika surprised, I have never ever been so quiet during a whole day. I dont know, but I am not in the mood for networking, only sneaking around, mingeling, listening and take what is in for me and just be cool. I manage very well. Trust me.
Surprisingly.. one colleague from Nordea passed me and just stared at me without saying hello... no good behaviour or what do you think. well well.. how fascinating.
But, at the last Cocktail reception I mingled with a glass of mine and passed one of the pannel discussion presenters from HP and he start talking to me. Of course I stopped by and gave him some really relevant and honest feedback. Of course he could see some business opportunities here as well but I kept very secret and that felt good. I left him after a few minutes good conversation and a promise to give me a book if I came around to his session tomorrow. Selling and selling again...Of course I will go there.
Satisfied and filled with a lot of information I left the reception only after 30 minutes... that is not normally Anna, but ok.. it felt good and you should leave at your best.
Just to add that people are really curious about me and Nordea sign... that feels good, we have a good brand I am a great ambassadeur. That feels also great and is adding value to this trip and work.
Back to the hotel and down to the hotel restaurant again after concidering going to the city... but no, I have no energy. So I stayed, and again, hard to be placed alone at a table... and that feels just so strange... feels like left out.
Very good salad and some mineralwater, now back to room and some room made coffee and some candys( just had to ) , nice.
A bath, a call home and then to bed.
I look forward to tomrrow sessions and adventures.
Love and intelligence from Amsterdam and RAI area.
Your A
Monday, February 4, 2008
Amsterdam Day 1
Back in Amsterdam, this really lovely, naughty wonderful city.
Kind of mixed emotions this time as we took ground at Shiphol Airport.
Passed the bars I have some nice memories from and that was kind of hard.
Joined the hotel shuttle bus, and just realized that it seems that whole Scandinavia is down here.
I am truly a lucky bastard having this challenging job and get this opportunities to go to different conferences. I cant wait to get back home and tell my colleagues about the content of the conference. It will be really exiting.
Entered the hotel in RAI area and that is definately not the red light district area... but on the other hand, this is business no pleasure trip. But anyway, I have a nice view from my window, two great highways and world trade centre, not to bad.
I was extremely tired after the flight, and I guess i got some help by the white wine I ordered. As the captain warned for some turbulens it was an easy choice, and i almost just drank everything in two drinks. And almost fell asleep, sweet dreams.
So, with red cheeks I fell of the plane ... in to the hotel, and down to the bar in the hotel. Hungry as a wolf I ordered some food which took a long time to get... almost fell a sleep in the bar as well wail waiting,,.ate like crazy .. and as I mention wolves... there are a lot of them here I can tell.... at the moment I love my hotel room.
Time for bed now, and I will be the first one in the line to sign up tommorow at the conference and hopefully be waked up by my telephone. I truly hope so.
Good night and love from here.
A
Kind of mixed emotions this time as we took ground at Shiphol Airport.
Passed the bars I have some nice memories from and that was kind of hard.
Joined the hotel shuttle bus, and just realized that it seems that whole Scandinavia is down here.
I am truly a lucky bastard having this challenging job and get this opportunities to go to different conferences. I cant wait to get back home and tell my colleagues about the content of the conference. It will be really exiting.
Entered the hotel in RAI area and that is definately not the red light district area... but on the other hand, this is business no pleasure trip. But anyway, I have a nice view from my window, two great highways and world trade centre, not to bad.
I was extremely tired after the flight, and I guess i got some help by the white wine I ordered. As the captain warned for some turbulens it was an easy choice, and i almost just drank everything in two drinks. And almost fell asleep, sweet dreams.
So, with red cheeks I fell of the plane ... in to the hotel, and down to the bar in the hotel. Hungry as a wolf I ordered some food which took a long time to get... almost fell a sleep in the bar as well wail waiting,,.ate like crazy .. and as I mention wolves... there are a lot of them here I can tell.... at the moment I love my hotel room.
Time for bed now, and I will be the first one in the line to sign up tommorow at the conference and hopefully be waked up by my telephone. I truly hope so.
Good night and love from here.
A
Sunday, February 3, 2008
Dreamworld....
Remember I told you about many questions coming to me here on the blog?
I give.. and I get, thank you.
You deserve to read some of the lovely questions and comments from one reader…. Or let me call a dreamer….
