Underbar - Scotts

Got this song and the type of music is very Swedish swinging.

I like it.

/ A

Piano in the dark...

I was just reminded about this oldy. I loved it heavy and played it so many times when I was a young girl..

enjoy Brenda Russel, still a good song.



http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=qSibQtsIp1A&feature=related

Yours
Anna

Pokerface

In some ways and in some occasions I sometimes manage to be the best actor ever. No matter the pain, no matter the hard feelings, no matter the sadness and no matter anything... but you just know that things are so damn wrong. In some cases, I manage to keep smiling and be cool inside even if I am burning.

And damn, I have burned. So much, that I have managed to improve my already very bad pokerface. That is good of course... On the other hand, my real face have been visible many times this year and I dont know what to say ....

This last year have been like a rollercoaster. Three of my best friends really betrayed me heavy and deep and I just wanted to die.

One of them, I was not ready to loose the way it happened , really did see the real Anna face, and it was no pokerface. And truly, I managed to forgive. The other one.... I dont know if I have forgiven.. but I will never forget that the excuse never ever will come.


The third one, I will never ever understand, how a person can betray so much. I will never ever get that answer. I just want things to be ok again.

I forgot the fourth one.... but it was not even a friend, just someone who managed to manipulate me in a way that was my best lessons learned ever. gosh..... I just remembered I have deleted everything regarding that person. Waist of time and energy.

Luckily.... I had my best face on when I met someone that really made sence to me this year. What goes around comes around and I truly just say thanks to my guide in life.

And I promise, I will never let go of a sad pokerface to a person that I truly like and love. Never ever.

I still believe in happiness and love, no matter...

Love / Anna

Back in town..

So.... time is just flying and I guess its flying even faster if you have a good time.

Last summer was great, but this... even better .

US, Greece and one week ago Prague... and in between ... some work but also some great days around every know and then.

Love, happiness and energy has been on the schedule every day and I think it is a great prescription.

Back to Prague.... what a city. Historical centre and houses all over. I could not believe that it was as fantastic as it was.

Beer , beer and beer,.... and last night... some Absint. True... I think I had the trip of my life and I could not stop laughing. Thanks my love for bringing me home that night.... too.

Well... we have had a great time and we have truly adjusted the Chech drink and dining for 9 days.

Knackwurst and Sauerkraut mmm... and beer of course.

Visited Staropramen and Pilsner Urquell breweries and it was fantastic.

Walking and walking and just enjoyed every minute.

I think I have gathered energy for months coming.

And back in business again.

Thank godness my employees ... you just make it possible for me to be back in town...

and I did a quick update of the blog. I need to shape up.

Dont think I dont have anything to write about... I do have, but I am not sure if I can put it out in the cyber.


I guess i will one day.

Hugs
Anna

Loose your love tonight ... The outfield

So... do you remember this? I do.. it ´s a great one. For you .

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=h_bmOp2UWOc&feature=related



Josie's on a vacation far away Come around and talk it over.
So many things that I wanna say You know I like my girls a little bit older.
I just wanna use your love tonight I don't wanna lose your love tonight.
I ain't got many friends leff to talk to Nowhere to run when I'm in trouble.
You know I'd do anything for you Stay the night but keep it under cover.

I just wanna use your love tonight I don't wanna lose your love tonight.

Try to stop my hands from shaking But something in my mind's not making sense.
It's been a while since we were all alone But I can't hide the way I'm feeling.

As you're leaving please would you close the door?And don't forget what I told you.
Just 'cause you're right that don't mean I'm wrong

Another shoulder to cry upon.I just wanna use your love tonightI don't wanna lose your love tonight.

I just wanna use your love tonight I don't wanna lose your love tonight.I just wanna use your love tonightI don't wanna lose your love tonight.Use your love - lose your love - your love

In the name of love ...

So back home again after one of the most calmest but warmest summer holidays ever. Kos Greece and it was about 36 degr. celcius in the shadow. So nice.

Kos is the island for youths, partying, sex, love and rockn roll. It was visible and mostly close. Our hotel was located in the centre of Kos town, very old and not to much maintained and it was filled with Scandinavian youths ready to party every single minute of the day and night.

I enjoyed looking and being in the atmosphere and I did manage just to stay cool and hope that my sons will not go here to soon...

We went swimming every day, we did a sailing trip for 3 islands and it was fantastic. We rented a car and drove to one of most nicest beaches ever, also up to the mountains and a roundtrip really worth the time. Had lovely dinners every night and just enjoyed the company of the 3 of us.

We had the pleasure to meat Marita from Södertälje who travelled with her daughter and friend and we had many funny talks during the week.

We also went out for a bar round in the night and we did have some fun. Fun laughin to the youngsters who wanted to hook us up .. even if we could have been there mothers... fun laughing to see the bar hunters offering drinks.. buy one get 3... with the intention to get dead drunk and buy some more.

We did know about the party island and we did not bother about the heavy night life.

It was a week filled with love and caring and just staying together. Specially I enjoyed my older son Charlie to have some closer chat and thoughts about the year past. Of course Robin too, who spent almost all the time in the water, swimming like a dolphin, he is so lovely.

And also.. the minds of love to long for someone back home. I did.

Love and kisses.

Anna

The after party...

I had a great Saturday evening. Excellent entertainment, good food and very very nice company. Then the after party.

Hm.... You should not be to sober when joining the after party. I was very tired but gladly, in a great mood so we had a good time.

Later on we decided to continue in my flat. Guitarr, rosé wine and lovely sunshine coming thrue the window.

Time for games.... . Truth or consequence. I have not done that since I was a kid and it was an interesting game. Especially since everyonw was kind of deep honest in the truth.

When you have met someone you just wonder a lot of things and this game could be a great alternative to speak out.

I can´t make anything regarding the history, but I can truly make something about the future.

I got a question.. " How much do you miss Stockholm ?" and that was no to easy to answer. But it is a great question to build on

schlager came to town

after closing down the hotel I went home to my apartment for a shower and some relaxing minutes and time was just about 20.30 this lovely Friday evening.

Fresh, clean and sober and went down to bed with my laptop and ... wait a minute.... what is going on out there.

I heard some great, tight schlager music coming from the very closest pub... damn. I love schlager and I just could not stay still.

Put on some clothes and rapidly ran down to the pub ... WOW!!

Per Bredhammar and 3 lovely girls from Wallmans Saloons in Stockholm were guests and they are really great entertainer . Per... well... last time, and first time I met him he wanted to play my clothes of in a clothes Jeopardy... damn. He did not succeed and he was the most funny judge I have ever met.

This Friday he also proved that he can sing. So good to meet him and say hello. TOmorrow I will join the place and dance and sing.

I need a babysitter, someone out there who is available.?

love and energy.

Anna

Sweden is hot ...

Well... i dont want to complain at all.. just tell that at the moment it is really hot here in Arboga.
The temperature is around 30 degrees celcius and that is quiet much for a country like Sweden. Normally I love the heat and the sun and also now... but now it is really challenging since the whole hotel is kind of boiling.

And the backyard is like a desert. I took some minutes off this lunchtime and fell asleep in the sun. Woke up hot and swetty and you know the strange feeling being kind of hit by a truck.

But but .. i improve my tan some and try to enjoy every single minute I can to sit down and relax.

To be honest, I am very tired since I can not sleep during nighttime and at the same time wake up at 0515 .. well.. then you fall asleep when you at least expect it.

And honest again... I don´t care to be tired. Soon I will go for vacation with two of my sons and at that place it will be damn hot. One more week to go.

/ sunny greetings from here

Anna

Charlie 15

My son Charlie celebrated his 15 th birthday on the 20th of June and we did it to a great day.

Together we went to Södermalm for one of the outdoor restaurants and had a super duper nice lunch/ dinner. Afterwards we spent walking down to Skeppsbron to watch all the ships from Volvo Ocean Race. How fascinating these lovely boats. And what a lovely fascinating guy you are Charlie

so.. just good luck . You are a most loveable boy and I love you very much. I know your future is just waiting for you and I am ready to join you on your trip as a curious mother. I am your best supporter and sponsor.

Love and love

Mother.

Summerdays are here - and midsummer already gone

These kind of sunny days in Sweden reminds about how lovely Sweden really is.
You see things from a different view when the sun is shining. And it is shining.

It has been a lovely week midsummer weekend included.

This year I spent midsummer without my kids and it was some strange since I have done that since they were born.

Together with lovely people in Åkersberga I celebrate all day long. We started at one neighbour with the traditional lunch and snaps thing. Great..

Continued at another neighbour with a competition. I teamed up with Tobbe from Skane and we did win the whole thing. Damn... I hate to loose and love to win. The prize was a bottle of champagne and yes.. we drank it immediately of course.

