oboy... i have had some great days here in Stockholm and I truly enjoy it. I have become so relaxed that I feel kind of lazy.. but that is ok, at least it feels good.
Teamclinic will go for 2009 with big steps and very much good energy, and that makes me very happy. I give a 5 for our coming work. Truly and gladly and it means more work in Stockholm and I look forward to it.
Myself will go for a challenging and best year 2009 that is for sure and I start up at 3 of January to gather the information, vision and mission given to set the plan.
If I dont have a clear vision and purpose I will just remain standing on the same place as before and their will be no room for expanding, growing and change. And I need the motivation for a change and future coming.
/ A
Tuesday, December 30, 2008
Wednesday, December 24, 2008
Hero gifts... Guitar Hero Band
So, Christmas Day is over and out. At least for me.. my boys are still awake and play around with maybe the best christmas gift ever. Guitar Hero Band. Well.. I thank myself all evening that I did not hesitate to buy it, even if it was very much to expensive... but, today I just realized it was worth it. The boys were both surprised and so happy about it and we had fun all afternoon and also this evening.
Quiet hard to hang on to the songs but we managed so good together. Some of the songs I sang but mostly I played the guitar and I did it very good. True.....
In the end I got the feeling of being sea sick, that much we played. But it was great fun and we had such a great time together playing, concentrating and laughing.
Another hero is some far away from here but he is anyway present very much and have been during the evening.
Now.. to bed and a long night of sleeping.
God Jul och Gott nytt År.
Anna
Quiet hard to hang on to the songs but we managed so good together. Some of the songs I sang but mostly I played the guitar and I did it very good. True.....
In the end I got the feeling of being sea sick, that much we played. But it was great fun and we had such a great time together playing, concentrating and laughing.
Another hero is some far away from here but he is anyway present very much and have been during the evening.
To me this cristmas is about being together in one way and not to in another. The great thing is that both scenarious are good and will be good in the end.
God Jul och Gott nytt År.
Anna
Tuesday, December 23, 2008
23th of December....a puma in town
I have just had the best 23th December ever. Celebrated in a Mc Donalds restaurant with 3 men who makes me crazy happy in different ways. Just the freedom and spirit in a pure happiness that is the truth and nothing but the truth. Unexpected, simple and as good as the best time ever. How hard can it be.
I just got that lovely feeling again... reminding me about my choices and the pure and honest energy i own.
Share, give and get is strong and right.
Welcome Mr Santa, time for some christmas celebration.
The puma is ready.
Love
A
I just got that lovely feeling again... reminding me about my choices and the pure and honest energy i own.
Share, give and get is strong and right.
Welcome Mr Santa, time for some christmas celebration.
The puma is ready.
Love
A
Monday, December 22, 2008
Merry Christmas
Another Christmas is coming.. just straight into your face and I just shake my head. One more year and I still remember when i wrote last year blog from Christmas and new year.
I was not in happy pappy mood so to say and the reason was kind of a few. Mainly because i should celebrate my first christmas in Stockholm for years, without the children and without going to my father which I normally did when not seing the boys.
Of course I surviced that Christmas, damn good, actually It became one of the best ever. I still remember the happiness and great laugh we shared in the bar in the department store, Gunilla and I with the owner of the bar. We drank champagne and also blueberry glogg and we were tipsy and giggling all day and night long.
Well hello,,, and the walk thrue old city to to a bar and the rest.... yeah... we did our choices and we enjoyed every minute. Even though.... be both shared a strange feeling to not celebrate with the one you love and want to have close.
This year, my children are in place and that gives me some kind of calmness and satisfaction I cant describe. I can be the present mother every minute and just spend love.
The celebration started today here in Stockholm and will continue in Arboga. I look forward to spend some days in the old apartment over there, truly I do.
I will do the Christmas as good as I want to and have energy to do and I have asked my children to do the same.
Time for reflections, time for decision and time for some resting. But also.. time for sharing and love as much as possible. Even to the ones that are to far away... half full glasses have to be enough .. at least for this christmas and some more days.
After new years eve and a few days more I will celebrate and drink the lovely champagne I got today in full glasses. No matter what will be the first strategic initiative for 2009, and no matter the challenges to face . I am ready for a new year, just ready to go out and make it the best year ever.
I love to live.
Merry Christmas and a Happy New Year.
A
I was not in happy pappy mood so to say and the reason was kind of a few. Mainly because i should celebrate my first christmas in Stockholm for years, without the children and without going to my father which I normally did when not seing the boys.
Of course I surviced that Christmas, damn good, actually It became one of the best ever. I still remember the happiness and great laugh we shared in the bar in the department store, Gunilla and I with the owner of the bar. We drank champagne and also blueberry glogg and we were tipsy and giggling all day and night long.
Well hello,,, and the walk thrue old city to to a bar and the rest.... yeah... we did our choices and we enjoyed every minute. Even though.... be both shared a strange feeling to not celebrate with the one you love and want to have close.
This year, my children are in place and that gives me some kind of calmness and satisfaction I cant describe. I can be the present mother every minute and just spend love.
The celebration started today here in Stockholm and will continue in Arboga. I look forward to spend some days in the old apartment over there, truly I do.
I will do the Christmas as good as I want to and have energy to do and I have asked my children to do the same.
Time for reflections, time for decision and time for some resting. But also.. time for sharing and love as much as possible. Even to the ones that are to far away... half full glasses have to be enough .. at least for this christmas and some more days.
After new years eve and a few days more I will celebrate and drink the lovely champagne I got today in full glasses. No matter what will be the first strategic initiative for 2009, and no matter the challenges to face . I am ready for a new year, just ready to go out and make it the best year ever.
I love to live.
Merry Christmas and a Happy New Year.
A
Wednesday, December 17, 2008
Time...
One and a half week since I updated the blog and I guess it is time.
So many things are happening at the moment and I just think what I can write or not.
But truly, since the time out last week things have been more visible and clear to me.
I am even more eager to give myself energy and trust to sort things out, that is what i need, me too.
Luckily it is soon Christmas time and I will keep the hotel closed for some days and some extra days to consider something good.
I had some great meetings in Stockholm yesterday and today which gave me a lot of energy and confident in certain ways.
And I went shopping the first and maybe also the last christmas gifts today...expensive yes, but i hope it will be great fun.
Also time to put the formality problem regarding the restaurant in a koma for a while. Now we need some time to work and mobilize for some other suggestions. Thats life.
TIme for bed. I am dead tired.
Good night
A
So many things are happening at the moment and I just think what I can write or not.
But truly, since the time out last week things have been more visible and clear to me.
I am even more eager to give myself energy and trust to sort things out, that is what i need, me too.
Luckily it is soon Christmas time and I will keep the hotel closed for some days and some extra days to consider something good.
I had some great meetings in Stockholm yesterday and today which gave me a lot of energy and confident in certain ways.
And I went shopping the first and maybe also the last christmas gifts today...expensive yes, but i hope it will be great fun.
Also time to put the formality problem regarding the restaurant in a koma for a while. Now we need some time to work and mobilize for some other suggestions. Thats life.
TIme for bed. I am dead tired.
Good night
A
Friday, December 5, 2008
Friday --- time to cool down..
Went to work in the morning for a shorter meeting to gather the staff and give them trust and energy to continue their great work as done so far without me. Atually they dont need me.... and that is the best record to both them and me.
Have to admit it was kind of swetty to be in the hotel but it felt good to meet everyone.
Further on to my body and soul worker Mervi. Great output and outcome.
Drive to Stockholm for a lunch meeting, great content... great feeling and great is just the word.
Further drive to Stockholm for some business...
And finally, picked up Robin and Linnea for an amusing afternoon at Heron City.
Bowling, playing and eating and finally the movie Madagaskar 2.
What a movie. The translation was excellent and the movie was just wonderful. I laughed as much as the kids and even more. So much love and humour, i just loved it.
I thought of a very lovely special man when I saw the movie and I want to see it again together with him.
The drive home with two tired lovely kids in the backseat, happy and stuffed and they just wanted to be put into bed.
Quickest bed issue for a long time.
A calm Friday and I feel very ok.
Love
Anna
Have to admit it was kind of swetty to be in the hotel but it felt good to meet everyone.
Further on to my body and soul worker Mervi. Great output and outcome.
Drive to Stockholm for a lunch meeting, great content... great feeling and great is just the word.
Further drive to Stockholm for some business...
And finally, picked up Robin and Linnea for an amusing afternoon at Heron City.
Bowling, playing and eating and finally the movie Madagaskar 2.
What a movie. The translation was excellent and the movie was just wonderful. I laughed as much as the kids and even more. So much love and humour, i just loved it.
I thought of a very lovely special man when I saw the movie and I want to see it again together with him.
The drive home with two tired lovely kids in the backseat, happy and stuffed and they just wanted to be put into bed.
Quickest bed issue for a long time.
A calm Friday and I feel very ok.
Love
Anna
Thursday, December 4, 2008
Wake up Anna ... 4th December
did you read about the happy Monday? well at least it lasted for about 20 hours... then.. down .. the happiness.. was kind of far away.
Deep down. Honestly I went down for sleep for 48 hours.. almost. Woke up today... this morning.... punished by the lovely people in the hospital that took care of me.... and reminded me about my blindness.
No one will ever understand me... but when I woke up today at 0530 .... i could open my eyes, smile, move my face and body again and also talk normally. I almost wanted to scream out loud that feeling.
Tuesday night my body was drained of my lifeline and energy... and today thursday morning I felt the Anna nerv was back again. And I promised myself to enjoy it even more from now on.
These days during shitty sad circumstances you realize the truth and prioritizing close to you ..
Hard but true and that is also a good wake up even if my heart goes spinning and hurts badly again.
Back to reality....Some calls today made my day. I could laugh out loud and I felt the lovely happiness again I normally fell and own , thank good...when enjoying my life and the speed of trust. Fuck the sadness Anna, and lets choose the happiness. Absolutely.
4th December will be on my mind for some time.
listen to this song.... A Million Candles burning
I like it and it makes me wanna move my burned body slowly....
guess what version I prefer today?
http://se.youtube.com/watch?v=lyPRwwTxJiI&feature=related slow....
http://se.youtube.com/watch?v=5PS3cn72Lfo&feature=related not so slow...
a beautiful place with power and grace, where the sun never sets The cities of hope with people that cold A vision is born
(Chorus)
A million candles burning From now you are never alone 'cause people's minds are turning From now a conscious mind
With fire and flame, water and rain She calls out for help We lived and we learned this love got burned It's over and out
(Chorus) A million candles burning From now you are never alone 'cause people's minds are turning From now you are never alone
Now the tide is turning From now you are never alone 'cause people's minds are turning From now
Today we turn the page A change from deep inside
Tonight we celebrate the beauty and the power of this turn
Tonight
(Chorus) A million candles burning From now you are never alone 'cause people's minds are turning From now you are never alone Now the tide is turning From now you are never alone 'cause people's mind are turning
From now Today we can change Tomorrow's too late From now a conscious mind
Everyone knows Where we must go From now a conscious mind
Deep down. Honestly I went down for sleep for 48 hours.. almost. Woke up today... this morning.... punished by the lovely people in the hospital that took care of me.... and reminded me about my blindness.
No one will ever understand me... but when I woke up today at 0530 .... i could open my eyes, smile, move my face and body again and also talk normally. I almost wanted to scream out loud that feeling.
Tuesday night my body was drained of my lifeline and energy... and today thursday morning I felt the Anna nerv was back again. And I promised myself to enjoy it even more from now on.
These days during shitty sad circumstances you realize the truth and prioritizing close to you ..