The “dreamer” writer is trying both to coach me and make an analysis of me ( good luck) . I just have to answer and support him in his eager….and I pick and choose from the comments as I like. I cant publish the whole comment … sorry.
I truly want to encourage the “dreamer” writer to start his own blog, I would like to read every written line ..
W= Writing guest- the dreamer
A= Anna
W: “Hello my dreamgirl....
A: Well hello hello dreamer… thanks for your attention, I am overvelmed and will comment you on a very own posting, feel honoured.
W:”Naughty writing....!!! Hm... let me think... Should I write something naughty, or shouldn't I .. Somehow I feel like you want me to write naughty stuff... “
A: stop it Mr W .. “you feel I like too” ?
Even if I wanted, I would never tell you….that is for shure
W: “You see... I'm a married man... Well not happy married, but still married... Were my marriage goes I cant tell. Only time can.... But I can tell you this much...”
A: stop again…Mr W, I got some very golden experiences from married men, and I can tell you I stay away as far as I can as I have burned my self almost dead with those lovely creatures . To shitty …to lovely, asume ...but mostly…to painful . but ok, I always listen to what stories (really good ones… ) they come up with, so I will give you an ear as well even if I recommend you to clean up darling.
W: “Your energy is a little scary... I mean... Here I am... Fancying you... Dreaming about how it would be to live with you...”
A: Keep on dreaming my dear W,… You are right, I am an energetic woman, and I am not to bad I think, and yes you are right, my energy both scare and attract, mostly scare …don’t trust me baby. I am hopeless.
W: Would you go nuts on me for being to relaxed?
A “to Relaxed” ? In what way… lazy ? definitely not and maybe yes…. I am very much energetic and in between I need to relax and be lazy to recover and gather new energy,,, to be honest, I can be the most lazy person ever and enjoy it 1000. … but you got me!! I am a restless person as well, depending on the company I guess…but if you are to relaxed I would put some fire into you and you will notice.. but never without commitment.
W : “ I see you as very happy and enjoying your situation...
I like to watch, and I have been watching you many times... Love to watch you....
What about you? Do you love to watch? Do you like to explore others happiness and enjoyments?
A; eh…. Watch !!? Sorry but this triggers my naughty minds… and I don’t dare to answer , but Ok, lets say Yes to your questions from my perspective... Happiness and enjoyments are my key favourite words, in the right occasions …. and definitely regarding others, that’s me. Are you really watching me??
W: “ Dear Anna I really look forward to read your blog. I can imagine that people from a lot of countries like Norway, Sweden, Denmark and maybe Netherlands are following your blog, and maybe they will join in with comments...
A: “ stop for a second…Netherlands..??!! What is this? Now, you got me again… I will go to NL next week!! True, and now I just wonder if you know about that trip, will you also attend the Gartner conference?? Just let me know. hmm….. and luckily I have some fancy connections down there in NL…that actually might read this,,, . I keep that to myself….or… wait….. are you one of the dutch fancy boys I happen to know…. ?? I have to watch my words that is for shure….
W: In case you are interested in details about me, you just have to ask... Anything but my name...
A: Dear mr W, Thank you… yes, I might be…but I wait with some questions for now.. ok? start your blog and I will visit you, promise. And you will soon give me your name, I am convinced…but really… first some cleaning.
W:” I would like to start asking you as being single with a couple of marriages behind you... What would it take to make you stay with a man for the rest of your life? “
A: “ a couple of marriages” , You are just a very nice reader and dreamer…grrr , fyi, I have only been married once, and to be honest, I can merry as many as I like, if it is right… remember, diamonds are a girls best friend…
...
And what would make me stay? For the rest of my life as well ? Sorry, but these questions are not on my mind at the moment as I don’t want to sign up now…., but some things are for shure… Love love and love, respect, sharing and moments of trust… and a lot more. And also, without good laughs and humour I would die and get bored (experience in that), but overall, agreement and understanding that we are on a trip, in the same world and it is ok to grow even within a marriage. Sharing and sharing.
Think of backpackers… there you got me… I will write more about it later on.. but that will give you a hint…Enough for now??
W: What are the basic components in a relationship that has to be strong for you to keep on loving your man enough to stay? Certainly there must be a couple of things...