To a third neighbour we were served chilled champagne and Skagen toasts... oh... i love both of it and yes.. at this time I was a bit dizzy.. so when my lovely company brought me two glasses of water I did not say no thank you.

Some hours later ... to the last and fourth neighbour. Barbecue and more to drink.

To be honest, I had one of the nicest midsummer days ever and I laughed almost whole evening and felt both love and happiness flowing.

I guess its about the summer and the sun again. Summerdays are here again.

Love
Anna

17 of June - Happy birthday

So... time for celebration again. Its my 43th birthday and it feels actually great.

Early this morning I got some lovely flowers delivered to the hotel ... damn I was happy.
On the other hand I am not so happy about the sender... who cant tell who it is... and why should somone send flower to me like that?... hm......

I prefer people to be honest if they want to show appreciation. But but... no time for to much thinking. The flowers were to me that was clear.

At 1 o´clock we closed the hotel for one hour and Michael and Susan had arranged a staff birthday lunch at Ågården. So great... and I had a glass of white wine for lunch and that was a great thing as well. ´

Now... working and working. But it is very calm here... so I guess I can continue the celebration during the evening.


But hello... if you read this and if you are the sender of the flowers, please let me know who you are.


/ hugs and greetings from Arboga

Anna

Red Mustang...Sally

So.. finally I got the photos of the rental car in Florida and I need to share.

It was a red, quiet new fancy red Ford Mustang, and it fit me perfect. ( as a coincident I had a red skirt that day... how funny, it looked like it was planned... ) .

When the rental girl administrator handed over the paper, she got a lovely smile on her face and said..

--- I am so happy for you because you willl have a Ford Mustang, look behind you. !

I turned around and just jumped out into it and screamed out loud of happiness. What a car.

I like cars, that is for shure. And even more convertibles. This was the second convertible I have been driven ever. First one was Leifs green frog cruiser ( sorry Leif). ... but you can not compare this.

This Mustang Sally was sent to me and how I enjoyed it . Every minute possible the roof was down.

Cruising in a Red Ford Mustang thrue the lovely Florida , Naples, Fort Meyers, Captiva Island, Tampa and finally Orlando was fantastic.

It was lovely to drive up to the entrance of hotel Walt Disney Dolphin in a convertible, happy, sunny and a great temper.

Oh... I forgot to tell you about my red cowboy hat. I bought it in a vintage shop in Mimai. And since it was quiet windy in the car I put the hat on while driving.

Gosh... what a sight. First of all.. I dont know if I am a cowgirl, secondly..... a cowgirl in a fancy red mustang. ??

The truck driver coming up on the side just stared down in the car. And I vawed. why should I not. If they stare, I stare back.

Good night... I am totally out of control here. Give me energy.

Anna

Friday - rain drops keep falling....

So, back to Sweden and the lovely June weather :-( Friday evening and I am working in the hotel. Almost fully booked and that is great. Uploading my photos from the trip and its more and more obvious why it is good to be in a country with more safe weather, or lets say.. higher temperature at least.

I remember how much I enjoyed the great weather and bike tour in Central Park New York.

I just close my eyes and pretend I am back there.

Have a great Friday.

/ Anna

Prepare for Teamclinic show - How to manage RUP and Scrum - how make it possible and work

So, today is the final preparation before the breakfast meeting with Keyman tomorrow morning where Teamclinic owns and is responsible for the Agenda.

I am stilled very jetlegged and fall asleep as soon as I sit down but anyway, when I am on stage it will be great.

I will do the opening/ Introduction and the retrospective. Annika and Pär will do the Case study and the Strategy parts.

It feels great and I am just starting to get some nervous about it and that is a good sign. If I am not nervous then it will be no nerve or engagement in the talk and that is bad and boring.

I had an interesting chat with my favourite speaker in Orlando and he actually speaks like I do...
like having a conversation. That means I cant read from the lines in the ppt , that is so boring and worthless . Its what is said that is the key and importance.

We will put out the presentation on Teamclinic blog later on and you will realize what we like and that is not to many rows and text in the slides.

Hold ýour thumbs and give us a kick for a great job.

/ Anna

Back in town ...

So back in town. I have to admit, I liked the warm weather better then the Swedish cold 4 degrees when landing.



On the other hand it was warm and lovely to see my boys again.



Yesterday when landing I was like a sleepy ghost on the way back to Arboga. To go back the same day was an even worse nightmare. Had to stop some times as I was so damn tired and jetlegged.



My car was not fixed yet so I had to take another rental car, a new SAAB this time with a great engine and horse power so I should not complain that much.



My boys were so happy about me being safe home and of course of the stuff I bought so yes, they were chocked about my good choices to them... I sat in the sofa watched them and sleeping at the same time....



- mother... you are sleeping.... !! yes... i fell asleep.. standing, sitting and everywere... damn.



This morning I slept over, woke up at812 and the school final started at 8 so you can imagine we had a rush this morning, but we fixed it.

Lucky my son has a great temper and personality so he just jumped into his class on the schoolyard as we were on time and life is wonderful. I was standing there with his father and of course he had to give me some lovely comments on the way... but we laughed like hell together anyway as we just realized that we are a bit of outsiders here in this fancy rich area..

Its just like rock´n roll... and we rock on.

Life is wonderful. And I am tired and satisfied back in Sweden.

I will tell you my US story very soon and add som lovely photos as well, but I have to wait some days until I am back in Arboga again.

Raindrops keep falling on my head.....


/ Anna

Energy from US

So... I have been busy and away some days and not even been able to blog... what a shame. But I will do later on. This is just a very short summar so far and you know what you can expect later on when telling the storys.

- Miami South Beach.... damn, what a nice place. I will definately come back and the buildings, the poeple and the partylife is, and was asume.

- Ford Mustang convertible.... Hey and hello. You can imagine my happiness when picking up the Red brand new fancy Ford Mustang Converible from Hertz to drive up to Orlando...

and also imagine how much I burned by driving open air for a whole day.. so lovely, so fun and what a car.

- Captiva and Sensible Island. ... Mexican Gulf... how lovely... even more sun and swimming in a water that was warmer like .. i dont know.. so great.

- Orlando ... Walt Disney Dolphin Hotel... feels like coming home. I got a great room with two windows all over the resort and two balconies as well.. damn how nice.

- RSDC 2009 ... I am in and on and I have done my presentation yesterday. I will tell you more about it but honest, Vivi and I did great. The audience were stunned and so happy with us. Cool.

- something else.... let me see..

- Party life... as good as ever, except that Pleasure Island at Downtown Disney is closed. How boring.. but we manage anyway and yesterday .. IBM Kelly and I did own the karaokee stage and we did great. The audicenc were stunned to see that we also can sing.. .

[- and the rest.... so good to see people you recognice again and just networking witht a good outcome.

I will be back..


Hugs and energy from a sun burned Anna

Just for you...

Packing my bag, painting my nails, counting my money, checking the tickets... and everything else.

Time to go.

Listening to music, song... Just for you, Lionel Richie. What a good song, I wonder what LIonel thought when he wrote it.

I am in a good mood, have fixed my nails, my toe, my everything else and am just ready for a great adventure.

And I look forward to come back home and tell the whole story and not leave everything out... or....
is it so... ?

what happens in Miami stays in Miami ..... same goes for Orlando and New York.

We will see.

I am ready so, this will be a trip just for me.



/ a

Picknick..

This was the day for a picknick out in the sunshine.

Had a great day today. Picked up the white Teamclinic shirts that is ordered to use next week. I can tell they were great and fit perfekt. I look like a nurse in it and that might give some attention even more. Dont forget that we are a clinic, Team and Agile clinic.

Had a great lunchmeeting with a former Finnish colleague. He always gives me so many laughes and honest talk that you cant almost believe he is a fin. But he is and I am greatful we keep in touch.

Picked up Charlie early from school and Robin as well. A quick shopping and then down to the sea and rocks aside. Lovely picknick out in the sunshine and the time being with a green nature is so perfect fantastic fabolous. I just love it. To sit and look out at the boats, old ferrys and jet-skies going around is so nice and lovley. Stockholm is fantastic.

Both my sons are really happy and in a good shape. Charlie is some curious about his grades as he will have toprates , and he is eager to have it confirmed. Robin has a great tan, enjoy his bike and mother and is as cool as ever.

Life can be really nice and tender.

1 more day to go in Sweden.... o boy.

/ Anna

Confused...

So... Yesterday it happened. I have been some stressed lately, but in control. And that is true. Believe it or not.

But to forget my cat home was kind of sad and true as well.

And when I noticed, it was to late to turn around and go back.

Poor little Zorro darling, remember that I love you heavy and that you will be taken care of anyway.

And when I realized I had missed the flight from Cyprus as well when arriving to Stockholm due to some time confusing...., I just went home. Down in the sofa.. and waited for another little darling to come home.