Hard but true and that is also a good wake up even if my heart goes spinning and hurts badly again.
Back to reality....Some calls today made my day. I could laugh out loud and I felt the lovely happiness again I normally fell and own , thank good...when enjoying my life and the speed of trust. Fuck the sadness Anna, and lets choose the happiness. Absolutely.
4th December will be on my mind for some time.
listen to this song.... A Million Candles burning
I like it and it makes me wanna move my burned body slowly....
guess what version I prefer today?
http://se.youtube.com/watch?v=lyPRwwTxJiI&feature=related slow....
http://se.youtube.com/watch?v=5PS3cn72Lfo&feature=related not so slow...
a beautiful place with power and grace, where the sun never sets The cities of hope with people that cold A vision is born
(Chorus)
A million candles burning From now you are never alone 'cause people's minds are turning From now a conscious mind
With fire and flame, water and rain She calls out for help We lived and we learned this love got burned It's over and out
(Chorus) A million candles burning From now you are never alone 'cause people's minds are turning From now you are never alone
Now the tide is turning From now you are never alone 'cause people's minds are turning From now
Today we turn the page A change from deep inside
Tonight we celebrate the beauty and the power of this turn
Tonight
(Chorus) A million candles burning From now you are never alone 'cause people's minds are turning From now you are never alone Now the tide is turning From now you are never alone 'cause people's mind are turning
From now Today we can change Tomorrow's too late From now a conscious mind
Everyone knows Where we must go From now a conscious mind
Monday, December 1, 2008
Happy Monday....
Yesterday evening was a nightmare in some minds and the night of happiness as well in other minds.
This morning was some hard to get up early to make the breakfast .. puh. After a minor party I was dead tired, snoring like an idiot and still up and running at 0515. The rule and regulation to never go to work with a hangover was just flewing away in the river of Arboga.
Luckily I had the time for massage this morning and it did great to my back and body. So great that I cried almost all day in silence.. and maybe some visible to.
Unbelievable, today I can tell you that all the guests at the hotel have been so friendly and kind that I was just overwelmed. DId they see or did they just guessed that something was going on with the young hotel director today? I know.. i probably looked like a ghost today... the hair just unfixed like a wilder... and black dark eyes with a long distance to the very bottom.
At least... I felt I was very greatful about this Monday in the end. .. up .
I wished I had a watch that could cheer me up with some pokals if I have been a good girl and doing my homework according to my pulse and heartbeat.
Goodnight
Anna
This morning was some hard to get up early to make the breakfast .. puh. After a minor party I was dead tired, snoring like an idiot and still up and running at 0515. The rule and regulation to never go to work with a hangover was just flewing away in the river of Arboga.
Luckily I had the time for massage this morning and it did great to my back and body. So great that I cried almost all day in silence.. and maybe some visible to.
Unbelievable, today I can tell you that all the guests at the hotel have been so friendly and kind that I was just overwelmed. DId they see or did they just guessed that something was going on with the young hotel director today? I know.. i probably looked like a ghost today... the hair just unfixed like a wilder... and black dark eyes with a long distance to the very bottom.
At least... I felt I was very greatful about this Monday in the end. .. up .
Nothing else is expected .
I wished I had a watch that could cheer me up with some pokals if I have been a good girl and doing my homework according to my pulse and heartbeat.
Goodnight
Anna
Saturday, November 29, 2008
Positive energy.....
hey... thanks for your comments to me here on the blog... sorry I cant publish them.. they are to kind and very much in person so... I will comment the comments in this way......
some of you are worried about me... and ask me to bring out the positive and energetic Anna into the blog again. You think i have become to deep and kind of burned out and betrayed and a lot of other analyzes that are more closer to the reality then you can ever imagine....
Hmm..... i guess you are right in some ways...
Burned out.. ? well not yet.. but maybe some close to.. still very hot though.....
Betrayed.... hm.... i dont even want to translate the word and meaning..so.. I guess I am or.. who am I betraying...?
Positive Anna.. where is she?.... fyi.. she is very much here... and if it was not due to my positive mindset I would have been down for a long time .
Energy.?? Its still there, overfloating and mostly to much.. but that is very good.
Lovelife?.. "get out of there", "go for it", "take care", "you are an idiot " ( thanks), "you are so lovely so dont go for the second best " ( thanks again) and a lot more comments regarding my lovelife... thanks for your advices... they are all very valuable but maybe not applicable, love makes you blind
I will do my best, keep up the speed, focus on energy, happiness and love that makes me living a lovely life and make sure you will not get bored here on the blog,
I dont want to miss a day of the future.
Love all over
Anna
some of you are worried about me... and ask me to bring out the positive and energetic Anna into the blog again. You think i have become to deep and kind of burned out and betrayed and a lot of other analyzes that are more closer to the reality then you can ever imagine....
Hmm..... i guess you are right in some ways...
Burned out.. ? well not yet.. but maybe some close to.. still very hot though.....
Betrayed.... hm.... i dont even want to translate the word and meaning..so.. I guess I am or.. who am I betraying...?
Positive Anna.. where is she?.... fyi.. she is very much here... and if it was not due to my positive mindset I would have been down for a long time .
Energy.?? Its still there, overfloating and mostly to much.. but that is very good.
Lovelife?.. "get out of there", "go for it", "take care", "you are an idiot " ( thanks), "you are so lovely so dont go for the second best " ( thanks again) and a lot more comments regarding my lovelife... thanks for your advices... they are all very valuable but maybe not applicable, love makes you blind
I will do my best, keep up the speed, focus on energy, happiness and love that makes me living a lovely life and make sure you will not get bored here on the blog,
I dont want to miss a day of the future.
Love all over
Anna
Advices..
Do you listen to advices, or more specific... do you ask for advices?
I guess we all do more or less, some never admit that they do... they keep on thinking that its not necessarey. What we are doing with the advices that is another story.
Me for example used to ask my father for advices and then I did the total opposite of what he said. I think he knew that and challenged me even more. He never judged me for the things I did,, just added the question.. are you sure that this is what you want? ... as I nodded and said yes... he just told me to go for it.
I have never regret any of my choices so far... (well... some I guess I should have regret...). but they are so few so I refuse to even think of them as regrets... they are my golden experiences.
At the moment I just realizd I should have asked for advices regarding some things as they seems to be given me a very hard time at the moment ... but on the other hand, I see these challenges as gifts and I just have to sort them out.
When you least expect it, someone is there to support and guide you in the most unexpecting way and I should be greatful.
Not so greatful are the persons that actually ask for advices but never wants them... they just state them but will never listen and dont care.
Kind of sad is it to think that someone will give you all the answers you want... and kind of go for insurance in some else advices ...and think that you dont have to be responsible of your own things you want and do .. its a more easy pick to hear and hide behind someone else then your own minds and wantings.
The one above is quiet direct and hard but very true and common.
In hard times its proven who are your friends and who will still stand close even if its stormy weather.
I might be a bit naiv and to generous sometimes.. but on the otherhand, I truly cant put violence to my personality and my values.
At least I have to watch out as I know there are some left to be taken care of.
Thanks for reminding me.
A
I guess we all do more or less, some never admit that they do... they keep on thinking that its not necessarey. What we are doing with the advices that is another story.
Me for example used to ask my father for advices and then I did the total opposite of what he said. I think he knew that and challenged me even more. He never judged me for the things I did,, just added the question.. are you sure that this is what you want? ... as I nodded and said yes... he just told me to go for it.
I have never regret any of my choices so far... (well... some I guess I should have regret...). but they are so few so I refuse to even think of them as regrets... they are my golden experiences.
At the moment I just realizd I should have asked for advices regarding some things as they seems to be given me a very hard time at the moment ... but on the other hand, I see these challenges as gifts and I just have to sort them out.
When you least expect it, someone is there to support and guide you in the most unexpecting way and I should be greatful.
Not so greatful are the persons that actually ask for advices but never wants them... they just state them but will never listen and dont care.
Kind of sad is it to think that someone will give you all the answers you want... and kind of go for insurance in some else advices ...and think that you dont have to be responsible of your own things you want and do .. its a more easy pick to hear and hide behind someone else then your own minds and wantings.
The one above is quiet direct and hard but very true and common.
In hard times its proven who are your friends and who will still stand close even if its stormy weather.
I might be a bit naiv and to generous sometimes.. but on the otherhand, I truly cant put violence to my personality and my values.
At least I have to watch out as I know there are some left to be taken care of.
Thanks for reminding me.
A
Wednesday, November 26, 2008
Out of the box...
I like the expression " think out of the box " very much and have the last few years tried to live that value. Yes, to me it has become a value and it is very much valuable.
Today I was happy reminded about it as I had the pleasure to meet Andreas Palme at FRS Architects and a lovely female Architect I cant remember her name.
Part of my plans are to kind of shape up the Hotel in one or many ways, or lets say in the best way.
The workshop today was very much out of the box related to new way of thinking regarding my plans for the hotel and how to make the best changes and improvements to achieve the goals.
So great to work with people that are creative and very much open to new and exiting solutions from top to bottom. No limits at a first sight and that is very clever.. and here is the "out of the box" skill s very much visible. Luckily I have managed to understand that meaning some years ago and it was so great to think of it today in the meeting.
Second meeting will soon take place regarding this and to be honest I cant wait.
Feels great to make some changes that will really make sense and give the new feeling even more in the hotel.
But truly madly ... at the moment... my minds are everywhere but in the hotel ... I am totally out of the box but at the same time very much in the box and I dont know how to neither open it or close it. I guess that is called out of mind and that... is a value that does not fit into me at all.
Cheers
A
Today I was happy reminded about it as I had the pleasure to meet Andreas Palme at FRS Architects and a lovely female Architect I cant remember her name.
Part of my plans are to kind of shape up the Hotel in one or many ways, or lets say in the best way.
The workshop today was very much out of the box related to new way of thinking regarding my plans for the hotel and how to make the best changes and improvements to achieve the goals.
So great to work with people that are creative and very much open to new and exiting solutions from top to bottom. No limits at a first sight and that is very clever.. and here is the "out of the box" skill s very much visible. Luckily I have managed to understand that meaning some years ago and it was so great to think of it today in the meeting.
Second meeting will soon take place regarding this and to be honest I cant wait.
Feels great to make some changes that will really make sense and give the new feeling even more in the hotel.
But truly madly ... at the moment... my minds are everywhere but in the hotel ... I am totally out of the box but at the same time very much in the box and I dont know how to neither open it or close it. I guess that is called out of mind and that... is a value that does not fit into me at all.
Cheers
A
Sunday, November 23, 2008
Time for reflections - The winner takes it all
Sunday evening in Stockholm and it is both cold, windy and some snowy. Growy. Sweden is truly dark, cold and lovely in November. Not strange that people get depressed by the dark up here in northen part of Scandinavia.
I am a lucky bastard, the darkness does neither affect me badly or sadly and mostly I like the dark hours , and love a fire and candles as an adding. I can guarantee that there are a lot of candles in my home at the moment, and most of them smell. Nice.
Time for reflections. Well.. I guess it is. It is always room and time for reflections, not only when you come to a critical happening and make it then and there. I prefer to reflect every now and then and also take the opportunity to celebrate the reflections.
But Is it always something to celebrate is your question? To me, it is. Maybe not the content itself.. but the reflection to be honest with yourself and the things you deal with. Its brave, its honest its pure and mostly very valuable.
This weekend was such a weekend when i had the time for some reflections. I got some unexpedted help from some old friends to just look back and also forward what has happened lately and what is coming. Amazing to hear myself tell everything what is going on... gosh.
Conclusions and summary... hard to be really open here but i will give it a cryptic try...