A; Damn, you are a deep thinking guy, and you give me a hard time now…and to be honest, I like your questions and mindset…. Have missed that lately... It can take a lifetime to give a good answer on that one so I cant give you that now, sorry. Maybe you are the one to tell me.
Trust and love. But to be the father of my lovely children is not a reason for holding on if no good, my children deserve good role models and love.. and also be aware that relations are the most lovely, challenging and wonderful you can ever experience, it is just about how to deal with it. Promise to come back on that one too. And remember the backpack…
W: My nickname…. I was thinking of…()
A: Please who ever you are, please don’t use that nickname.. I don’t like it.
Finally…
I also enjoy that I am only 41 so I have another 40 years still to practice and enjoy life,
That feeling and thought is so lovely.
Keep on writing to me….
I will keep on dancing…..Amsterdam here I come, watch out!!
Your A
I give.. and I get, thank you.
You deserve to read some of the lovely questions and comments from one reader…. Or let me call a dreamer….
The “dreamer” writer is trying both to coach me and make an analysis of me ( good luck) . I just have to answer and support him in his eager….and I pick and choose from the comments as I like. I cant publish the whole comment … sorry.
I truly want to encourage the “dreamer” writer to start his own blog, I would like to read every written line ..
W= Writing guest- the dreamer
A= Anna
W: “Hello my dreamgirl....
A: Well hello hello dreamer… thanks for your attention, I am overvelmed and will comment you on a very own posting, feel honoured.
W:”Naughty writing....!!! Hm... let me think... Should I write something naughty, or shouldn't I .. Somehow I feel like you want me to write naughty stuff... “
A: stop it Mr W .. “you feel I like too” ?
Even if I wanted, I would never tell you….that is for shure
W: “You see... I'm a married man... Well not happy married, but still married... Were my marriage goes I cant tell. Only time can.... But I can tell you this much...”
A: stop again…Mr W, I got some very golden experiences from married men, and I can tell you I stay away as far as I can as I have burned my self almost dead with those lovely creatures . To shitty …to lovely, asume ...but mostly…to painful . but ok, I always listen to what stories (really good ones… ) they come up with, so I will give you an ear as well even if I recommend you to clean up darling.
W: “Your energy is a little scary... I mean... Here I am... Fancying you... Dreaming about how it would be to live with you...”
A: Keep on dreaming my dear W,… You are right, I am an energetic woman, and I am not to bad I think, and yes you are right, my energy both scare and attract, mostly scare …don’t trust me baby. I am hopeless.
W: Would you go nuts on me for being to relaxed?
A “to Relaxed” ? In what way… lazy ? definitely not and maybe yes…. I am very much energetic and in between I need to relax and be lazy to recover and gather new energy,,, to be honest, I can be the most lazy person ever and enjoy it 1000. … but you got me!! I am a restless person as well, depending on the company I guess…but if you are to relaxed I would put some fire into you and you will notice.. but never without commitment.
W : “ I see you as very happy and enjoying your situation...
I like to watch, and I have been watching you many times... Love to watch you....
What about you? Do you love to watch? Do you like to explore others happiness and enjoyments?
A; eh…. Watch !!? Sorry but this triggers my naughty minds… and I don’t dare to answer , but Ok, lets say Yes to your questions from my perspective... Happiness and enjoyments are my key favourite words, in the right occasions …. and definitely regarding others, that’s me. Are you really watching me??
W: “ Dear Anna I really look forward to read your blog. I can imagine that people from a lot of countries like Norway, Sweden, Denmark and maybe Netherlands are following your blog, and maybe they will join in with comments...
A: “ stop for a second…Netherlands..??!! What is this? Now, you got me again… I will go to NL next week!! True, and now I just wonder if you know about that trip, will you also attend the Gartner conference?? Just let me know. hmm….. and luckily I have some fancy connections down there in NL…that actually might read this,,, . I keep that to myself….or… wait….. are you one of the dutch fancy boys I happen to know…. ?? I have to watch my words that is for shure….
W: In case you are interested in details about me, you just have to ask... Anything but my name...
A: Dear mr W, Thank you… yes, I might be…but I wait with some questions for now.. ok? start your blog and I will visit you, promise. And you will soon give me your name, I am convinced…but really… first some cleaning.