Everything will be alright in the end.

I told you, I have to blame my travel fever.


Love / Anna

2 more days to go...

Hello hello, My travel fever is kind of high at the moment. Even if it is only some days left now, I am in a great mood, great temparature and great exited.

Today it was decided that I will be part of one of the sessions this year and it will be so damn good.

RDM03 together with Wivianne Ericsson at IBM. As always, I need to have a great nerve before a session to be extremely good. And i will soon get it.

Its Monday, and I am actually very tired, even if you can´t notice. This weekend was kind of hard but great fun. I did not sleep very much last night and the night before, due to some partying, and partying again. Summertime is a lovey time for partying.

My lovely friend had her birthday this Saturday so we had a good reason to celebrate and get tipsy. Yes... I have to admit we went tipsy. but in a fancy way of course.

Yesterday I fell asleep in the forest when we were joining the Seul evening. Holy moses, I was ashamed of that. But woke up when I was supposed to fix the grill for some hot dogs
But .. who cares.

The Hotel is blogging ... www.arbogastadshotell.wordpress.com

So, time for blogging even for the Hotel. I can tell it is great fun to realize what power the blog has.

I established the blog one week ago and we have already got some bookings due to the blog.

I wrote about our new suite - the Sauna Suite - and guests have called and asked for it.

Have a look at the blog btw. .. maybe I am brave enough to write something about our exiting, challenging and lovely guests experiences in the future...

www.arbogastadshotell.wordpress.com

The new suite is great. As written, its a two room suite with the Sauna included. The key to the room is mentioned SO and we have got many suggestions of that abbreviation, what do you think it is. ...?

As a matter of fact, it was the only key tab left so we did not have a choice .. but honest, it is a good name.

I will put out some photos as well, both here and on the official hotel web site, which btw will be new released very soon.

It will be filled with lovely photos from the hotel atmosphere but also of us here in the staff. We want to spread our energy and intention to the guests coming and will do that with lively photos.

soon.... 5 days to go. My temperature is getting higher and higher.

/ Anna

New week

Sunday....

Sun was shining all day, so nice. Spent the day at my summer house in bikini doing some gardening. I love my new little lawn mover. It starts on the first kick and I love that.

Had a comfortable leftover of Robin. My heart is happy and safe about his "other family" and the relationsship we have. Robin is safe and happy about it and it makes him very alive and secure.

As writing this Monday morning, he is on his way to Cyprus and I wish them a great vacation. And I long for some resting as well.

Monday...

Early early yes yes.... woke up with a tired body and 0515 is starting to become my time.

Now its time for start preparing my things for US. I cant believe its 10 days to go.

But i go to bed some minutes first.

A

What a weekend....

First...

Friday. To wake up in Arboga in my lovely bed with my son close to me is a great feeling. To feel the sun coming, hot into the bed as I dont have any fabrics in the windows, is just very nice.

To go to my own hotel, sit down and have a served breakfast with panncakes, eggs and omeletts and others is also good. Briefing before the big attic and garage sale here at the hotel. I was responsible for the prices and the set up so yes, this Friday I had to work. As expected a lot of people called already the day before to get here and have a look but no no.

More... drove my lovely turbo SAAB to the garage since the damage of my door, the try to break into my car was the worst seen ever and the door is totally damaged. I got an Opel Astra to drive for some weeks and I promise, its different from my turbo.

In the afternoon my oldest son and his girlfriend came with train and took care of Robin in a way that is fantastic. He is spoiled with love my little 7 year boy, and that is good.

Friday evening and night. Up at the attic, 2 racks of beer. 3 bottle of wines, the old grammofon on and yes. We worked all night. And we got totally tipsy drunk all of us working. Ended up in the new suite with more beers and yes.... it was just to much.

The hangover was a catastrophy. I almost could not stand on my feet. Try to look happy, beauti and also socialize among houndreds of citizen from Arboga was kind of a miracle. But, the show must go on and of course we fixed it. Great co-operation and I promise that whole little town is both impressed and happy about their bargains. Damn good prices for the day.

But what we sold. Great sale but still, almost everything is kind of left.

Saturday evening. My son and girlfriend took care of the hotel, so I could get out with Robin. He had been so cool, so nice and so great that I almost cry of happiness. I must have done something great with that boys genes as he is such a nice little man.

We took a drive to the neighbour city as they had a cruising evening. To cruise in an ordinary car was kind of no fun... but to look at the cars and to look good is even as good as that.

I took the chance to place myself in a red camaro convertible for some minutes and just dream away... I must by a nice car later on.

Home, to bed. Relaxed with my IPod and so good to go sleep early.

Sunday morning, Simon and Pernilla took care of the breakfast and I came some later to support... feels like the weekend will be quiet good anyway... and it s not over yet...

And I have not told you one single row about the betray from my two best friends.. which almost killed me. .... and I will never tell. . its a story you would not never believe if I told... I still cant believe it.

Love Anna

worth it...

Some days I wonder what is important to me and what choices I am doing at the moment. Is it worth it? The sacrifices and the emotional instability last half year have made me start wondering.

And that is good. To stop and stare and reflect.

Some days are harder then others and today, May 12th was a strange day. Felt like the day after a huge party, a terrible hangover, headache banging ... the day after.

Survived the business meeting in a way that I hope will be great for the future....and also survived to get home as well.

Time for the rest... and resting... soon only two more weeks to go and we are having a slight travel fever

I will make it worth it.
A

The power of goodbye

Madonna.... I like this song, its honest and its direct,... and the great power is in everyones hand.

Thanks for reminding me.



http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=GaNjCal26CM


A

Crazy

The other night I was invited to something real special. A chef friend asked if we wanted to join and exclusive session to gourmet food and fantastic wine in a small manson in Sörmland.

Of course I wanted to. Late in the evening me and me friend took the shortest way and I drove like a crazy thrue the lovely night to get there.

As we arrived, we were met by 6 hansom chef gentlemen who invited us to a table in a glass terrace in the garden. Old fantastic chic and fancy and we just were sitting with open mouths.

Luckily we were dressed up to the occassion which was fantastic. As the chefs during the meal had their individual competition and were heavily involved in tasting and talking ... we could just enjoy. And we did.

We just shook our head once to celebrate our experience that evening, and once again since we were told this chef network club had been working for some years and they had never invited somone esle to these exlusive meetings. .. not even their wifes..

Hello. And here we were. True or not... We were treated like the lovely women wer are and deserve and it was unconditional.

And how we laughed .. we had a great time all evening. Even after the dinner when the gentlemen took of their uniforms and went into normal clothes and the Jeopardy game was on the table.

I love to play games and so this one. I had the host as my teampartner and we were absoloutely best of all teams. Even if we did some losses now and then.. mostly we were the winners.

In the early morning we drove back home. I had to fix the breakfast to the guests.. damn.
I was tired. I fell asleep several time and I have to admit it is stupid to drive when you are tired.

But home we came and I just kept my tired face smiling during the breakfast this morning.

The show must go on.....


Energy
Anna

A room with a view

I dont know how .. but within 3 days we did fix it. A new hotel room and it has become such a georgious one.

The first guest night was supposed to be tomorrow night as I had not had the time to make the final touch and fixing with the bed and stuff.

But tonight , a young beautiful german couple stepped in and wanted a double room and they wanted a sauna as well. .. so... Yes. I told them to go out for some dinner and come back.

I used my last energy this weekend and made it ready for rent. Our first suit with sauna and bedroom included. Cosy.

The young couple was stunned and happy and even if there is no TV or sofa .. they just loved it.

I will take my time to try the room sooner or later, I just have to. I have not even tried the sauna yet what a shame. Time is right.

Time for bed...

Love
A

REO Speedwagon

Probably its beacuse of my lovely age I wanted to record this old lovesong from itunes..or maybe not. But I am very found of the old rock classic love songs recorded. You will be reminded about some more if you don´t mind

I think this is great and I think of the very last dance in schooldance receptions... but mostly... I was on my way home at that time due to restrictions.. with the song in my ear..

Today I can enjoy it fully. I enclose the text as well .. it is a lovely song and it is in my Ipod of course.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=67Fb8XbpWMM


no the text was not possible to copy so here is the link.

http://www.lyrics.com/index.php/artists/lyric/reo-speedwagon-lyrics-cant-fight-this-feeling-t-2865074


AKG

Happy birthday Robin 7

May 1st 2009...

hello!! Time is really running. Seven years ago I remember the rush into the hospital ... after only 10 minutes in the shower I started to give birth to my youngest son Robin and the nurse had not been able to prepare herself at all. Robins father was standing with my clothes in his arms and just stared.... over and out... Puh.

But it was pretty easy anyway compared to the first one Simon.