Happiness ... i have said it before, i choose happiness even during hard times, but.. it is ok to have a smaller breakdown every now and then if it is controlled. The hard thing is to have it alone.
Love conquers it all ?! .... and the winner takes it all?! , is that the true. If you are part of a game, make sure you adopt to the rules and not make to much violent of your values during the way when you are running ..... Easy?? not even for a super woman like me :-) ... i have just realized I am quiet normal in many ways but extraordinary in others.
Partnership can be great, successful and fun if it works--- but also, jealousy, hard words and fights.. My advice , Finalize it quickly and make the pain as quick as possible. Thank goodness for keeping myself cool during two challenging weeks in October.
Networking is valuable in all dimensions.. you never know when you need somone for something and they might be very close if you have great connection... thanks BP for sharing your connections to me, I will take care of it and make my best to feel like a winner in this very long formal stupid story. In one way I already do feel like a winner and I cant tell why. I just need to fix this. There is no other way.
Time for the last reflection...
I am dead tired and tonight I can just put myself down to bed without no preparing for tomorrow, alarms or anything else as a must.
Tomorrow is the day for prooving.... the speed of trust.
Love
A
I am a lucky bastard, the darkness does neither affect me badly or sadly and mostly I like the dark hours , and love a fire and candles as an adding. I can guarantee that there are a lot of candles in my home at the moment, and most of them smell. Nice.
Time for reflections. Well.. I guess it is. It is always room and time for reflections, not only when you come to a critical happening and make it then and there. I prefer to reflect every now and then and also take the opportunity to celebrate the reflections.
But Is it always something to celebrate is your question? To me, it is. Maybe not the content itself.. but the reflection to be honest with yourself and the things you deal with. Its brave, its honest its pure and mostly very valuable.
This weekend was such a weekend when i had the time for some reflections. I got some unexpedted help from some old friends to just look back and also forward what has happened lately and what is coming. Amazing to hear myself tell everything what is going on... gosh.
Conclusions and summary... hard to be really open here but i will give it a cryptic try...
Happiness ... i have said it before, i choose happiness even during hard times, but.. it is ok to have a smaller breakdown every now and then if it is controlled. The hard thing is to have it alone.
Love conquers it all ?! .... and the winner takes it all?! , is that the true. If you are part of a game, make sure you adopt to the rules and not make to much violent of your values during the way when you are running ..... Easy?? not even for a super woman like me :-) ... i have just realized I am quiet normal in many ways but extraordinary in others.
Partnership can be great, successful and fun if it works--- but also, jealousy, hard words and fights.. My advice , Finalize it quickly and make the pain as quick as possible. Thank goodness for keeping myself cool during two challenging weeks in October.
Networking is valuable in all dimensions.. you never know when you need somone for something and they might be very close if you have great connection... thanks BP for sharing your connections to me, I will take care of it and make my best to feel like a winner in this very long formal stupid story. In one way I already do feel like a winner and I cant tell why. I just need to fix this. There is no other way.
Time for the last reflection...
I am dead tired and tonight I can just put myself down to bed without no preparing for tomorrow, alarms or anything else as a must.
Tomorrow is the day for prooving.... the speed of trust.
Love
A
Friday, November 21, 2008
What a week.....
I sit here at the kitchen table just reflecting about the last weekdays and I can just shake my head. A mix of happiness, sorrows and challenges I could not dream about. And still I am standing.. amazing.
Great start with TeamClinic and a meeting with Annika. So great energy from her. I look forward to work together as soon as possible.
Funny meeting at B&E Production and ordered some working clothes for the hotel and the restaurant. These two lovely men gave me some words and good advices on the way regarding my choices and truly... I still have them on my mind. Luckily they manage to sell a lot of stuff to me and yes, they are good salesmen.
Birthday party at my sisters house. Calm and nice and yes.. it was actually a nice time spent there. I got the rumour and talk of the town for today as well .. and it is not always so good to hear gossips when it comes back to yourself. Hmm.... this is a little city, I have to get used to that.
Work in the hotel, yes there are a lot of guests visiting us and yes. it is great fun but a ot of work.
I have managed to hire so great girls her to the hotel staff but also a young man, and they are all very loyal and working hard. Well done Anna !!
I have also managed to fuck up some formality here and I hope i will survive, it is kind of energy sucking in many ways.
I also got a fantastic pay-back today in a bad way from a person that is really unhappy at the moment. Sad for her. I will survive this and I will be successful no matter. I just get sad for her behaviour.
Finally.. but mostly ... the energy during this week have been wonderful all the time since I have had my bf here and it makes me great super.
Time for weekend which is nice, but at the moment weekends turn out to be long and focused on the thoughts I dont have rather then the ones I have.
I am a lucky bastard.
Cheers and happy weekend.
A
Great start with TeamClinic and a meeting with Annika. So great energy from her. I look forward to work together as soon as possible.
Funny meeting at B&E Production and ordered some working clothes for the hotel and the restaurant. These two lovely men gave me some words and good advices on the way regarding my choices and truly... I still have them on my mind. Luckily they manage to sell a lot of stuff to me and yes, they are good salesmen.
Birthday party at my sisters house. Calm and nice and yes.. it was actually a nice time spent there. I got the rumour and talk of the town for today as well .. and it is not always so good to hear gossips when it comes back to yourself. Hmm.... this is a little city, I have to get used to that.
Work in the hotel, yes there are a lot of guests visiting us and yes. it is great fun but a ot of work.
I have managed to hire so great girls her to the hotel staff but also a young man, and they are all very loyal and working hard. Well done Anna !!
I have also managed to fuck up some formality here and I hope i will survive, it is kind of energy sucking in many ways.
I also got a fantastic pay-back today in a bad way from a person that is really unhappy at the moment. Sad for her. I will survive this and I will be successful no matter. I just get sad for her behaviour.
Finally.. but mostly ... the energy during this week have been wonderful all the time since I have had my bf here and it makes me great super.
Time for weekend which is nice, but at the moment weekends turn out to be long and focused on the thoughts I dont have rather then the ones I have.
I am a lucky bastard.
Cheers and happy weekend.
A
Saturday, November 15, 2008
Home... where is it
Today I made two persons happy, but mostly one..... My son Robin, who went to see his little friend Emil for a birthday party in Stockholm. He did not even bother about the drive of 1,5 hours to get there and another 1.5 to get home. If there is enough motivation... you can do anything... for sure.
A quick stop at the Toy Store for a gift and a dress for him. No testing.. executing direct at the party, and that was not a good thing to do as it never is to test live before going live.
Luckily .. his friends mother handled the situation and dressed him up as a cat instead of Batman.. and at the end of the day.. he was in a super mood.
Second person I made happy was myself. Stepped into my apartment in Stockholm and it felt so damn good. Almost all empty and echoing but the apartment is back to the shape as from beginning 3 years ago.
I did some very small fixing and I felt already very good and at home and very comfortable.
So back to the question.. where is my home at the moment ?
I dont think to much about it but or do I? I think very often that I am very priviliged as I can have to great apartments in two lovely areas. On the other hand... i very much live in a suitcase and go between the places every second week without any complaints or sorrows.
I guess I am at home were I feel safe and where I am together with my nearest and dearest and also were I keep some of my belongings.
I am not a thingy person, which means I dont care to much about Things in one way.. but of course I need some things to feel good.
On the third hand.. I can feel very much at home in a car, in a situation or wherever I am .. it is just about my confident and mood of the situation.
Why I am writing about this? Maybe because I just wondered and did some reflections in the car back home to the hotel.... that is very much my home during the weeks.. but not a home in another way...
A
A quick stop at the Toy Store for a gift and a dress for him. No testing.. executing direct at the party, and that was not a good thing to do as it never is to test live before going live.
Luckily .. his friends mother handled the situation and dressed him up as a cat instead of Batman.. and at the end of the day.. he was in a super mood.
Second person I made happy was myself. Stepped into my apartment in Stockholm and it felt so damn good. Almost all empty and echoing but the apartment is back to the shape as from beginning 3 years ago.
I did some very small fixing and I felt already very good and at home and very comfortable.
So back to the question.. where is my home at the moment ?
I dont think to much about it but or do I? I think very often that I am very priviliged as I can have to great apartments in two lovely areas. On the other hand... i very much live in a suitcase and go between the places every second week without any complaints or sorrows.
I guess I am at home were I feel safe and where I am together with my nearest and dearest and also were I keep some of my belongings.
I am not a thingy person, which means I dont care to much about Things in one way.. but of course I need some things to feel good.
On the third hand.. I can feel very much at home in a car, in a situation or wherever I am .. it is just about my confident and mood of the situation.
Why I am writing about this? Maybe because I just wondered and did some reflections in the car back home to the hotel.... that is very much my home during the weeks.. but not a home in another way...
A
Monday, November 10, 2008
100%
Some Mondays are more challenging then others .. or lets say are more nervouslike..
Final day for the partnership in the hotel and I was kind of nervous but anyway determind and secure about the outcome. Inside crazy happy, outside.... hard, nervous and stiff
The physical meeting between 4 eyes.. or lets say..... no eyes.. only talk... lasted for 10 minutes.
The formal meeting lasted for 15 minutes.
Over and out. Done ready. 100%..... freedom, responsibility, but mostly choose the right energy.
A small hug and good -bye, of course initiated by me.
Walk back to the hotel and ...
Then.. the feelings and tears just came floating all the way back to the hotel.. My happiness went into some sadness I cant understand. But maybe I can.
A panic call to the person I wanted mostly in this moment and the one I trust must of all, made me some more controlled but no...
My employee just stared at me when rushing into the doors and back to my room.
I wish I could have saved her that scienery but what to do.... At least, it was visible that I am made of flesh and blood as well..
Some fixing and fixing, stop snoring and tearing and ready steady again.. up and go. No time for sorrows .... Damn.
I should have open the bubble bottle .. that is what i wanted to in the morning.. but then.. no no. So wrong but so right.
Out driving for some shopping with my mother in the afternoon.... and she was actually kind of good to me this day. In her mother way. Good choice.
So... the celebration just took some smaller break today... I will do it tomorrow and then I have something else as well to celebrate.
Always bubbles in the glasses.. choose happiness and go for the things you want.
Yes .. i will. I did today. 100. And always.
Love A
Final day for the partnership in the hotel and I was kind of nervous but anyway determind and secure about the outcome. Inside crazy happy, outside.... hard, nervous and stiff
The physical meeting between 4 eyes.. or lets say..... no eyes.. only talk... lasted for 10 minutes.
The formal meeting lasted for 15 minutes.
Over and out. Done ready. 100%..... freedom, responsibility, but mostly choose the right energy.
A small hug and good -bye, of course initiated by me.
Walk back to the hotel and ...
Then.. the feelings and tears just came floating all the way back to the hotel.. My happiness went into some sadness I cant understand. But maybe I can.
A panic call to the person I wanted mostly in this moment and the one I trust must of all, made me some more controlled but no...
My employee just stared at me when rushing into the doors and back to my room.
I wish I could have saved her that scienery but what to do.... At least, it was visible that I am made of flesh and blood as well..
Some fixing and fixing, stop snoring and tearing and ready steady again.. up and go. No time for sorrows .... Damn.
I should have open the bubble bottle .. that is what i wanted to in the morning.. but then.. no no. So wrong but so right.
Out driving for some shopping with my mother in the afternoon.... and she was actually kind of good to me this day. In her mother way. Good choice.
So... the celebration just took some smaller break today... I will do it tomorrow and then I have something else as well to celebrate.
Always bubbles in the glasses.. choose happiness and go for the things you want.
Yes .. i will. I did today. 100. And always.
