Retrospective in the lovely summertime..

So, finally vacation, sitting here on the terrace at my summer house. The rain is at the moment my only company here in the silent countryside. The children are out there playing football taking care of their interest and so am I.

Time for some reflections in very short versions below . There are a lot in between the lines, you will understand that... and use your best imagination and you are probably right about everything and the cynism is used to keep me away from the tears. So... here we go.

Next blog will be a happy one... i promise, but even a happy girl like me can be kind of ... tired.

Hotel business... yes, it is coming closer faster then i can imagine.... July 23th will be my very first evening there. During the last week I did something over my limits and I am extremely happy about it. I went to see my step m and we had a long and good talk and we managed to make an agreement. Win - win. Damn good Anna

Moving to Arboga... yes, i will and the apartment will be fantastic in the middle of the time.... what is less fantastic is my boys thoughts about this whole thing. Especially my teenagers are kind of ... lets say thoughtful about my choices.... Well I can just say, damn hard to explain in a way. But simple in another. I just have to do it, and one day they will see the win-win as well. But it is hard to hear that they tell me that I will loose them... I will never ever let that happen. For haven sake, what is going on in their minds

Love and friendship.... I cant live without it, neither of them. I have a lot of both at the moment and hard to kind of sort things out. I thought I was a simple person.. but it seems I am a complicated woman.. or.. ? No, I dont want to be... i just want pure love and friendship.... first things first. Can someone help me here ...? I need a love phsyciatric.

Power ... Meet . Yesterday we went to Power Meet in Västerås and it was a great super experience. Especially since i love these old cruising Cars. Damn I wish I had one of those and could be the driver. Next year, I will drive. Even if it will not be in my own car. I will drive.
Hypocrytes ..... today I met one of my fathers best friend in town and it went to be an embarring story.... for him, and to be honest. People who belive in bad gossips about me and dont are to ask about the truth, I trule say good bye to those. During the last year my stepmother has told people so many bad and sad things about me, spread some rumours that .... yes... the truth is way beyond the fairy tail. Today... he realized what he had believed in and yes.. he feels ashamed that he has taken a stand for a big lie.... and yes... I am a proud very happy woman, and that can be to much for a man like that. I can truly tell.... my win-win approach sometimes scare people... or at least remind them about how much win - loose they think. Thank godness.... I truly feel sorry for him.

Swedish summer.... well it is lovely as it is, green and fresh and when the sun is shining... it is the place on earth. Today... the rain just reminded me how lovely it can be, and I just felt it was a great company. But please.... give me some warm temperature here... the FLorida sun and the heat in the pool is just on my mind and I want it here as well.

Fitness... well... what a shame... not in a very good shape so today on my daily walk.. I start running. Yes, And i managed to run for 4 kilometers .. and I have not run for years. How great and I love the pain in my body which just tells me to go on.