Today he is 7 years old and a lovely little boy. He is cool, calm and happy and he is very comfort in his life due to the fact that he trust both me and his father 100% . We will do anything to him , anytime. And he is safe with that. And he is well aware that his brothers love him heavily.

As he is a ´"divorce child" he is of course some spoiled, but not over spoiled.
But when I hunted his gift for today I felt kind of overcompensating the little boy a bit... by buying away my bad consious with a Nintendo DS.

But ... I know that people do that even if they are not divorced, just bored and dont know better, due to the fact that they want to compensate someting else, or just bad consious. Sad but reality as good as anything else I guess.

I at least admit it and am in control... of both my shopping and my life :-).

Today we celebrated his birthday in our summerhouse with guests, coffee, lemonade and a huge green cake. His favourite cake . He also got his favourite Lego, Star 'Wars from my sister and was very happy about that . He built it immediately on his own even if it was very complicated level of Lego. And he almost crashed it in the car on the way to the city because of his determination of keep it in his knee.

The sun has been shining all day long and I just enjoy life every single second as good as I can. I just sit in the sun, do some reflections and wonder if my seul mates are doing the same. If so, it would be great with a sign, i need some holy spirit company in my spring minds.

I have updated my blog photo in my sister in law´s new sunglasses.. Armani, do you like it?? and I think that a new pair of sunglasses will be my first thing to shop when arriving in Miami.

Tomorrow is the second of May and I will buy a new Lawn mover... boring but necessary.
The old one took two of my toenails....and I will not challenge anymore.

Love and energy from
Anna

New toy..

So...I thought I would not be so thrilled over my new toy. But I am.

I want to hold it all the time, touch it and just keep it close enough to get the best out of it.

Its blank.. its fancy, its just touchable so easy so Yes I am exited.

And I have filled it with the items I want to play


here is some of the fills:


I cant fight the feeling anymore...

Dont you... forget about me

I love you just the way you are...

Never ending love

Tattoo

Hungry Eyes..

Please dont stop the music

Say it right ..

The winner takes it all

Run

A moment like this...


I natt i natt

Kom Hem


Sleep well..

One thing is for shure.. it will be used. Heavily, and it will be filled with more. ITs 32GB and I guess I can play the rest of my life..


Love and energy 0156 Thursday.

Anna

Wednesday 29/4

countdown for US. only one month to go .

End of May it´s take off for Miami and Florida and I start to get nervous and thrilled.

Maybe I will be a speaker this year as well.

Love
Anna

Tuesday 28/5

Today was a great day.

Started with a nice walk in the lovely warm weather.

Continued with a good lunch meeting.

Further on to the hairdresser and did som colour and fixing and that was truly needed. Stepped out as a new girl... or woman or whatever I am and yes.. I am pleased.

I stepped into my fancy car which nowadays has summer wheels on.. damn. It makes sence and they are good looking as well. My car is made for driving fast and furious.

Took my youngest to a surprise birthday party dinner in a great small Pizzeria.
It was a new experience in that place and I will truly come back. My exman´s new woman told me that the pizza guy had a crush on me in there.. and yes, how should I know...

Back home for testing Robin´s new gifts.

He was happy abou them all and he does not know he will get some more on his real day.

Good night from a

cool, calm and concentrated

Anna

waiting for 28 of May and what else is around the corner.

Thursday 16th of April 2009

Ordinary Thursday or what ...

My little brother celebrate his 26 year´s birthday today, congratulations to him.

I am reminded that I need to switch tiers on my car and I should remember a lot of other things as well.

Thanks for reminding me.


Tomorrow is Friday and thank s for that as well.

/ A

A crazy day

This Wednesday I had planned to be a quiet calm and controlled day. Teamclinic meeting in Södertälje, 40 km from Stockholm, and leave and pick up of Robin from school. Thats it.

Started great. Replied to a message which made me shivering in one way. Crazy. A lovely walk to school, kiss and goodbye to Robin. Plug in my Mp3 and a long walk thrue the nice villas and down to the forest and the walk along the sea. Such a lovely day. With the great music in my ears I did a quick and energetic walk.

Back home for a shower and to some work at the laptop. Planned to drive some earlier to have a walk and some spring shopping before the meeting.

But hello. I did not find the key to my car. Gone . Gone and Gone. Absolutely gone. I knew Ihad it it in my pocket when I walked to school. But it ws obviously not there anymore. Ok...
I ran back to school, into Robins classroom, muddered all his things and clothes but no.

Back to home. A call to Pär and Annika... I cant come to the meeting, I have lost my car key.

Quick decision. They come to me instead. Great Idea and thanks.

I did a quick great lunch which was waiting when they arrived.

Good talk and work to prepare for the Rational Day next Tuesday in Kista. The banner was so damn good. I will make an own blogpost of that one.

While working, I called my sister to go to my home in ARboga and find the extra key, I also called my truck driver if he could bring the key to stockholm tomorrow, but unf. no. Another direction... but.. as the brilliant guy he is, he fixed so another driver could deliver the key to me. I got a place and a time to pick it up in the morning, fixed.
So greatful and so happy about true ability and the willingnes to solve things.

Time out of work. Timte to run to school and pick up Robin, and then..

all of a sudden hanging in a small bush. My key. MY key!! I just screamed out loud and yes, there it was. Someone must have picked it up, brought it in and then went out to leave it in the small bush.

Damn how good. To school. To the shop and back home.

Headache. Call to the truck driver. ... I found it. No pick up tomorrow.

Call to the partner for negotiations... headache.
Ready steady done. Business Deal.

Bedtime for Robin.

More headache.

Last writing for tonight...

Tomorrow is another day.



A

Lazy Eastern

Last day of the Eastern days and I feel both relaxed, satisfied and tired.

I have had some great days with my boys including a trip to Estonia and Tallin for 36 hours. It was great fun, mostly to see my sons going out to the disco and coming back at around 2 oclock having had a great time. My oldest had danced for hours with different people and he had enjoyed every second. He was lucky to show and prove the night activities as he always bring his camera wherever he goes. He also had some pain in his legs the day after since he normally does not dance that much or at all.
Myself and Robin was sleeping and snoring as it best when the boys were having a great time.

Tallin was beautiful but quiet boring, .. or that was unfair. Let´s say, I was boring. I was somewhere else while walking around .. but the old city was fantastic. I have to admit that of course as I remember that though.

On the trip back home I promised my oldest that he and I would go to the disco and dance that night. But after hanging around in the karaooke pub and watching the late dancing show we just looked at each other and then we went to bed for some heavy sleeping again. Too tired.

I am in a very bad condition in many ways so sleeping is a good thing at the moment.

And laughing, and sunshine , and good news, and friendship and sharing.. and more.

This morning , 0515 when I heard my son saying " mummy" holding his hand over his mouth watching me , I just knew it was coming.

And yes it was. He had a bad day and has been sleeping and puking all day long. I have not been outside the house and it made me got a hard headache as well.

In the afternoon he managed to drink and eat for the first time since yesterday and now he is on his way recovering. I pray to god that I will not get a flew.

And I pray for some more as well. What goes around comes around, so also for me.

Good night.
Anna

Agnes..

From Agnes,...

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Vbzm_yHv0M4



A

Eastern - Eggs and eggs... and some more

Just arrived in Stockholm. The sun is about to come here in the early evening and it looks beautiful in the sky.

Have picked up Robin and he is around me, very close and happy. His candy egg is almost empty and he is not aware that another one is waiting.

I am around, here, in a strange mood, just trying to keep my head up but it does not work. My body and my seul just tells me to .... wake up, start walking and talking. I am "jetlegged" in more then one way.

This week have been a rollercoaster----lets call it the " duelling dragons week feeling"... a lovely rollercoaster drive as in Florida Orlando Universal Adventure Park.

I have been hanging outside the last waggon .. trying to hold on, just feeling the death coming closer when loosing step and hands. wow... Back in the first waggon again.

It started with one nightmare and continued with another, and another and another..... Hmm..... How many can you deal with in one day and one week? Obviously many ...

• I had to resign one of my employees this week. Sad but true. Short, honest and so damn hard. But business is business and that is included as well to manage.. Just some shitty hard when the person , is the one you have trusted and employeed as a number one and in some words, just feel worthless. puuh. I guess I have that feeling very much at the moment.

• I had to meet the most unprofessional, ugly and mostly stupid dummie in the community of the little town and I was chocked. Chocked ....so much that I laughed my ass of with my lawyer. Kind of maniac behaviours I guess... :-)

It will be a pleasure to be on the headlines, some people just told me I love to be in the spot, ( I did not know ) and I cant deny that any more. I never ever normally feel this kind of revenge feelings but now.. yes yes.