Love A
Saturday, November 8, 2008
Restaurant Bakfickan.......
I have not talked to much abou the restaurant in my business have I? No. I have not. I have just mentioned it and of course I have to tell you some of the progress and ongoings.
Now we have been open for 4 weeks and people starts finding us. Some heavy advertising lately and also some good offers have been one of the reasons, but mostly.... the best reason, people are start talking about it.
Our ambition is to keep this restaurant out of the worst drunky skunky people in this town which means that we mostly hope for an audience from 35 and up.
No discrimination here... but honest... we focus on good food in a good nice environment, well then we have to hold on to that one.
First weeks were not to busy and the mood was kind of on the lower level... second some better.... third..... starting. .. and now.. 4th week and we are paid for our patience.
It feels great that Gustav and Mats are working so damn good together and make their best effort to succeed. But also... my own contribution to this. I have to admit, I want to be in some behind when it comes to the restaurant. I want to give my blessing and step by for an exclusive hello to the guests every now and then.... that feels great.
But but.... as you understand, small business, small amount of staff so.. yes I have worked hard there during the fridays ... I have been the master of the dish machine and taking care of the left overs... Well... It has been both fun and motivating, believe it or not. The reason? Well it is worthwile work truly. If we dont dish,,, you can just imagine.
And of course it is great fun to work with people you like... Not to forget.... I got some help some of the evenings and it has been super to share, laugh and gather around something we want to work and be successful. And hancy fancy mature sexy bartender, believe me, you cant count them on trees here..... so... the guests should be very greatful., I am.
Btw... here is the logo for the restaurant. Feel inspired and welcome to the table.
Love and blessings on a Saturday like this. Tomorrow is Fathers day... and yes, I will celebrate as well even if he is very far away but close in another.
A
Now we have been open for 4 weeks and people starts finding us. Some heavy advertising lately and also some good offers have been one of the reasons, but mostly.... the best reason, people are start talking about it.
Our ambition is to keep this restaurant out of the worst drunky skunky people in this town which means that we mostly hope for an audience from 35 and up.
No discrimination here... but honest... we focus on good food in a good nice environment, well then we have to hold on to that one.
First weeks were not to busy and the mood was kind of on the lower level... second some better.... third..... starting. .. and now.. 4th week and we are paid for our patience.
It feels great that Gustav and Mats are working so damn good together and make their best effort to succeed. But also... my own contribution to this. I have to admit, I want to be in some behind when it comes to the restaurant. I want to give my blessing and step by for an exclusive hello to the guests every now and then.... that feels great.
But but.... as you understand, small business, small amount of staff so.. yes I have worked hard there during the fridays ... I have been the master of the dish machine and taking care of the left overs... Well... It has been both fun and motivating, believe it or not. The reason? Well it is worthwile work truly. If we dont dish,,, you can just imagine.
And of course it is great fun to work with people you like... Not to forget.... I got some help some of the evenings and it has been super to share, laugh and gather around something we want to work and be successful. And hancy fancy mature sexy bartender, believe me, you cant count them on trees here..... so... the guests should be very greatful., I am.
Btw... here is the logo for the restaurant. Feel inspired and welcome to the table.
Love and blessings on a Saturday like this. Tomorrow is Fathers day... and yes, I will celebrate as well even if he is very far away but close in another.
A
Friday, November 7, 2008
Happy birthday Jelle ,,,, to late but anyway
So, I got the phonecall I got crazy onmyself for . One of my friend called me and asked me if I had missed something and .... no.... what .?.. and YES, damn... Yes... I had forgotten to call him on his 4oth birthday and It really was kind of sad not remembering it.
Damn to busy with the training and other stuff... it is kind of just to much if I start forgetting my friends and this kind of things, I am so sorry. It is important. Friends are more important then you can ever imagine, at least to me nowadays.
So.. here we go,... on the web... congratulations Jelle DeV.!!! 40 beauty years and I wish you all the best. It was great to here about the arrangements made for you, and you deserve that.
Look forward to congraulate you soon again to the little baby and the marriage. I will take my bf and come down for a visit and i promise we will celebrate.
Take care of your family and enjoy your 40s.
Best regards from
Anna and family
Damn to busy with the training and other stuff... it is kind of just to much if I start forgetting my friends and this kind of things, I am so sorry. It is important. Friends are more important then you can ever imagine, at least to me nowadays.
So.. here we go,... on the web... congratulations Jelle DeV.!!! 40 beauty years and I wish you all the best. It was great to here about the arrangements made for you, and you deserve that.
Look forward to congraulate you soon again to the little baby and the marriage. I will take my bf and come down for a visit and i promise we will celebrate.
Take care of your family and enjoy your 40s.
Best regards from
Anna and family
Energy...... bubbles all the way
Last couple of days and weeks I have managed to use my energy when best needed.
I have a deeper energy and happiness that kind of make me surviving most of the challenges I meet.... not all.. but most of them.
My partner has decided to quit due to different reasons but the it was a fact, after 2 months of partnership.
I have not cried one single tear because of this and i will not do that. No reason and waist of energy. I turned it around and all of a sudden it is an opportunity.
Thank good, I am trustworty and also some creditworthy which make this thing possible. And the innovasion nerv not to talk about. Sometimes I surprise myself by being best when needed.
On the other hand, I am some surprised I have not spinned around, jumped and got so nervous about this insecureness that will occur to me and my family probably... but on the other hand not. I am still making up my daily work as I want to.
But i feel safe, comfortable and strong. No doubt.
Today... I made a scream of happiness hear that probably was heard all over Arboga.
Today... I also made the examine of the training of alcoholic law studies... good bless me for beeing certified...
Today I went for some massage and healing as well ... I deserved it and it was kind of needed to be layed down for some time and just relax... and the stories told in between... yes.. they will be my best future.
Now... time for some dish washing work in the restaurant Bakfickan ( back pocket) ....
I deserve that happines too... to share and support Mats and Gustav in their ambition and work to make a great restaurant.
Happy Friday.... and cheers..
Half full glass of bubbles and that is not to bad..
Hugs
A
I have a deeper energy and happiness that kind of make me surviving most of the challenges I meet.... not all.. but most of them.
My partner has decided to quit due to different reasons but the it was a fact, after 2 months of partnership.
I have not cried one single tear because of this and i will not do that. No reason and waist of energy. I turned it around and all of a sudden it is an opportunity.
Thank good, I am trustworty and also some creditworthy which make this thing possible. And the innovasion nerv not to talk about. Sometimes I surprise myself by being best when needed.
On the other hand, I am some surprised I have not spinned around, jumped and got so nervous about this insecureness that will occur to me and my family probably... but on the other hand not. I am still making up my daily work as I want to.
But i feel safe, comfortable and strong. No doubt.
Today... I made a scream of happiness hear that probably was heard all over Arboga.
Today... I also made the examine of the training of alcoholic law studies... good bless me for beeing certified...
Today I went for some massage and healing as well ... I deserved it and it was kind of needed to be layed down for some time and just relax... and the stories told in between... yes.. they will be my best future.
Now... time for some dish washing work in the restaurant Bakfickan ( back pocket) ....
I deserve that happines too... to share and support Mats and Gustav in their ambition and work to make a great restaurant.
Happy Friday.... and cheers..
Half full glass of bubbles and that is not to bad..
Hugs
A
Sunday, November 2, 2008
Saturday, November 1, 2008
Trick or treat....
This is the evening when you gladly visit your dearest with candles and minds for connection.
It does not matter that they cant answer your questions... I just wish they could...
It does not matter that they are very calm and cold... I give some of my energy
it does not matter that they are very far away... still very close in another...
Missing is kind of hard... but can also be positive ... its all about what to choose.......
Trick or treat ... that is the question....
A
It does not matter that they cant answer your questions... I just wish they could...
It does not matter that they are very calm and cold... I give some of my energy
it does not matter that they are very far away... still very close in another...
Missing is kind of hard... but can also be positive ... its all about what to choose.......
Trick or treat ... that is the question....
A
Du får inte...
this text is faboulus and the meaning ... even better, listen to Sonja Aldén singing in a great way.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=vK3ZiQnXGJ4
Du får inte knacka på min dörr om du inte är beredd och komma in
du får inte göra om mitt namn och börja kalla mig för din.
Du får inte vandra på min väg , utan att visa mig ditt mål
och inte stjäla av min godhet för att fylla upp ditt hål.
Och du får inte riva mina murar som jag omsorgsfullt har byggt
om du inte skyddar mina drömmar så att jag kan somna tryggt.
Och du får inte ha mig som en dröm , när jag vill va' din verklighet
du får inte säga att du hoppas om du inte tror du vet.
Men du får ta den tid du behöver för att förstå vad det är du vill, du får be en bön att tiden du behöver räcker till.
Och du får samla dina tankar så att två själar kan få ro, och så att allting som vi lovade oss själva kan få gro
Och du får inte andas på min panna inte få mig falla mer, om du inte sen kan stå för all den oreda du ger.
Och du får inte röra vid mitt hjärta ,som om allt var uppenbart, när jag önskar inget hellre,Än att du gör allt emot mig snart.
.................................
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=vK3ZiQnXGJ4
Du får inte knacka på min dörr om du inte är beredd och komma in
du får inte göra om mitt namn och börja kalla mig för din.
Du får inte vandra på min väg , utan att visa mig ditt mål
och inte stjäla av min godhet för att fylla upp ditt hål.
Och du får inte riva mina murar som jag omsorgsfullt har byggt
om du inte skyddar mina drömmar så att jag kan somna tryggt.
Och du får inte ha mig som en dröm , när jag vill va' din verklighet
du får inte säga att du hoppas om du inte tror du vet.
Men du får ta den tid du behöver för att förstå vad det är du vill, du får be en bön att tiden du behöver räcker till.
Och du får samla dina tankar så att två själar kan få ro, och så att allting som vi lovade oss själva kan få gro
Och du får inte andas på min panna inte få mig falla mer, om du inte sen kan stå för all den oreda du ger.
Och du får inte röra vid mitt hjärta ,som om allt var uppenbart, när jag önskar inget hellre,Än att du gör allt emot mig snart.
.................................
So lets go for the thing that we want to and will do.
A
Friday, October 31, 2008
Resumé - Mingle in Stockholm - Pelikan
So.. in public...release party at restaurant Pelikan . Annette Kullenbergs new book about Marianne Höök is already a success.Here we are. Mingeling among culture celebrities, journalists and Tv / Radio people.
We did good, we are great and we were faboulus.....:-) enjoying of course......and I can tell that people were as curious about us as we were about them.
who isn´t?
A
Q friday
Grey rainy Fridyas like this can be really depressing. This Friday is something special and is everything but depressing. It turnes out to be a quality Friday.
Morning started in an excellent way and mood and I still benefit from a lovely starter and breakfast now in the evening.
A drive to Arboga in rainy weather but with me as the best driver.... it was a good drive. Accompanied by the music chosen by my son ..well... fastes drive ever and i love to listen to my son, singing all the list music hits in his english way.
Some minor meetings including ordering the winter tire change .....
Picked up my mother for a lunch at A garden, calm and nice an my mother in a good mood... that s good.
Small check up in the hotel... agreement and discussions with the constructors regarding the water damage. Hugs and hellos to the employees...
Back to my apartment, enjoying and relaxing.... gosh... this apartment is one of the loveliest you can have, the location on the middle of the square is so great.
back to hotel for Friday coffee , out driving to order the material for the broken hotelroom...
Then... drive to the neighbour city for som bowling. Robin was really happy and eager about playing and we had a great time. Though... we missed two people in our team at lane no 9.