W:” I would like to start asking you as being single with a couple of marriages behind you... What would it take to make you stay with a man for the rest of your life? “
A: “ a couple of marriages” , You are just a very nice reader and dreamer…grrr , fyi, I have only been married once, and to be honest, I can merry as many as I like, if it is right… remember, diamonds are a girls best friend…
...
And what would make me stay? For the rest of my life as well ? Sorry, but these questions are not on my mind at the moment as I don’t want to sign up now…., but some things are for shure… Love love and love, respect, sharing and moments of trust… and a lot more. And also, without good laughs and humour I would die and get bored (experience in that), but overall, agreement and understanding that we are on a trip, in the same world and it is ok to grow even within a marriage. Sharing and sharing.
Think of backpackers… there you got me… I will write more about it later on.. but that will give you a hint…Enough for now??
W: What are the basic components in a relationship that has to be strong for you to keep on loving your man enough to stay? Certainly there must be a couple of things...
A; Damn, you are a deep thinking guy, and you give me a hard time now…and to be honest, I like your questions and mindset…. Have missed that lately... It can take a lifetime to give a good answer on that one so I cant give you that now, sorry. Maybe you are the one to tell me.
Trust and love. But to be the father of my lovely children is not a reason for holding on if no good, my children deserve good role models and love.. and also be aware that relations are the most lovely, challenging and wonderful you can ever experience, it is just about how to deal with it. Promise to come back on that one too. And remember the backpack…
W: My nickname…. I was thinking of…()
A: Please who ever you are, please don’t use that nickname.. I don’t like it.
Finally…
I also enjoy that I am only 41 so I have another 40 years still to practice and enjoy life,
That feeling and thought is so lovely.
Keep on writing to me….
I will keep on dancing…..Amsterdam here I come, watch out!!
Your A
Saturday, February 2, 2008
Enjoy
In the middle of the weekend and I am so lazy, lovely and also very very happy.
Have a calm time with my boys doing just nothing then being a very present mother.
Also very curious to read and write in my blog. I have got some very nice, funny and also very naughty..comments and that is really interesting, especially from strangers that seems to want to teas me in one or another way. Hm.... kind of nice.
Continue writing to me, but I will not publish any naughty writings here, just for your information, I am in charge. And it is ok asking me questions, .. I will consider to publish your curious questions, they are some kind of really private.. !!
Keep on having a great weekend. I will just lean back, be present and enjoy my sons, and think of the very best call i got today. I will celebrate all night, all the way to Monday.
Enjoy a lovely evening. Love A
Have a calm time with my boys doing just nothing then being a very present mother.
Also very curious to read and write in my blog. I have got some very nice, funny and also very naughty..comments and that is really interesting, especially from strangers that seems to want to teas me in one or another way. Hm.... kind of nice.
Continue writing to me, but I will not publish any naughty writings here, just for your information, I am in charge. And it is ok asking me questions, .. I will consider to publish your curious questions, they are some kind of really private.. !!
Keep on having a great weekend. I will just lean back, be present and enjoy my sons, and think of the very best call i got today. I will celebrate all night, all the way to Monday.
Enjoy a lovely evening. Love A
Friday, February 1, 2008
Single Friday....
I got my very first comment on the blog yesterday... please have a look. I just had to publish it as I am flattered and so curious... who are you and where do you come from? Please let me know stranger. ( i hope it is a man as i got kisses... :-)
One very good colleague who follows my blog asked me if I should write about more drunkers..... and I did not really understand the question I have to admit. Probably my blog bored him to death about that, but anyway.... just for his information I can tell that I got a another proposal today on my way home and that is really the truth, this time 2 beauty drunkers..., I promise, I just said no thank you, I am married....
That was a nice thing to say, and now I was lying.... Sweet little lovely lie and I also pretend sleeping ( with a big smile) . I have to admit that my self confident have really been boosted the last two days... two proposals in two days... jesus, I should been grateful. And I just realize I dont need to be single one more day if I dont want to...
Hmm... how interesting. I will come back to some single thoughts soon...
Another friend commented my blog today and told me to keep on blogging because it was nice following me from a very long distance. I am grateful of that feedback too.
Back to the single thingy again. One of the most common questions I get among men, friends and people I meet when i am out is, - How come that you are single ? What is the real, real problem with you?? You seem to be a nice woman and jadi jadi jadi...