• Mother nightmare... hello.. this wednesday evening I was reminded why I sad goodbye to my mother for a break and time out lasted 14 years. Yes... and I am willing to take a break for the rest of my life. Some things I will not accept, not even with an excuse again and again and again.. Hell no... give me strenght to leave her bad energy out of me. I will enjoy the rest of my life for sure, with or without her.

• One of my friends had a nightmare wake up this week and luckily I was aside to limit the damage and scary minds. Some men are bigger assholes then others , its just about how fast you will realize it. It was like in a scary movie... I got a chill and I wil never ever experience this again.. puh..

• NIghtmare.. missing a sharing partner reminder .. again. In tuff situations you just have to ask for help, advice and support, it s just about to realize when to and who to go to and just also realize, who are your friends when needed?

I went back to a lawyer/ accounter I used some years ago for some support and questions regarding my business and my lucky bastard, he was ready for some support again. He remembered me and that was good.

I will sell out part of my business, that is clear. Now it is about the price. And honestly .. that decsion was everything but a nightmare. It feels great. I am ready to team up and dare another partner.

• Mail nightmare 1... when words are supposed to be positive and cheer you up but gives nothing but tears.." dont feel sad.." .
• Mail nightmare 2... when someone state that "words are at least practical.".and use the word "dust" when its about feelings... my personal unvisible guides just tell me to read the words again ok... they words might be practical and useful.. but for haven sake... remember that behind the words there is a life and honest meaning but mostly feeling and me reading. .... and why not speaking out loud and honest? just do it.

• Unexpected thoughts..... I want to build a house. I was walking in an area with a lot of houses, quiet newly built and the thougt just hit me with a lot of feelings... again. I need to make a change, and yes... things are ongoing I hope and true. I want to build something new.

• Positive 1... my sisters husband came back from Miami today.... he was thrilled about the visit ... and it is wonderful to realize that within 7 weeks I will take ground... .. i cant believe it

• Positive 2.. I will spend the eastern with my 3 boys and I will enjoy every second with them and for a change ...I will not spend the Eastern in my summerhouse, it will not even be in Arboga. And it feels great.

Happy Eastern.

Anna

Sunshine

Yesterday and today the Sun is on the agenda here in Sweden. Almost half of the year we live in the dark and not to often we see the lovely Sun.

When it comes, it is just lovely. So nice and light. All Swedes just open up, start talking, walking and get out of their houses to get some energy and hopefully some tan as well.

Please, Just keep on shining, I truly need sun, sunshine and a tan in a big dosage.

/ A

Stand by....

The 747 is a beauty and beast in the sky...

Here are two more beauties from Gibraltar that just have took ground in stand by position, some energy gathering, planning ready for take off again.

/ A

Scary landing....

Philipsburg/St. Maarten–Princess Juliana Airport in the Netherland Antilles .

What a lovely photo, imagine the landing. One thing is for sure, You always get down.

Love
Anna

Agile - Lean living...

Key values in Agile development are

• Trust
• Truth
• Transparency
• Fearless

Great values that open up for fun, motivating and worthwile great deliveries if living.

Is it possible to map them to private life as well?

According to me yes, and let me give some thoughts regarding it.

Trust: first, start trusting yourself, more easier to trust anyone else. Put trust in your nearest and you will be surprised what possible can be achieved. People grow and get happier to have the feeling of being trusted.

Truth: tell the truth, maybe not radical honesty,, that is maybe to much, but very close to that. Open up for Truth in the living. First, to yourself, secondly to the people around you. Truth always comes around when it goes around ... and remember, its not danger, its just the open truth.

Transperancy: Make things open, show what happens and share your achievements, your work, your thoughts an everything. Not to forget your mood, your result, deliveries or whatever that could be. Put up your personal list visible, fill it in and encourage the most lovely days fulfilling tings on the list. Great thing to remember your love and actions at that time of every day.

Fearless: Its ok to fail. It truly is. we are people and yes... we can do things not perfect all the time. If you open up to a fearless mindset you will get even closer to the people around you. Its ok to tell things not so popular and fantastic, but they are stil things to take place.

Add some Lean thoughts:

• focus on the bottlenecks, and increase delivery capacity - good and possible

• load to capacity , if you try to understand, by working and testing, how much you really truly can deliver in your team and life, you will in the end be aware of your capacity to deliver. It takes som time to understand that but later on you limit the mostly high expectations on delivery capacity that does not exists, just on papers...the amount of good employess with highly skills all of them, does not necessarily mean that they can co operate perfect. Make sure to be honest about this. ITs not what we want it to be , it is what we really deliver that can be measured.

Well at least, no matter Agile Lean or anything else, just remember to live your life honest to yourself and choose happines. Nobody else does.

Hugs and love from A

Make a change.....

This lovely song could have been written and told by my very best favourite "share - holder" .... .... here it is performed by lovely Sarah Dawn Finder.

To me the message is clear what is about to happen.

And to be .. Its about make a change and to move on. I think Sarah just did and here give the right energy and words going on and what to do...listen to it, enjoy and just Move on.

Love and energy on the way to you who are about to make a change. Just sing it out loud and clear the throat.

What a lovely song , simple, deep, strong, and very fantastic.
.

Anna

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=RfHpjo8Ye1o&feature=player_embedded

Values - shape performance...

Values, important to all of us no matter we live them or want to admit that they exist both in privatelife but also businesswise.

Consider your own personal values for some minutes, what is important to you? And what is really important to you ? What are your values in life? How does it affect your attitudes and behaviours in real life? How do your values impact on you?

It does not take a minute to think about this, that is for shure. I lived a long time of my life with values I had on my list, but it was strange to realize that I did not live them very well.

My needs and wantings were something completely else. But hello.. whos values were on my wall then? Some hard to admit when you are at my age but truly... they were not my own and mostly I can refer them to my father very much.

He was the one, printing them to me, invisible but very alive, and clear and yes... I agree, they sounded very good and great and wanted to be perfect so... I tried my best. And realized I failed ... or.. succeeded. Succeeded to finally wake up and consider that I was living someone elses values.

When I have worked with teams and organisations, I have had a succesfull time creating values, attitudes and behaviours within the teams. Creating common values, rules and wanted behaviours and attitudes... and also.. implement them, so to say... start living the values as well.. and measure, and follow up, and give feedback, to strength and to get the value out of it.

Values shape performance, I truly believe in that, and I have seen it in real life. And it goes for myself as well.

Back to the my own values, It has taken me some years to admit, that my values are not the one I am trying to live, they are different and others. So... I have to rewrite them, and remind me about my values. And how I want to live them.. and mostly what attitude and behaviours I will add to strenghten them. Its never to late to be honest to yourself, and your values, and be a bit selfish or ego, as you are the most important person in your life.

I love to see the value on the top of my list: I promis to love myself that much that I will put my needs and wantings first and create the good from that.

From " 7 habits of highly effective people ",..... Put first things first... true in many dimensions.

I look forward to the day I will team up again and create that team common values. At least I have a draft of a list ready just to be executed and lived.

Good night,
Anna

To many fishes in the pool...and more ..

So... again.. this morning It popped to my memory and positive minds some certain expressions I learned the last few years ... they are very useful.. lets give you a lesson in my golden phrases ...

And remember.... I write them with a big lovely beautiful Anna smile... I love them... and I love to be ironic and cynical, but mostly.... I am in a very good mood. From me with love..and remember ... I do choose love and life very much.... Enjoy these...

-to many fishes in the pool... I thought... it was someone who was very busy with a lot of things to deal with, in life, at the moment, on the arena ... and who was considered to sort things out and clean for better space and energy and mostly clear water. It could also be to many women ( men :-) )in your courtyard and pool at the same time and its more easy to pick up fishes and clean then to drag a few women (men) from pool and poolside and get them going.... we love the luxury life dont we...and we hold on as until the pool is totally empty and its frozen...

-keep your thoughts..... well... just as simple as that , please dont tell me what you think.. because I dont like it... and maybe .. keep your minds because they dont fit me and I dont want to hear... well.. sometimes you dont want to hear ... so that phrase is very useful...

- stay confident..... could mean , trust me, never doubt, dont think to much .. just rely on me... but but... when the comment appears when your intuition is stonger then iron and the actions are more then zero .. .then.. you wonder if it is evil words in the time for waiting.


- how hard can it be?...... funny to me but also very simple and easy as that. Why the heck do we complicate things so much..... In all cases about to dare being honest....true?

thanks for the giving and getting....

Love Anna

Anna

S i m t

Sorry for not being capable of writing a single word in some days.. . thanks for reminding me... my frequent readers.. and asking me to.. but honest... I cant get a word out of me at the moment. To be very short... my words are stucked in my throat . But I will soon be back with new stories...

To you, some music on the way... this old band, movie and lovely couple´s chemistry is great to watch and enjoy. Especially from 2.13 ..