Back to Arboga, bought some bubbles and food.
Parking in the sofa, listen to the city hall bell and just enjoy the moment.
I feel happy, I feel strong and I just feel very much in love on a grey Friday like this.
/ have a great Friday
Anna
Morning started in an excellent way and mood and I still benefit from a lovely starter and breakfast now in the evening.
A drive to Arboga in rainy weather but with me as the best driver.... it was a good drive. Accompanied by the music chosen by my son ..well... fastes drive ever and i love to listen to my son, singing all the list music hits in his english way.
Some minor meetings including ordering the winter tire change .....
Picked up my mother for a lunch at A garden, calm and nice an my mother in a good mood... that s good.
Small check up in the hotel... agreement and discussions with the constructors regarding the water damage. Hugs and hellos to the employees...
Back to my apartment, enjoying and relaxing.... gosh... this apartment is one of the loveliest you can have, the location on the middle of the square is so great.
back to hotel for Friday coffee , out driving to order the material for the broken hotelroom...
Then... drive to the neighbour city for som bowling. Robin was really happy and eager about playing and we had a great time. Though... we missed two people in our team at lane no 9.
Back to Arboga, bought some bubbles and food.
Parking in the sofa, listen to the city hall bell and just enjoy the moment.
I feel happy, I feel strong and I just feel very much in love on a grey Friday like this.
/ have a great Friday
Anna
Thursday, October 30, 2008
Choices...
Life is in some ways about making choices. Go for them, evaluate them, renew, cancel or just choose different and make new choices. To not choose is kind of a loose -loose situation to me.
The last years I have done many choices and I dont regret any of them. That would be stupid to do and i would very much be hard on myself.. But I have considered my choices and evaluated what made me making the choices i did and sometimes I have managed to surprise myself, mostly good but somtimes also not so very beautiful.
The choice to fight for the hotel business was a great choice, I am proud.
The choice to leave Nordea for something different... another great choice.
The choice to separate a second time with three children was another choice I did and it was a good one, win win to all, and mostly to myself. My sons would never forgive me for staying in a non healthy relationship and I would be the worst role model ever.
The choice to move back to Arboga, a choice that means so much I cant measure it. Just great happiness.
The choice to leave my kids in Stockholm, hard, good, controlled, but also some difficult.... but right, absolutely .....they choose this time as well and will learn to see the half full glass as I do. Its about love.
The choice to help a friend in some trouble regarding financials, scary,, but a friend is a friend, and next time i will need the help. Its about trust and friendship.
The choice to get back to my female minds and female friends for energy and great fun, great choice.
The choice to accept a dinner invitation by someone I did not know at all but just had a great feeling for.... good choice anna . Continue trusting the intuition.
The choice to choose a lovely man and lover for a great exiting future, best choice ever, all in. Jump and scream out loud the love and energy when there.
The choice to open my mouth, speak out loud and tell what I want and need. If I want something I will tell. If I dont.. i will make one of my non good choices ever.
And finally... one of my golden choices .... happiness. Truly, I choose happiness and You choose your own happiness and manage it as well.
Keep on making choices.
Love
Anna
The last years I have done many choices and I dont regret any of them. That would be stupid to do and i would very much be hard on myself.. But I have considered my choices and evaluated what made me making the choices i did and sometimes I have managed to surprise myself, mostly good but somtimes also not so very beautiful.
The choice to fight for the hotel business was a great choice, I am proud.
The choice to leave Nordea for something different... another great choice.
The choice to separate a second time with three children was another choice I did and it was a good one, win win to all, and mostly to myself. My sons would never forgive me for staying in a non healthy relationship and I would be the worst role model ever.
The choice to move back to Arboga, a choice that means so much I cant measure it. Just great happiness.
The choice to leave my kids in Stockholm, hard, good, controlled, but also some difficult.... but right, absolutely .....they choose this time as well and will learn to see the half full glass as I do. Its about love.
The choice to help a friend in some trouble regarding financials, scary,, but a friend is a friend, and next time i will need the help. Its about trust and friendship.
The choice to get back to my female minds and female friends for energy and great fun, great choice.
The choice to accept a dinner invitation by someone I did not know at all but just had a great feeling for.... good choice anna . Continue trusting the intuition.
The choice to choose a lovely man and lover for a great exiting future, best choice ever, all in. Jump and scream out loud the love and energy when there.
The choice to open my mouth, speak out loud and tell what I want and need. If I want something I will tell. If I dont.. i will make one of my non good choices ever.
And finally... one of my golden choices .... happiness. Truly, I choose happiness and You choose your own happiness and manage it as well.
Keep on making choices.
Love
Anna
Tuesday, October 28, 2008
Releaseparty... (ies) from different angels...
Yesterday I participated in a releaseparty of Annette Kullenbergs biografi of Marianne Höök. What an evening. I am very happy for my dear friend Annette, and she deserves it truly.
I will read the book asap .. and I will ask her to sign it when everything has been cooled down.
It was a great evening in many ways. Mostly related to the company with whom i could enjoy every second and just mingle around with. Not to forget the afterparty at the top of the skyline. Holy moses what a lovely sight...... :-).
Have look at Resume.se and you will find something really interesting in there.
You will also see the celebreties joining and that was great fun.
The final release party was kind of more unexpected and not so perfect...
This moring and evening there have been a smaller Spa in the hotel lobby due to some problem witht the pipes. Help me truly to get the strength for this as well.
Hello... how hard can it be really?
Love A
I will read the book asap .. and I will ask her to sign it when everything has been cooled down.
It was a great evening in many ways. Mostly related to the company with whom i could enjoy every second and just mingle around with. Not to forget the afterparty at the top of the skyline. Holy moses what a lovely sight...... :-).
Have look at Resume.se and you will find something really interesting in there.
You will also see the celebreties joining and that was great fun.
The final release party was kind of more unexpected and not so perfect...
This moring and evening there have been a smaller Spa in the hotel lobby due to some problem witht the pipes. Help me truly to get the strength for this as well.
Hello... how hard can it be really?
Love A
Tuesday, October 21, 2008
RAD race original-- 48 hours to go..
I experienced my first original RAD race in Hasselt Belgium this last weekend and I will truly recommend it to other countries, companies and also individuals. I will do my very best to inspire the Swedish IT industry with this kind of event.
Be inspired by the skilled developers in the competition.
http://www.radrace.org/en/index.html#
Ivan Verbourg the inventor and master of the RAD race is absolutely outstanding in his way of dealing with the whole event and all the people included.
I am very happy to have been invited to attend this event. It was great value and inspiration but also motivation to do something really good here in Sweden.
Be inspired by the skilled developers in the competition.
http://www.radrace.org/en/index.html#
Ivan Verbourg the inventor and master of the RAD race is absolutely outstanding in his way of dealing with the whole event and all the people included.
I am very happy to have been invited to attend this event. It was great value and inspiration but also motivation to do something really good here in Sweden.
Sunday, October 19, 2008
The Professor
Back in Sweden and back in Arboga again. Feels good but in one way not so very good. I have had some great days "on the road" in Holland and Belgien and it feels strange . I just did not want to step of the road. Never
It has been an exiting trip in so many lovely ways. Golden moments meeting people that have given memories to laugh at but also so consider some seriousity.
I met som professors during this trip and I just want to give them all an A ... i think they are all in different skills.
Ivan V, his professionalism and energy is world class and not to forget his hospitality, deserves a big black hat for that.
The jury members of the RAD race, the professors from different Universities were so kind of groovy. These old men still so much energy and IT skills and out of the box thinking, that was so great to experience. And curiosity of learning new things still. They could easily relax and live on their old successes but no no.... they were just so no professor as I could ever imagine. I will link the photos to the RAD race and you will also see the guys.
The exchange student from Rwanda, invited by the Belgien government who was an external visitor at the RAD race, same as me, was a very soft an lovely girl in her youngest and best ages, so hungry and also very controlled in her ambition and the coming two years. Truly good luck, you will be something girl.
The bartender/owner Robert who never hesitated one minute when I asked for Leffe blond glasses to bring home. .. no doubt we went back three nights for just experience the bar atmosphere but also bring some profit to their business. Ihope his "Björn Borg" wife kiss him goodnight every night as the Hasselt Leffe blond professor.
The truckdriver...a drunk, happy but anyway sad guy, who shook us some by not being able to deal with to much happiness. As much as our glasses were half full... his glass was kind of over full... all the time and it was not flowing with win - win and happiness.... but in one way I hope it was... hes just could not handle people like us. .... we managed without kicking his ass sometimes...even if he deserved it. A professor.... well.... maybe maybe not.
Mrs Betty ... at der Jachthorn.... what a place, what moments and what a woman. Purple hunter of Diepenbaek, some plastic but mostly real......I could have stayed another night in this magic house.
Finally... just to confirm, I want my own professor in life. A professor with all his skills, and maturity, and the glasses on the forehead, open for teaching , sharing and giving everything that is needed and important. But also the elegant and the playfulness of course.....And a golden open heart with a great smile and laugh ready to also receive a lot, but input from a curious and energetic pupil. hello!!!!!....to far away at the moment
Time for hotel check in.
/ A
It has been an exiting trip in so many lovely ways. Golden moments meeting people that have given memories to laugh at but also so consider some seriousity.
I met som professors during this trip and I just want to give them all an A ... i think they are all in different skills.
Ivan V, his professionalism and energy is world class and not to forget his hospitality, deserves a big black hat for that.
The jury members of the RAD race, the professors from different Universities were so kind of groovy. These old men still so much energy and IT skills and out of the box thinking, that was so great to experience. And curiosity of learning new things still. They could easily relax and live on their old successes but no no.... they were just so no professor as I could ever imagine. I will link the photos to the RAD race and you will also see the guys.
The exchange student from Rwanda, invited by the Belgien government who was an external visitor at the RAD race, same as me, was a very soft an lovely girl in her youngest and best ages, so hungry and also very controlled in her ambition and the coming two years. Truly good luck, you will be something girl.
The bartender/owner Robert who never hesitated one minute when I asked for Leffe blond glasses to bring home. .. no doubt we went back three nights for just experience the bar atmosphere but also bring some profit to their business. Ihope his "Björn Borg" wife kiss him goodnight every night as the Hasselt Leffe blond professor.
The truckdriver...a drunk, happy but anyway sad guy, who shook us some by not being able to deal with to much happiness. As much as our glasses were half full... his glass was kind of over full... all the time and it was not flowing with win - win and happiness.... but in one way I hope it was... hes just could not handle people like us. .... we managed without kicking his ass sometimes...even if he deserved it. A professor.... well.... maybe maybe not.
Mrs Betty ... at der Jachthorn.... what a place, what moments and what a woman. Purple hunter of Diepenbaek, some plastic but mostly real......I could have stayed another night in this magic house.
Finally... just to confirm, I want my own professor in life. A professor with all his skills, and maturity, and the glasses on the forehead, open for teaching , sharing and giving everything that is needed and important. But also the elegant and the playfulness of course.....And a golden open heart with a great smile and laugh ready to also receive a lot, but input from a curious and energetic pupil. hello!!!!!....to far away at the moment
Time for hotel check in.
/ A
Wednesday, October 15, 2008
Amsterdam...... the district
What a lovely day and lovely hours this regular Wednesday. I am writing from Amsterdam and a small little nice hotelroom this time. I have to admit I am totally filled with calmness and love and exitement about the comings.
A great start. The flight was nothing but a love trip ... true. Unf. it was a Boeing 737-700 and very narrow... but to stay close and just enjoy worked very fine. Asume.
A good business lunch with a professional business man and it is always good to have new influences on the way. It reminded me about my and our ambition to strengthen the Teamclinic and to get new and excellent assignment. But also... the Marketing and selling is far mor important than we realize.