That 's it.!! Thank you very much for that. Feels like a hit in the face. It is definately something wrong with me.... isnt it, it has to be or...? We can argue about this for a long time, and why not ask some really good sources as well ?
Let me say like this, Yes, it probably is a lot of wrongs and things with me, I would be surprised if not, I am a very much alive person with my own values and behaviours in my relationshiop management. And, I will wait for that day when somebody tells me that it is alright, and ok, all my wrongs and difficulties...
if we should call them problems or whatever.... I cant be someone else than I am, that is really to put violence into the personality and that would be hard and probably impossible. I am not Miss perfect ,definately not..
but of course... I need to sharpen my saw in many ways, that is for shure. And as long as I am aware of that, i am not that really worried. ( and I am making progress, promise, at least on the theoretically level)
And I will never ever tell anybody about my choices I have made related to relations and how grateful I am about taking the steps to get out of relations that are not worth put more energy into. When You give more then you get and you just get out of air and basically just die. Sad but true. And that is really not me, as I am mostly the most alive person in many ways.
With full respect to my ex men, I truly love and respect them in one way and always will, and I also wish them the very best life ever. I was not the right one for them. I am happy I realized that before total catastrophies and break downs, and yes, so are probably they. And also, I secured a lot of feedback to add on to my personal relationship CV, and that is golden. But damn, it is real hard.
Let me share some songs I truly love at the moment and also make me remember and dream both back and forward. They are a combination of sad, happy and kind of sexy songs that I just like at the moment. Please share my favourites...and my mood.
Have a nice weekend. A
Please don´t stop the music --- Rihanna
Say it right -- Nelly Furtado
To late to apologize - Timbaland / One republic
Bleeding Love - Leona Lewis
One very good colleague who follows my blog asked me if I should write about more drunkers..... and I did not really understand the question I have to admit. Probably my blog bored him to death about that, but anyway.... just for his information I can tell that I got a another proposal today on my way home and that is really the truth, this time 2 beauty drunkers..., I promise, I just said no thank you, I am married....
That was a nice thing to say, and now I was lying.... Sweet little lovely lie and I also pretend sleeping ( with a big smile) . I have to admit that my self confident have really been boosted the last two days... two proposals in two days... jesus, I should been grateful. And I just realize I dont need to be single one more day if I dont want to...
Hmm... how interesting. I will come back to some single thoughts soon...
Another friend commented my blog today and told me to keep on blogging because it was nice following me from a very long distance. I am grateful of that feedback too.
Back to the single thingy again. One of the most common questions I get among men, friends and people I meet when i am out is, - How come that you are single ? What is the real, real problem with you?? You seem to be a nice woman and jadi jadi jadi...
That 's it.!! Thank you very much for that. Feels like a hit in the face. It is definately something wrong with me.... isnt it, it has to be or...? We can argue about this for a long time, and why not ask some really good sources as well ?
Let me say like this, Yes, it probably is a lot of wrongs and things with me, I would be surprised if not, I am a very much alive person with my own values and behaviours in my relationshiop management. And, I will wait for that day when somebody tells me that it is alright, and ok, all my wrongs and difficulties...
if we should call them problems or whatever.... I cant be someone else than I am, that is really to put violence into the personality and that would be hard and probably impossible. I am not Miss perfect ,definately not..
but of course... I need to sharpen my saw in many ways, that is for shure. And as long as I am aware of that, i am not that really worried. ( and I am making progress, promise, at least on the theoretically level)
And I will never ever tell anybody about my choices I have made related to relations and how grateful I am about taking the steps to get out of relations that are not worth put more energy into. When You give more then you get and you just get out of air and basically just die. Sad but true. And that is really not me, as I am mostly the most alive person in many ways.
With full respect to my ex men, I truly love and respect them in one way and always will, and I also wish them the very best life ever. I was not the right one for them. I am happy I realized that before total catastrophies and break downs, and yes, so are probably they. And also, I secured a lot of feedback to add on to my personal relationship CV, and that is golden. But damn, it is real hard.
Let me share some songs I truly love at the moment and also make me remember and dream both back and forward. They are a combination of sad, happy and kind of sexy songs that I just like at the moment. Please share my favourites...and my mood.
Have a nice weekend. A
Please don´t stop the music --- Rihanna
Say it right -- Nelly Furtado
To late to apologize - Timbaland / One republic
Bleeding Love - Leona Lewis
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