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=2ZCtgFmQvjQ





/ A

Future sharing..

Japp.. that are the words for today.

Add on love, live, learn and leave a legacy and we are being kind of serious here. Or not..

How serious do we have to be? And how hard can it be?

Do we have to know everything, what is waiting around the corner, what is coming and what to be afraid of?

The answer is in your mind.

My minds are spinning, and at the moment I am not serious about anything, or am I? The balance of taking yourself to seriously and at the same time enjoy life can be hard.

I refer to Benjamin Zander, the lovely conductor, who reminds us about Rule no 6.

well hello... what is Rule no 6? Dont take yourself so damn seriously.

and what about the other rules... ?

There are no other rules... To the ones that have not read Benjamin Zanders book.. The Art of Possiblity, I just say.. dare to read it.

Half full glasses or half empty glasses? Guess what I have?

/ Energy, love and sharing on the way.
A

Light up ...

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=pcpWQC9prm0


this song is lovely ..a brand new one. I just heard Leona Lewis got a contract worth more than ms Madonna and she deserves it.

this one as well. .. its fantastic with a lovely lyric as well.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=s3kAsUB6nFA&feature=related


//A


Here is the lyrics as well.

http://www.lyrics.com/index.php/artists/lyric/leona-lewis-lyrics-run-tm-512

God´s grafitti...

the other day I noticed I have got a few more greyer hair strings... well.. I dont cry and I dont die, I just reflect on it, thanks.. i probably deserve them. Its not to many actually so I prefer to see them as signs to me.


One of my very grey haired friends see it as a proper gift, from his blog "Grey hair is God´s grafitti ".....and myself, i buy that one and say that God is reminding me about something.


Today I was reminded again about the difficulty in honesty, and the dance in a relation. It would not surprise me if I get some more smaller greys of it..


On the other hand, they might do me good, and I will look even more sofisticated. Because that is what I feel.


I wonder about the ones that do not get grey hair at all... what signs are that? Probably none .., zero, empty, no life and no reactions. it just crossed my crazy minds, that those people fight with things and dont let anything comes out as it should. Neither from skin, mouth, minds or actions. Hold back, being afraid, lie, hide and do things like hurting others, and that are totally against their real wantings and needs.

Sometimes we often limit ourseleves in embracing the joy we find, either because denial of the needs or self- constrain ourselves. So sad.

some words on the way..

" you need to decide if you want to act in such a fashion that it is the integrety of your needs, both´s needs... that is the dance that all in intimate realtionsships must attend to"

" promises are good, but you can only judge people by their actions, true?"

Thank you for giving me lovely words on the way. I truly need it.

Anna

what a week...

I notice i have not written any post since last Sunday... hello... obviously I have been very busy all week long and have not had a thought about the blog ...do I?

Honestly.. no. This has been a, great, strange, sad, happy but also a lovable week with love on a distance .. what a great expression...

Monday Tuesday.. heavy busy in the hotel... fully booked. This week filled with a lof of people from northen part of Sweden and they have given me many laughs. But also from southern Sweden and they are great as well... there are so many friendly guests visiting the hotel, thank godness for that. They are so friendly that they apologize for keeping me wating to late at night for late check in as they know they will find me asleep with the head in the laptop... eh.. true.. but not to often luckily.

This week I also implemented my monthly letter to the guests ,telling them now what is going on, comings and some smaller details about my maintenance plans. So much positive reactions on this letter. .. they all are very exited and supportive and wish all the best

Perfect timing as well since the painter came along and started to paint the foaje and I can tell you that the result will be marvellous great. It feels like another hotel entrance totally , and only by changing colours. Great. I was jumping and screaming and singing around as the colour came visible. My architect Brownwynne has done a fantastic work, I am happy and impressed.

Wednesday I went on a Medium session. Yes true. Unfortunately I could not stay as long as planned so I missed the spirits came visiting my uncles wife, attending the same session. Strange is, that when I left the session... the medium told her some true words from the holy ghost and I guessed she was chocked. But ... what goes around comes around.....even to her and my uncle who has let me down in a sad way for the last 2.5 years... But, I have kept cool and it will be paid, at least I am happy about my way to dealing with it.

Thursday... I went on a private medium session and I was reminded about intresting things coming and is. I promise... I am not crazy.. I just have a great flow of energy and that you all know.

Friday.. last day of the week and I felt exhausted this morning. ... too. I have not slept to much this week which pays off. .. so.... damn tired all week and especially mornings. But In the morning today I read a letter from a friend that made me laugh like a crazy .. I think I woke up all guests at 0630 by laughing loud.

And in the end of the day... I read another letter from a person I thought was my friend... but obviously just do nothing but kill me in a very very sad way. This time... i cried like a crazy... but in silence. My instinct tells me that something really bad is ongoing.But but.. I have to choose to think it will be solved ...it must be. And I cant help in any way.

Puh.....now.. Friday evening, in my sofa just relaxing.

Waiting and longing and just feel... relaxed and in love. That is not to bad on a week like this..


oh.. i forgot... the week is not over yet, so still some stories to tell. Tomorrow I look forward to a great lovely meeting and it just have to be. I cant wait .

Love and happiness from

Anna

Record....

This weekend the hotel beat some records that will be hard to challenge any weekend coming, but not impossible. Most number of guests in the hotel ever... and on a Saturday as well.

The hotel has been crowded with Entertainment... , Artists, Two different party people groups and that was a lot. Especially in the morning at breakfast. I did not have enough tables and chairs so I hold my thumbs for them coming not at the same time. And i was mentally prepared and that is good. If your mindset is right, you can fix anything.

I also prepared my sistersd daughter Ida to come and help me and also learn for future coming work. Ida is 15 years old but had a great energy, willingness and good attitude to fix the rush hours in the morning.

And we fixed it.

Summary, good business, good great customer eperiences and very good team up with Ida today and Annalena yesterday as she worked some extra due to the heave guest load. Super great.

I am not surprised I almost killed myself in the car, driving crazy tired and fast until I felt the slippery road just let go of the car. Luckily neither of my sons did notice.. because they had been really scared.

So.. let´s end February in a splendid way., i just need a month that will be something extra. No matter if it is business, love or performane. I need trustwothy relations and lovely energy.. and I promise I will deliver my part of that.

I wish I was skiing downhill with my lovely great bf or just sitting on a balcony in the lovely moonshine street. Well. actually it does not matter where to enjoy and relax.

Damn how nice.
Energy and love to your all

K & H
A

One week ago....

Sitting in my dining room, having the a sober and calm Friday here in Arboga and I actually enjoy. Thinking back one week ago.. hm... time is just running. One week ago I was sitting in probably one of the best restaurants in Fuengirola with the most lovely company and enjoyed a great dinner. Several small courses like tapas variadas was served with an excellent bottle of red wine ( honest it was two).

One week ago, I was standing on the balcony, looking out over the Medditerrainen just straight into the lovely moonshine and felt a nice breeze coming over my skin. Marvellous and lovely.

One week ago I was walking in the sun on the beach, listening to music and did some power walk every now and then.. and finally stopped by for a coffee in one of the many bars.

Damn .. i miss it. And I wonder what I am doing here actually...so much missing. It can be lovely.
Good night and a happy weekend.

Love / A

somethings gotta give..

hey...



Back in Stockholm Sweden again and I have to admit it was pretty tuff to put the feets on the Swedish ground again. Damn... the landing can be mention in two ways ... lovely wonderful, safe and very very close... but also.. very cold... minus 5 degrees celcius, and minds and feelings that wanted to be somewere else. Wrong wrong....



I have had some great super duper days in southern Spain and I actually did not want to go home. Not at all. Well... maybe some.. to make the arrangements for another trip soon. I will make sure we go back within a short future. Actually... the whole lovely future is just waiting and I am full of energy and love and of course that will be the best journey ever.



Some words and their meenings are just very deep lovely flowing in and out at the moment and it is as it should.... sharing, loving, giving, laughing and creating. Creating the days you want.



regarding sharing.....Have you seen the movie "Somethings gotta give" .?.. in Swedish its called.. Crazy in love and I can just agree. I did see half of the film yesterday when flying and yes.. it is good, funny, but also very thoughtful in a lovely way. I truly recommend it. Especially to watch with someone you love and that will share the lovely phrases, comments, feelings and atmosphere in the film with you. Jack Nickolson and Diane Keaton are marvellous actors.



Love, sharing and happiness

AKG

more Puerto Banus

Its kind of hard to live this Puerto Banus life here.. so many choices to make every day… puh...

How long can I stay in bed and just enjoy? What clothes to wear ? How high heels on the shoes… ? How much to spend on shopping? What coffee place to visit?… Which restaurant to choose…gosh..!!