Check in to the hotel. A small but ok hotel in a very very fancy area here in Amsterdam. Its on the street were you find all the luxury shops like Luis Vuitton , Gucci and the other friends around... but I can guarantee... they would never have checked in here. But it is clean and ok.
Out in the street walking. Damn I Love this city. Its fantastic with the canals and the atmosphere.
Walking around, enjoyed and did some Prosec vine and some tapas shopping for the mini conference starting up really soon.
Back to the hotel so very wet , it was really raining here and no umbreally. Only my lovely mood and that is so great.
Into the lovely shower, hot and great and into the bed....how nice.
Now I am ready for the evening and a minor lovely party. Its knocking on the door.
Welcome.
A
A great start. The flight was nothing but a love trip ... true. Unf. it was a Boeing 737-700 and very narrow... but to stay close and just enjoy worked very fine. Asume.
A good business lunch with a professional business man and it is always good to have new influences on the way. It reminded me about my and our ambition to strengthen the Teamclinic and to get new and excellent assignment. But also... the Marketing and selling is far mor important than we realize.
Check in to the hotel. A small but ok hotel in a very very fancy area here in Amsterdam. Its on the street were you find all the luxury shops like Luis Vuitton , Gucci and the other friends around... but I can guarantee... they would never have checked in here. But it is clean and ok.
Out in the street walking. Damn I Love this city. Its fantastic with the canals and the atmosphere.
Walking around, enjoyed and did some Prosec vine and some tapas shopping for the mini conference starting up really soon.
Back to the hotel so very wet , it was really raining here and no umbreally. Only my lovely mood and that is so great.
Into the lovely shower, hot and great and into the bed....how nice.
Now I am ready for the evening and a minor lovely party. Its knocking on the door.
Welcome.
A
Tuesday, October 14, 2008
Living your values...Grand opening
Yesterday was kind of a flip and crazy day. The handover day at the hotel when I am supposed to check out, deliver all my achievements, describe my handovers and just make suer that my partner is well prepared for another week.
This Monday we had in kind of panic deciscion asked a restaruant consultancy to join us for one hour to support and mentor us in the strategy and ours plans.
To be honest... I did not have to much expectations of the meeting, but it turned out to be one of the most valuable spent money for some time in the hotel.
At least to me... and that is the thing. The whole attitude, the atmosphere and the feeling was kind of strange from minute 1 this day and I could not find the point.
I did my best to explain and also proudly tell some great results during the week,,, but nothing was good or positive in my partners ears.
Something was really wrong. The day turned out to be a bad day including some hard words, blamings and feedback given not in a way i normally do or that we have agreed on to do.
So.. back to the source of our values. Holy moses it is great to have stated our values about how to communicate, how to co-operate and everything else regarding our behavious and attitude.
It was good to point at our values and bring the question-- are we living our values?
The answer was just no.
In the middle of this everything we had the grand opening of our Restaurant Bakfickan this Monday.
Lucky us, we have our great chef Mats that works independently which made us out of this for some hours.
other wise you can just imagine to bring in the bad energy to the restaurant. Damn us for doing that in any way or case. Then we will be totally smoked.
So... end of day... packing the things.... time for goodbye... and a summary of the day.
Honest question from me, how does this feel now to leave each other in a bad mood and sad atmosphere?
Then..... all of a sudden I got the explanation about this fucking stupid day . My partner start crying, telling me she was in a shitty mood, her husband does not feel right and she actually did not want to go to work today. !!
Welll hello!! Why did you not tell me???
Time for a half full glass again thoughts.....?
Her answer..... I cant tell you about this the first thing?
But hello again! I require that you tell me this kind of thing as it almost killed our good relation this sad discussions during the day.
So.. more tears, understanding and a total paradigm shift.
One thing is for sure, if we, you or I want something to be said, just say it. No matter how painful it is. It feels much better to shout it out, no doubt.
To start living your values is far more complicated then to state them.
Dont you agree?
Good night, time for Amsterdam and Hasselt within a few hours. It will be asume.
Love
Anna
This Monday we had in kind of panic deciscion asked a restaruant consultancy to join us for one hour to support and mentor us in the strategy and ours plans.
To be honest... I did not have to much expectations of the meeting, but it turned out to be one of the most valuable spent money for some time in the hotel.
At least to me... and that is the thing. The whole attitude, the atmosphere and the feeling was kind of strange from minute 1 this day and I could not find the point.
I did my best to explain and also proudly tell some great results during the week,,, but nothing was good or positive in my partners ears.
Something was really wrong. The day turned out to be a bad day including some hard words, blamings and feedback given not in a way i normally do or that we have agreed on to do.
So.. back to the source of our values. Holy moses it is great to have stated our values about how to communicate, how to co-operate and everything else regarding our behavious and attitude.
It was good to point at our values and bring the question-- are we living our values?
The answer was just no.
In the middle of this everything we had the grand opening of our Restaurant Bakfickan this Monday.
Lucky us, we have our great chef Mats that works independently which made us out of this for some hours.
other wise you can just imagine to bring in the bad energy to the restaurant. Damn us for doing that in any way or case. Then we will be totally smoked.
So... end of day... packing the things.... time for goodbye... and a summary of the day.
Honest question from me, how does this feel now to leave each other in a bad mood and sad atmosphere?
Then..... all of a sudden I got the explanation about this fucking stupid day . My partner start crying, telling me she was in a shitty mood, her husband does not feel right and she actually did not want to go to work today. !!
Welll hello!! Why did you not tell me???
Time for a half full glass again thoughts.....?
Her answer..... I cant tell you about this the first thing?
But hello again! I require that you tell me this kind of thing as it almost killed our good relation this sad discussions during the day.
So.. more tears, understanding and a total paradigm shift.
One thing is for sure, if we, you or I want something to be said, just say it. No matter how painful it is. It feels much better to shout it out, no doubt.
To start living your values is far more complicated then to state them.
Dont you agree?
Good night, time for Amsterdam and Hasselt within a few hours. It will be asume.
Love
Anna
Sunday, October 5, 2008
I kissed the girl.....
no.... i did not...and i have never done that... but honest.. this lovely Kylie Minouge I could give a small cheek kiss for all here great songs that always make want to move and dance..not only here in the kitchen a lovely grey morning like this....
Kylie... keep on dancing in my life .. i will with the one I give this song to..
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=hkbNf_-hv7I
and when i am into songs again her on the blog... I like female artists and their lovely voices...
this girl will not have any kisses from me.... but some attention for a great old love song.....
its kind of suitable a lovely Sunday like this.... and I will enjoy every minute for the rest of my life...
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=9MA1rDxaq88&feature=related
for now...
enjoy this Sunday..
Yours...A
Kylie... keep on dancing in my life .. i will with the one I give this song to..
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=hkbNf_-hv7I
and when i am into songs again her on the blog... I like female artists and their lovely voices...
this girl will not have any kisses from me.... but some attention for a great old love song.....
its kind of suitable a lovely Sunday like this.... and I will enjoy every minute for the rest of my life...
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=9MA1rDxaq88&feature=related
for now...
enjoy this Sunday..
Yours...A
Saturday, October 4, 2008
teamclinic nordic AB
Finally teamclinic is registered . The authority had some comments and arguments about the word "clinic" but yes... we manage to convince them about it.. great. Our new company that will give us the opportunity to prove that the word clinic is positive and adding value every minute every hour. Injections, emergency, medicin and prescriptions to team and a lot more... think adding value and a great outcome and there you got some of it.
Our web page is soon in place and I know it will be a good summary of our offered services and of course "sister Anna " will blog and give her view of things there as well... ,as my partners. And yes, no private private .... that I will keep here . I will focus on the experiences and best practices from the ongoing work and I hope you will keep sending in questions about software development issues ... but as normally the answers and conclusions to some of the problems touch upon soft things as people management. Remember .. its all about people.
It s kind of easy to start up a company, well not to easy but anyway. The challenge is to get the first customer and to get others to realize the value about the service offered and to hire us.
Some people and companies realize that this foursome bring something extra and by hiring one of us, you get the rest as well.
Well hello Anna, dont be to bracky now, to proud and to brave in your selling minds about this company. We are not alone in the market really.....??!!
Well hello ..... I can be, I want to be and I will be. Because what you hear is what you get. Lets try us and you will never let us go.
Annika, Pär and Johan.... well I dont need to say that I am very happy to work with you because I do that everytime I see you. That is such a strenght and happiness and the reason why i have never ever hesitated to do magic with you and our clients.
The dreamteam is in place and we will go for deliveries and adding value.
// A
Our web page is soon in place and I know it will be a good summary of our offered services and of course "sister Anna " will blog and give her view of things there as well... ,as my partners. And yes, no private private .... that I will keep here . I will focus on the experiences and best practices from the ongoing work and I hope you will keep sending in questions about software development issues ... but as normally the answers and conclusions to some of the problems touch upon soft things as people management. Remember .. its all about people.
It s kind of easy to start up a company, well not to easy but anyway. The challenge is to get the first customer and to get others to realize the value about the service offered and to hire us.
Some people and companies realize that this foursome bring something extra and by hiring one of us, you get the rest as well.
Well hello Anna, dont be to bracky now, to proud and to brave in your selling minds about this company. We are not alone in the market really.....??!!
Well hello ..... I can be, I want to be and I will be. Because what you hear is what you get. Lets try us and you will never let us go.
Annika, Pär and Johan.... well I dont need to say that I am very happy to work with you because I do that everytime I see you. That is such a strenght and happiness and the reason why i have never ever hesitated to do magic with you and our clients.
The dreamteam is in place and we will go for deliveries and adding value.
// A
It's time.....
its Saturday....
its October the 4th
its kind of lovely weather outside and the trees are extremely beautiful
its time ....
time for confession
time for agreement
time for changes and consideration
time for a new period in life..
time for some hard work towards a challenging vision
time for lists and prioritizing the lists....
time for energy and fun
time for love and more love...
time for honesty and more love
and i will put everything into this
it s great, its asume and it is tjusigt och busigt....
I L D......
its October the 4th
its kind of lovely weather outside and the trees are extremely beautiful
its time ....
time for confession
time for agreement
time for changes and consideration
time for a new period in life..
time for some hard work towards a challenging vision
time for lists and prioritizing the lists....
time for energy and fun
time for love and more love...
time for honesty and more love
and i will put everything into this
it s great, its asume and it is tjusigt och busigt....
I L D......
Monday, September 29, 2008
no 71
Back in Stockholm again for a week and I have to admit it feels great in many ways.
Mostly because I am very close to my loved but also.. In one way I can breath normally again. I am a free person and in the hotel you are kind of one with the hotel.
The last 2 weeks 24/7 at the hotel have been kind of hard but aslo very amusing and gentle. Even if it is late evenings and early mornings and no sleep at all ..
I manage and I guess it is all about mindset and motivation. At the moment I am more strong then ever and convinced about the challenges coming, I just have to be and I am.
Regarding 71..... i have seen a lovely red house here just standing empty waiting for me/ us...
I want to check it out. ...
171.... was the speed for 30 secods when I drove to Stockholm today .. i just had to try my new car a bit. And I can tell You,,, it works perfectly fine.
Now time for bed and a new lovely day tomorrow.
Mostly because I am very close to my loved but also.. In one way I can breath normally again. I am a free person and in the hotel you are kind of one with the hotel.
The last 2 weeks 24/7 at the hotel have been kind of hard but aslo very amusing and gentle. Even if it is late evenings and early mornings and no sleep at all ..