And as I am thinking…and considering I am walking around the yachts waiting for an invitation for a Pina colada drink or two in the lovely sunshine, in the back of one of the beautiful boats here.

Or maybe a short ride in one of the lovely Bentleys or Ferraris cruising on the beach side. I think I got potential.. especially in one of the pair of shoes I have not bought yet… They might be a good investment... or not?

At least, I have made two choices …. Which yacht to visit first and and which Ferrari to drive, its a black one with a babysitter in the front... but what he heck..

… I am just waiting ….. and in between I put my white body in the sun trying to get a fancy tan as well.

Here I am on the pir in Puerto Banus. Just considering and do my best to walk my talk.

How hard can it be?

Besos und amor from Marbella, Puerto Banus

Anna

Puerto Banus -

So.. I have found another favourite place in Europe to visit every now and then ..

Just sitting on a lovely terrace in a lovely flat in Puerto Banus, Costa del Sol and have a great time. I am just stunned by the jetset smell and the place as it is. And not to forget all the Yachts that actually filled the whole harbour here. Amazing and asume and just very fantastic to experience.

And the "golden card" we got to acess to the Puerto Banus harbour area with the car was even more fancy and VIP. To be honest.. it fits us very very well. And so the small bars and restaurant. I can recommend Picasso for good Pizzas and Sinatra bar for good kissing and great caffe con leche.

I have had some lovely days here and still two more to go. Great atmosphere and great company and actually I wish I could stay some more days.

But.. you should always leave as it´s best and I promise to come back, really.

I have also found another pair of high heels shoes here that I want to buy .. but can´t decide weather I should or not... black.. very high heels and kind of to much expensive I guess.. but they are on sale... and they looked very good on ... Maybe I should listen to my boyfriend that they are maybe to high for a 42... but on the other hand I think he liked them as well .. at least some. ... decison tomorrow and you can imagine what kind of big challenges I have to deal with at the moment..... :-).

A trip to Gibraltar today as well and it was a great experience. The lovely Rock coming out of the ocean and just appearing very strong, high and fashinating, and the caves and the tunnels as well... Fantastic. I have never been so close to Africa as today.. fun and exiting.

And I have never seen a submarin from the British Navy either, entering the harbour and coming visible out of the water.. fantastic. I love the sea and everything arounds it. Here the sea is just around the corner.. cold.. but lovely.

Tomorrow is another day and i will keep on enjoying... for the rest of my life, I promise.

Love and sharing from
Anna

Reminder ..... Ain´t no mountain....

high enough.... true .....

regarding dancing and singing and feeling great..

I get lovely feelings listening to this song and it also reminds me about happiness and sharing..so much.

Raise the volume and sing it from your heart... I do, I dedicate it to a person who deserves it, need it and is very welcome.

Tammi and Marvin.. you do it in a joyful way... how hard can it be to let the happiness flow?

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=IVFT7i94zQU

/ HP

" she sucks"........ but "stay the night "

Sitting in the sofa... watching the Swedish Eurovison song contest together with my son Robin 6 years old.

In between he comes to my knee, and in between we dance a bit.. and our energy definately depends on the tempo and the hit feeling in the songs..

One of them was / is our favourite so far and we both danced when Stay the night ...was played

and ... one of them was definately so crazy bad ... sorry to say...

and the best evidence and reaction for this was my sons very young and fashionable comment in the most calmest way when he listened fascinating to this song .....

" she sucks"..... he just said.. frank and straight out in the air....


ehhhh.... he just stared at the television and I asked him...--- excuse me sir .. what did you just say?

" she sucks " ..... he stated again.... in swedish it is.. " hon suger"


Well.., honestly.. I have to agree... the title and the content of the song was not my favourite topic or neither my favourite singer so.. I agree.

Damn... the youngsters today really have their expressions and this one he must have learned by his lovely older brothers... but also.. from all the others that nowadays use that expression..

Sing on..

I put some of my money on the group Alcazar... Stay the night..

Happiness , fashion and dancing and a great tempo. I hope they will be one of the top 3 this year.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=1oY7NYTW75s

/ Love A

Retrospective

The "retrospective" in Scrum is supposed to be done by the end of the sprint to state the situation, get the health check of the ongoing work and make sure you go on forward by using the lessons learned and go for the right next sprintplan.

Today I did a smaller retrospective of this week number 6 and honestly .. it has been a sprint I will never forget.

From a critical red Monday to a Friday filled with laughs, happy goodbye but also.. future sharing, planning and the statement of earning trust.

Today I went to the office for Nordea IT and gave away my laptop, keys and everything else requested after 22 years employment. Sad`?? well.. not really. Filled with respect to a company that have been open to all my carréer plans and development on many levels and that have supported me all the way in my ideas, energy and full execution... well I am just very calm but also ready for somethin new.

So.. no way.... no sorrows... I leave the company with great happiness and a mindset "lets keep in touch". You can imagine doing a full retrospective of the 22 years... I just did a very small one here.... enough for now.

Planning.... after a retrospective you start to plan for another sprint. And so we did.. A short, explosive and wanted sprint with sharing and trust as the target.

feels great, good and exiting.. and I long to walk on the beach and feel the wind in my hair and neck.

And maybe.... I dare to put my feets in the water... I want to swim

/ Love Anna

http://blog.teamclinic.se/

Hey... good news... Teamclinic ´s blog is in the air.. and you can expect a lot from it.

Have a first glance and please come up with suggestion of topics and things to comment.

I promise that I will do my best to get some "stars" to be our guestbloggers" and that I will keep my private writings here...

For those of you who does want to read more professional things then my ongoing issues... you just switch blog... and for those of you who wants to join me.. yes you are just welcome to continue reading.


// Blog on

Anna

Please dont stop the music..

Several times here on the blog I have presented songs and lyrics that I like and connect to.

Typically... Please dont stop the music,.. Rihanna... a great dance and singing girl.

Some of the blogreaders here kept complaining to me on those posts... that they were to boring. And some.... recommend this blog on music sites... eh.. that was funny.

So I am a music person as well.. by the way,,did you know that I played violin for several years in my younger days? No.. how could you...

I did and I loved it, especially when I played in the orchestra. I was not very found of doing the weekly homeworks alone in my rooms since violin sounds best in team, at least is that what I think . With my full attention i joined the orchestra and played with happiness and koncentration and I truly enjoyed it.

My mother used to ask me to not play to high and she never ever checked upon my trainings .. she did not like the noice at all. My father instead, he asked for concerts, layed in the bed and I played all the things to him gladly. I guess he wanted some payback for the halfyearly fee that he loved to pay even if I know it was quiet much at that time.

Nowadays.. the violin is kind of very dusty and I dont play that much. Some years ago I played a lot to some rocksongs... as I got hooked up and had a crush on the electric violin sound... its very cool I think.

I think I am born with music in my blood, I love to listen to and learn lyrics and of course sing them out loud all the songs coming on the radio.

And sometimes I think some songs are just coming in the right occasions and moments just for you.

Its even more nice when somebody else send you a song with a reminder that this one .. this is for you.

Today, I got a song sent to me. Thank you. I will keep it for myself for a while.. and publish it later.

It is not this song... but this is the one I am dancing heavily to in my car driving back and forth at the moment. Its energy and it is a lovely rythm in it and also.. its co written by one Swedish guy, familiar in the Swedish Idol jury. Damn... they are good these 3 guys. As I looked at the record I could see that all 3 of them were involved in almost all songs on that record. I am impressed. Anders Bagge, Laila Bagge och Andreas Carlsson, you are just great. Keep on writing.

/ A

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=tLZO0thbVgM&feature=related

Blogs- Inspiration in your software development work.. hopefully some Agile mindset included

The financial news all around the world and shown on telivision are not very positive at the moment. We are all affected in one way or another. So far I have not noticed very much here in the hotel of the ongoing crise but this week I think we just are aware. Not many guests really but ok.. i have been very lucky or what ever, and it is so far still good business.

I wonder how the organizations are dealing with their employees out there at the moment? I miss my manager position among the architects and developers where I could feel and touch upon their energy and innovation minds almost every day. Some are more hot then others but I loved to hear and see the synergize in their work and co-operation together.

I hope that IT companies take the opportunity to make this financial crise to something good and take the advantaged of the power, skill and potential in all.

My experience but also fear says and is that they way companies deal with cutting down issues are managed in such a lousy way that people get drained of future positive mindset and also.. mindset for keep on innovating , maintain and improve the existing golden systems, skills and people with capacity to grow.

I have told you before.. I am not to much impressed by things normally as I want to be impressed by all humans... but ok... I have my three favourite IT guys I like and that I want to recommend to you out there. Of course there are some more.. but ok.. i list these guys.

No matter crizes, depression and cost-cutting these guys are going strong and keep the innovation floating and... never stops. Thank godness for that.