I manage and I guess it is all about mindset and motivation. At the moment I am more strong then ever and convinced about the challenges coming, I just have to be and I am.
Regarding 71..... i have seen a lovely red house here just standing empty waiting for me/ us...
I want to check it out. ...
171.... was the speed for 30 secods when I drove to Stockholm today .. i just had to try my new car a bit. And I can tell You,,, it works perfectly fine.
Now time for bed and a new lovely day tomorrow.
Sunday, September 28, 2008
a smell of Colitas....
So... first night I have had som small chill regarding my guests here in the hotel....
First.... in the afternoon a very odd couple stepped in to the reception and asked for their reserved room. A lovely couple and the man told me that they were newly married, 20 minutes ago... the wife was sitting down, waiting for her husband to finalize the check in. And I think she waitied for something else as well. She had a beautiful green dress and a bukee of flowers but she looked like a zombie and she smiled behind a strange ghost face. Everything in slomotion.
Ok... am i good at making my own conclusion and speculate but this was something real extra...
Second... a beautful girl from Iran came in with her company and she did not want to sign in as ordinary guests due to a secret identity... oh... no energy for a discussion this evening ... and a promise that i would kill anything that could leave a trace from her / them. oh boy. Promise.... money talks and I am into hotel business, not immigration/ abusing busienss.... this evening.
Third ....... a young girl call in the middle of the night, kind of desperate asking for some rooms for the night as they were stucked in a small city close to here. eh..... two seconds of consideration... is this serious or what? ok....i had some rooms available so yes, you are very welcome.
20 minutes later there are 6 youngsters, 2 girls standing outside the hotel to check in.
I let them in, make a clear statement about the amount of people in a room, the rate and the behaviour at the hotel. Yes and yes.... they paid and to them it cost a fortune... I could see that in some of the guys faces.
holy moses... the hotel.. kind of crowded on a Saturday, is very good of course... but the mix of people was awkward .
This night I went a second round to make sure everything was looked and closed as it should.
Back to bed,,,, deep sleep as I have not got so much sleep lately.
Last phonecall ....unexpected and great, and this time I could have screamed all the way to Stockholm of happiness.
I slept like a princess and this morning I have done something extra to all my guests here at breakfast. They deserve that.
Hotel California .... the evil song suited very well here yesterday. It feels lika I am in movie.
Love and kiss .
A
First.... in the afternoon a very odd couple stepped in to the reception and asked for their reserved room. A lovely couple and the man told me that they were newly married, 20 minutes ago... the wife was sitting down, waiting for her husband to finalize the check in. And I think she waitied for something else as well. She had a beautiful green dress and a bukee of flowers but she looked like a zombie and she smiled behind a strange ghost face. Everything in slomotion.
Ok... am i good at making my own conclusion and speculate but this was something real extra...
Second... a beautful girl from Iran came in with her company and she did not want to sign in as ordinary guests due to a secret identity... oh... no energy for a discussion this evening ... and a promise that i would kill anything that could leave a trace from her / them. oh boy. Promise.... money talks and I am into hotel business, not immigration/ abusing busienss.... this evening.
Third ....... a young girl call in the middle of the night, kind of desperate asking for some rooms for the night as they were stucked in a small city close to here. eh..... two seconds of consideration... is this serious or what? ok....i had some rooms available so yes, you are very welcome.
20 minutes later there are 6 youngsters, 2 girls standing outside the hotel to check in.
I let them in, make a clear statement about the amount of people in a room, the rate and the behaviour at the hotel. Yes and yes.... they paid and to them it cost a fortune... I could see that in some of the guys faces.
holy moses... the hotel.. kind of crowded on a Saturday, is very good of course... but the mix of people was awkward .
This night I went a second round to make sure everything was looked and closed as it should.
Back to bed,,,, deep sleep as I have not got so much sleep lately.
Last phonecall ....unexpected and great, and this time I could have screamed all the way to Stockholm of happiness.
I slept like a princess and this morning I have done something extra to all my guests here at breakfast. They deserve that.
Hotel California .... the evil song suited very well here yesterday. It feels lika I am in movie.
Love and kiss .
A
Saturday, September 27, 2008
Faith - luck - destiny...
I wonder if this hotel management is my faith or my destiny? I dont want it to be neither of them, or ... do I? I want it to be the business case I deserve and I truly need a some luck among the way. I will create the luck I need , thats the way i have to think, because nothing is just falling into my knees ... or does it?
So what is my faith or destiny then? Is that a relevant question that i have to think of ? I guess not, and I normally just go with my flow and minds and never consider all the details.But tonight i need to make some wonderings and tell you a very sad story from this little stupid lovely city.
I guess it is about the faith again...and no luck and ni future minds..... since the two persons involved seems to think they have found their destiny and it almost kills them.
We are talking about an old married couple here, age around 60. They have been married too long, and what is left is just a lot of complains and sorrows for both. Its on their outside visible as well. But they refuse to divorce because they are so greedy both of them that they will never ever let one of them get a dime less then the other.
One week ago the man bought a new jacket. A brand new fancy jacket and went home to show it. He was crazy happy about his buy and the wife got crazy with him. Spend money on a jacket like that and btw.. he looked good at in the new jacket. And also .. he took the opportunity to buy some new underwears as well. How stupid can you get?
Just to let you know, the couple are drowning in money but nothing else. The love and the respect and all the oil you need went away years ago and what is left is all the money.
Back to the shopping. The wife forced him to go back to the store together with him to give the jacket back.. it was not necessary to buy. And the belt to ... He packed the things in a bag and went with her.
What happens? In the shop, the man open his mouth and as loudly as he could he told all the people and the staff in the shop... -- tell me , does this jacket suit me or not, and let me know why i should keep it?
The staff of course supported him in his opinion as he looked great in the jacket. So....
now.. the wife was totally shamed out and embarrased. He went back home with the jacket, and mostly his dignity. He loves the new jacket. For the first time in years.. he did what he wanted. He felt like a beauty in the jacket and wanted it. The wife, crazy jealous of his fanciness but also his courage to stand up for his minds and for two minutes got his dignity back as an adult.
That night they had their normal common fights again. And of course it did not include any sensitivenes, any respect, any touching or anything else that was close to love. Not even a reunion sex.
I guess its their destiny.... I feel very sorry for them. And a couple I see as a worst best practice ever. I am greatful to them in one way to show what i never want to end up in.
Holy moses. I will make sure I love my next man like crazy and make sure it never ends. Love between two people can be so wonderful, strong and positive and it is possible to keep up. Its all about the mindset you choose and about give and get.
I want to get married.
Love / A
So what is my faith or destiny then? Is that a relevant question that i have to think of ? I guess not, and I normally just go with my flow and minds and never consider all the details.But tonight i need to make some wonderings and tell you a very sad story from this little stupid lovely city.
I guess it is about the faith again...and no luck and ni future minds..... since the two persons involved seems to think they have found their destiny and it almost kills them.
We are talking about an old married couple here, age around 60. They have been married too long, and what is left is just a lot of complains and sorrows for both. Its on their outside visible as well. But they refuse to divorce because they are so greedy both of them that they will never ever let one of them get a dime less then the other.
One week ago the man bought a new jacket. A brand new fancy jacket and went home to show it. He was crazy happy about his buy and the wife got crazy with him. Spend money on a jacket like that and btw.. he looked good at in the new jacket. And also .. he took the opportunity to buy some new underwears as well. How stupid can you get?
Just to let you know, the couple are drowning in money but nothing else. The love and the respect and all the oil you need went away years ago and what is left is all the money.
Back to the shopping. The wife forced him to go back to the store together with him to give the jacket back.. it was not necessary to buy. And the belt to ... He packed the things in a bag and went with her.
What happens? In the shop, the man open his mouth and as loudly as he could he told all the people and the staff in the shop... -- tell me , does this jacket suit me or not, and let me know why i should keep it?
The staff of course supported him in his opinion as he looked great in the jacket. So....
now.. the wife was totally shamed out and embarrased. He went back home with the jacket, and mostly his dignity. He loves the new jacket. For the first time in years.. he did what he wanted. He felt like a beauty in the jacket and wanted it. The wife, crazy jealous of his fanciness but also his courage to stand up for his minds and for two minutes got his dignity back as an adult.
That night they had their normal common fights again. And of course it did not include any sensitivenes, any respect, any touching or anything else that was close to love. Not even a reunion sex.
I guess its their destiny.... I feel very sorry for them. And a couple I see as a worst best practice ever. I am greatful to them in one way to show what i never want to end up in.
Holy moses. I will make sure I love my next man like crazy and make sure it never ends. Love between two people can be so wonderful, strong and positive and it is possible to keep up. Its all about the mindset you choose and about give and get.
I want to get married.
Love / A
Tuesday, September 16, 2008
Workshop -- give people an A
Give people an A. This expression I have read and heard from the Boston Phiharmonica Orchestra Conductor Benjamin Zander, Which kind of means... give the highest score from the beginning, in your mind and to that person who you want to make an A person.
Read the lovely book " The Art of possibility" written by Benjamin.
This Monday we had a full day of workshop here at Stadshotellet. First time in history that there has been anything close to a workshop and work like this.
My father had a total different view of committment. He did not care at all about the commitment to be honest. Management by .... just telling and pointing and nothing else to talk about it.
This is not a way how to build a strong high performing team from my leadership nerv and gut.
So, we had a purpose and a goal with the workshop and we managed to conclude what we aimed for when the day was over.
The discussions, the work, the commmon way of listening and communicating with each other are outstanding tools to build a team. And I am impressed by the employees energy, willingnes and postivie attitude to do it.
The walls were full of work material and post it notes , green, yellow and beautiful white ones.
The outcome of this work has ben kind of a revolution. Clear vision and goal. A plan that has been prioritsed with seperated responsible areas and the most important things first. Put first things first.
Involve the employees and ask for their input and actions to secure the committment. Give people an A.
My grandfather has never ever given me or anyone else an A... at least not as far as I can remember.
As he step by the hotel the other day, he is btw 86 years old and in a quiet good shape, he was kind of chocked ang got irritated as he entered the breakfast room were we had the walls full with work material and work result.
-- is this some kind of kindergarden thingy? he said, are you out of mind?
Well.. hello. Damn grandpa.. nice that you came around today.....cant you ever give me an A....?. I had to hold my horses, describe some of the things what we had done and I can tell his pulse was around 300 . Choose your wars and fights that is for sure.
And secondly.... I showed him the new logo which me and Gittan are really happy about. He looked at the grey hidden madonna and just screamed... -- who is that?
Well... I said... ----its a woman,, and it could be any woman, your mind is chosing.
He got crazy about that free mind thinking and saying and told me that it should have been Mr Engelbrekt of course...
The statue man infront of the church that actually was some kind of professional soldier very long time ago and also according to the history......
So,,,,, yes.. this frustration my grandfather shows at the moment is not a good sign.
And this time i will hold on and give myself the biggest A ever, I will deserve it in the end.
And a B as in Bed... I am dead tired, I have checked in and only worked for 24 hours and I am already so so out of order. but still... very happy.
/ A
Read the lovely book " The Art of possibility" written by Benjamin.
This Monday we had a full day of workshop here at Stadshotellet. First time in history that there has been anything close to a workshop and work like this.
My father had a total different view of committment. He did not care at all about the commitment to be honest. Management by .... just telling and pointing and nothing else to talk about it.
This is not a way how to build a strong high performing team from my leadership nerv and gut.
So, we had a purpose and a goal with the workshop and we managed to conclude what we aimed for when the day was over.
The discussions, the work, the commmon way of listening and communicating with each other are outstanding tools to build a team. And I am impressed by the employees energy, willingnes and postivie attitude to do it.