Grady Booch, Jim Webber and Scott Ambler. You keep inspiring me with your writings and work and almost always add a great laugh. I cant live without laughing.

I recommend their blogs for furhter inspiration and good value.

http://jim.webber.name/

http://www.ibm.com/developerworks/blogs/page/ambler

http://www.handbookofsoftwarearchitecture.com/index.jsp?page=Blog&part=Current


Great sharing
Anna

For real....

Some things are for real and some things are not.

When I stepped out in the hall to watch this huge fantastic rocket I was stunned. Is it really a real one.. ? Has it it been in the air... in the atmosphere and in space and what?

Tonight I was reminded about my last trip to US and Florida and I have great feelings, memories and photos from it.

Japp.. its me, standing in front of Apollo something I dont know if it was 5 or 13... and it actually did not matter that hot day, neither today.

To me it matter the feeling I had when seeing it for the first time. Impressive and fantastic and so much smile in me that day.

As you can see.. its huge and huge and I still think of the take off for this kind of rocket. So much energy and power.

Fantastic. And it is for real.

/ Love A

The donkey and the well

Lovely evening in Copenhagen Nyhavn, the sun in your face, the crowded lovely harbour area and Copenhagen from its best. I had stopped by for some lighter food and a beer with my old old manager since i was in town for a two days meeting.

As I am a very talkative girl and he knows it, he asked me to tell me my story since lately. I did... this was last summer and at that time a lot had happened to me... or lets say, I had gave myself, allowed the life to give me opportunities and challenges to deal with, decisions to make and love to live. As a spoke, I just realized it had been great moments, but also deep sorrows and challenges you would have kind of ... get burned out for.

As I spoke I just could see tears in his eyes and a face that I had never seen before, but since he was not my manger at this time... he did not hold back. At the same time, he smiled and smiled but I think in one way he cried inside.

As I was ready, and it took some time, he asked if he could tell me a story and of course I said yes.

Then he told me the donkey and the well story. Here it is in my version.

Two men passed a well and they heard something barking down there. They looked down and they saw a donkey very far down. The donkey looked at them and his eyes told them .... " take me up from here, I want to live, help me!!! ".

The two men looked at each other, what could they do. Impossible to get the donkey up, no way that they could do that because then they should probably fall down themselves. So... no matter how they should do, the donkey would probably die anyway. Heard but true. The decided to give the donkey at least a quick death so they start to dig from the outside to fill the well with soil and bury the donkey. They digged and digged. And they looked the donkey straight in the eyes as the soil went down... but they saw him all the time... strange. The face came closer and closer. And after even more digging and burying ... the donkey was standing aside them at the top of the well.

The two men looked surprised at each other, what happened?

Smiling, greatful and so full of living energy, standing alive. The eyes of the donkey were happily smiling, " thank you ! and the donkey walked away.

The donkey shook the soil of each time it hit him in the well out and off and ..Alive.

As my Manager had finalized his story, I cried. In silence as I just realized I was the donkey he talked about and I was alive.

I love this story and I have told it to some of my friends that can understand what I am talking about, and the ones who knows that I am full of energy, choose love and happiness and love to live as much as the donkey.

At the moment, now ... I cant shake, damn... I can shake and I just feel the soil coming. I just keep my eyes and my mouth open to breath .. and I am alive.

Celine Dion is on of my favourite singer, This Alive is fantastic in Vegas... It could have been me.. performing and singing... well... I cant sing as good as her but I can dance and my legs look as great as hers in high heels shoes ... :-)

Maybe I go to Vegas, I need a trip... and also buy me another pair of shoes... that might help some .

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=xS2mav63VkI


/Anna

Golden mornings and good days...

Woke up in this lovely apartment, old, cold but warm in a way that is just wonderful. I look into the cityhall clock and just enjoy this old beautiful view and environment.

Went out of bed carefully, trying not to wake up my youngest son, insisting to get some minutes of my own with a coffee and the book I start reading yesterday.

Golden morning, alone with the radio and a cup of coffee in my sofa, just enjoying my own company and it was not to bad.

Finalize the book with tears and laughs in combination.. I am kind of sensitive at the moment.. true.

My son woke up, wondering why I was crying but laughing at the same time... ? Once he will know what I am talking about.. now he just looked at me and hugged me. Lovely...

Went down to the local bakery in the same house as mine, dressed in pyjamis with my coat and a NASA cap, trying not to be recognized... bought some lovely fresh bread... and I did not say a word to the cashier girl to who I normally say some words to... no no,,, this morning, the hotel director did want to be just Anna the girl and mom and not a professional... I dont know if it is poosible in this little town, filled with gossips and talk.... puh.

Breakfast in sofa, a great time with my son who is in seven heaven to be close to me every minute, and of course very close to his cars and trucks as well that was our company in the sofa.

A phonecall... .unexpected, lovely and great.

Out in the lovely cold snowy town, trying to get my 70.s dressed fixed by my old classmate.....
but no... sorry ,,,, you have kind of changed to much to be able to change the dress as much as you like... damn. I like that dress and it had been perfect.

Check in at the hotel, good to be back and see that my staff is doing fine and everything is in order as it should be.

Picked up my mum for some coffee and socialising, great as well.

Check in the very kind guests

Close down for the evening and then back to the apartment.

Tomorrow it is breakfast time here and then back to Stockholm.

This was a good Saturday.... but in one and other ways it could have been better, that is the honest evaluation.


/ A

Happiness and sharing... two lovely words

The other day my lovely girlfriend Gunilla visited me here in the apartment and it was great happiness to welcome her as it was first time and some time since we were together like the real friends we are.

So great to see each other and chit chat about what has happened since last time in September.

Heavy laughs that we have both been very busy in different ways but in one way the same.

She had met the man of her life, got engaged, bought a summerhouse, moved together and made love like a rabbit the whole autumn. I dont know which one we talked most about .. but I can tell that the topic of the evening was kind of fluctuating between teenagers, orgasm and business etc . True...

Two girls sharing is the best therapi ever.. and I can tell we are openspeaken about everything .. and everything. I shared my thoughts, considerations and great happiness of the man I have met ... and she was lucky... she got a glimps of him and a talk during the evening and that was super..

Her comment about the happiness to experience passion at the age of 40 + was crystal clear perfect and fit to both of us. ... and truly, what goes around, comes around...

Her story about partying her a..s off during the weekend in the Swedish Alps was also so super.
I dont doubt a single second about her magnetism on the dancefloor.. making the whole place moving and dancing and just live the enjoy. .. and the good thing is that she is very well aware of it.. and also aware that you dont have to 25 + to be attractive and happy. I love her for her selfconfident and the power of a mature woman which she lives almost every day.


Her stories about the great love to J and there exercises all around the house was of course interesting as well.. and anyone would be jealous... true....and I was reminded about what to accomplish with my man as well...:-) going for the wantings.. how hard can it be..?

Her story about that her love J has something against me is course someting we have to fix...
the problem is that he is so afraidto loose her to me so he kind of protect her from me... well hello..!! he must really overestimate my capability and my intentions for my lovely girlfriend. Is she happy I am of course happy....and I will respect and like him too. no problem at all, and sometimes I think.. if you are so afraid to loose something.. you have probably almost lost it in some ways already.

Strange..... but it is about choices and I hope that we will never spoil this lovely friendship due to some stupid, childish thoughts At least I will do my best to make sure that love conquer it all.. always.

After too many glasses of wine we both kind of fell asleep in the middle of our talk.... satisfied about a great evening and great friendship.

Sharing... has got a new content and meaning this autumn to me and I guess also to a person i truly love. To me sharing is a great positive word always. No matter what you are sharing .. the sharing itself is something that you do together and brings you even closer.

Happiness and sharing is two lovely words and i live them as much as I can and I will never stop.

Love and energy to BP, my lovely children, friends and family around. You deserve it, absolutely whole life.

A

Top models for a day....

What a lovely Monday and start of the week. Today we had requested the best fotographer of Ekero to come and document us for Teamclinic website and it was kind of a nervous but lovely feeling this morning.

To be honest, the expectations were both high in one way and low in another... due to the fact that we are no real models.... ? It can be quiet hard to get some good photos just like that without any practising, feeling comfortable and relaxed.

But hello.. how hard can it be? During some hours we managed to pose and re-dress a couple of times and get some nice shots in different positions, and situations.

You will se more of the great result on teamclinic.se later on.. now we do have a challenge to choose among all houndreds of photos taken.... so mostly.. now when looking at the result... Great.

I am impressed by the result, and it was a great feeling to be a model for one day including heavy laughing and great committment.

One of the success factors was the fotographer of course..., who was a hansom, and I would gladly take him out for a date.

Enjoy our first photo of the day, more to come.

Love and happiness from

A