The walls were full of work material and post it notes , green, yellow and beautiful white ones.
The outcome of this work has ben kind of a revolution. Clear vision and goal. A plan that has been prioritsed with seperated responsible areas and the most important things first. Put first things first.
Involve the employees and ask for their input and actions to secure the committment. Give people an A.
My grandfather has never ever given me or anyone else an A... at least not as far as I can remember.
As he step by the hotel the other day, he is btw 86 years old and in a quiet good shape, he was kind of chocked ang got irritated as he entered the breakfast room were we had the walls full with work material and work result.
-- is this some kind of kindergarden thingy? he said, are you out of mind?
Well.. hello. Damn grandpa.. nice that you came around today.....cant you ever give me an A....?. I had to hold my horses, describe some of the things what we had done and I can tell his pulse was around 300 . Choose your wars and fights that is for sure.
And secondly.... I showed him the new logo which me and Gittan are really happy about. He looked at the grey hidden madonna and just screamed... -- who is that?
Well... I said... ----its a woman,, and it could be any woman, your mind is chosing.
He got crazy about that free mind thinking and saying and told me that it should have been Mr Engelbrekt of course...
The statue man infront of the church that actually was some kind of professional soldier very long time ago and also according to the history......
So,,,,, yes.. this frustration my grandfather shows at the moment is not a good sign.
And this time i will hold on and give myself the biggest A ever, I will deserve it in the end.
And a B as in Bed... I am dead tired, I have checked in and only worked for 24 hours and I am already so so out of order. but still... very happy.
/ A
Saturday, September 13, 2008
Half empty- half full...
Half empty... half full.... what do you prefer?
At the moment a lot of things are kind of half full but also half empty ...
- all the bottles i brought home today ,by emptying the magazine of old half empty bottles , are kind of half full. they will definately make me fully full drunk if I drink them on my own. welcome for a small party here .. the drinks are for free and I will be your bartender.
- my energy is kind of half empty at the moment.... or lets turn it around... all my energy has made me kind of half full.
- my apartment is kind of half empty of personal stuff since my work to empty the boxes have in some ways just been on hold.... on the other hand... my apartment is half full of boxes just waiting for me to be caught.
- my heart is kind of half empty as i long for my children very much... on the other hand... my heart is exploding and is very much full and filled with the love and longing for them
- my judgement and choices are kind of half empty of common sence at the moment .. on the other hand i am very much full of confident of the choices I make ... and that is full enough
I prefer to see the bright side of life and that is a good choice.
Cheers.....
Anna
At the moment a lot of things are kind of half full but also half empty ...
- all the bottles i brought home today ,by emptying the magazine of old half empty bottles , are kind of half full. they will definately make me fully full drunk if I drink them on my own. welcome for a small party here .. the drinks are for free and I will be your bartender.
- my energy is kind of half empty at the moment.... or lets turn it around... all my energy has made me kind of half full.
- my apartment is kind of half empty of personal stuff since my work to empty the boxes have in some ways just been on hold.... on the other hand... my apartment is half full of boxes just waiting for me to be caught.
- my heart is kind of half empty as i long for my children very much... on the other hand... my heart is exploding and is very much full and filled with the love and longing for them
- my judgement and choices are kind of half empty of common sence at the moment .. on the other hand i am very much full of confident of the choices I make ... and that is full enough
I prefer to see the bright side of life and that is a good choice.
Cheers.....
Anna
Workshopotel - facilitiation ..
Time to use and execute some of my brilliant skills in facilitating workshops here in Arboga - here in the hotel business.
My partner have never ever participated in a workshop before and was quiet skeptical about it first. But positive to give it a try .. that is a good start.
The outcome has been very good. As I both facilitate and also am the very one to have both influence and give input it has been very challenging. But so far . ..great result.
Normaly I recommend a facilitator that is very neutral.. but now, we dont have any choice but just doing it on our own.
To make this workshop, this planning, this vision statement will be the base for our coming work and further decisions.
We will strenghten the work with our common committed values as well. This important value work will be our own significiant seul and value to our customer but also very much about how to behave and the rules..
Our vision will be visible and the journey will start. Our employees will be very much involved in creating the way to go and what to do. Without a strong team we will never succéed and lack commitment.
We are on our way to build a strong team and it is very challenging but also very much fun.
And it is very interesting and very uplifting to notice that my skills are useful .....
This
Good luck to us.
A
My partner have never ever participated in a workshop before and was quiet skeptical about it first. But positive to give it a try .. that is a good start.
The outcome has been very good. As I both facilitate and also am the very one to have both influence and give input it has been very challenging. But so far . ..great result.
Normaly I recommend a facilitator that is very neutral.. but now, we dont have any choice but just doing it on our own.
To make this workshop, this planning, this vision statement will be the base for our coming work and further decisions.
We will strenghten the work with our common committed values as well. This important value work will be our own significiant seul and value to our customer but also very much about how to behave and the rules..
Our vision will be visible and the journey will start. Our employees will be very much involved in creating the way to go and what to do. Without a strong team we will never succéed and lack commitment.
We are on our way to build a strong team and it is very challenging but also very much fun.
And it is very interesting and very uplifting to notice that my skills are useful .....
This
Good luck to us.
A
Monday, September 8, 2008
Challenges - with the intention to be solved
So first challenge at the hotel. I am sometimes to hot, to eager and to quick to go for decisions and solutions. I know. On the other hand.. i am not afraid of dealing with conflicts, with problems and challenges.
To walk around and assume things, build up a frustration and make a storm in a waterglass is definately not my thing. At the end some people make their minds the truth and that is almost always very dangerous and waste of energy.
Honestly... I am very much proactive to challenges and that means you have to be two step ahead and kind of risk oriented. My favourite expression in Software Development is " Fail Fast". If I am supposed to fail I would better do it soon enough and also before I have spent a fortune in some non important or non profitable project.
Yesterday I had that thought. I need to deliver some very non comfortable truths, coaching but also information to be able to put things on the table
One of the best questions to repeat sometimes is .. " what is the problem" and "what is the real problem" ?
Mostly by asking this several times, you come to the right problem wihinsome time. But it is damn hard sometimes to open up and be honest. And mostly.. you blame a lot of consequenses to be the reason and that is not very clever. And third mostly... the problem is yourself. Your own way of thinking and your own way of dealing with things.
To work in a small company is a huge challenge I have written before. It is worth some investment to agree on your values, your behaviours but also your attitude to things to do, how to act and also how to communicate.
One example is about the a very hot thing, talking in cell phone during working hours. To some people it is very obvious that there is no cell phone use during working hours, and to some not. who is paying for this extra time?
In this company, we cant afford spending time on arguing about if it is ok or not, neither afford the cell phone use, we just state it in some common values, it is not ok.
It will not or should not be such a big deal to handle it. To me at least.
To have a HR responsibility takes an effort and strength that is underestimated. I love it. The combination of high performing, happy satisfied people and a well profitable company is so great.
I will make sure we have great metrix to evaluate that this will be the truth. Some of it is already in place, now it is just the rest.
Money talks....
// Anna
To walk around and assume things, build up a frustration and make a storm in a waterglass is definately not my thing. At the end some people make their minds the truth and that is almost always very dangerous and waste of energy.
Honestly... I am very much proactive to challenges and that means you have to be two step ahead and kind of risk oriented. My favourite expression in Software Development is " Fail Fast". If I am supposed to fail I would better do it soon enough and also before I have spent a fortune in some non important or non profitable project.
Yesterday I had that thought. I need to deliver some very non comfortable truths, coaching but also information to be able to put things on the table
One of the best questions to repeat sometimes is .. " what is the problem" and "what is the real problem" ?
Mostly by asking this several times, you come to the right problem wihinsome time. But it is damn hard sometimes to open up and be honest. And mostly.. you blame a lot of consequenses to be the reason and that is not very clever. And third mostly... the problem is yourself. Your own way of thinking and your own way of dealing with things.
To work in a small company is a huge challenge I have written before. It is worth some investment to agree on your values, your behaviours but also your attitude to things to do, how to act and also how to communicate.
One example is about the a very hot thing, talking in cell phone during working hours. To some people it is very obvious that there is no cell phone use during working hours, and to some not. who is paying for this extra time?
In this company, we cant afford spending time on arguing about if it is ok or not, neither afford the cell phone use, we just state it in some common values, it is not ok.
It will not or should not be such a big deal to handle it. To me at least.
To have a HR responsibility takes an effort and strength that is underestimated. I love it. The combination of high performing, happy satisfied people and a well profitable company is so great.
I will make sure we have great metrix to evaluate that this will be the truth. Some of it is already in place, now it is just the rest.
Money talks....
// Anna
Sunday, September 7, 2008
A moment like this...
Sunday night 23.43 and another weekend has passed. Time is running when you enjoy the moments and the time given.
I had a great weekend in Arboga included some great moments. it started with a good Friday lunch, afternoon and evening and continued so the rest of the weekend.
I still enjoy the lovely flowers I got and hope they will never fall apart.
Now, I also have a new sofa in place to sit in and I am pleased with that quick fix buy for once as it was this little simple furniture.
Even if the rain was heavily falling during Saturday I enjoyed every single second with candles and some fixing around with Robin. It feels like an never ending ongoing work to unpack... but soon.. i will be ok. These hours was great moments to Robin and me, quality time. Great.
And I made a great bargain in the Lamp shop in Felingsbro. I bought a black / Silver coloured lamp to my kitchen window and I can tell it was lovely chic. Now I have decided to go for Black in my kitchen, thanks for that inspiration.
Time for another moment, bed moment. I will enjoy the bed as well and dream about a trip coming. Why not US again.. it would be great and this time, I would go North. Or just go to Vastra Stendorren and just sit and wait for a moment like this....
Leona Lewis is outstanding in this song, and at the moment I just listen to a lot of sensitive songs...I guess it is just the time for it.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=s3kAsUB6nFA
Good night
A
I had a great weekend in Arboga included some great moments. it started with a good Friday lunch, afternoon and evening and continued so the rest of the weekend.
I still enjoy the lovely flowers I got and hope they will never fall apart.
Now, I also have a new sofa in place to sit in and I am pleased with that quick fix buy for once as it was this little simple furniture.
Even if the rain was heavily falling during Saturday I enjoyed every single second with candles and some fixing around with Robin. It feels like an never ending ongoing work to unpack... but soon.. i will be ok. These hours was great moments to Robin and me, quality time. Great.
And I made a great bargain in the Lamp shop in Felingsbro. I bought a black / Silver coloured lamp to my kitchen window and I can tell it was lovely chic. Now I have decided to go for Black in my kitchen, thanks for that inspiration.
Time for another moment, bed moment. I will enjoy the bed as well and dream about a trip coming. Why not US again.. it would be great and this time, I would go North. Or just go to Vastra Stendorren and just sit and wait for a moment like this....
Leona Lewis is outstanding in this song, and at the moment I just listen to a lot of sensitive songs...I guess it is just the time for it.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=s3kAsUB6nFA
Good night
A
Thursday, September 4, 2008
For sure... I will write about it-- Final party with my team
So, just woke up after a great yesterday evening and I still have a huge smile on my face.
My manager had fixed a final party for me at he Boule bar including some great food and a boule tournament. The whole team was present and that is kind of fantastic, I was and am very greatful to see them all again. So much happiness with this team.
And the gifts! Holy moses. No limits.. i got 3 bottles of great champagne and, damn how lovely. And and the Fawlty Towers full DVD packade was kind of top of the cream and not to forget the lovely flowers.!! Obviously my team members know that I need some luxury addings to my Arboga life. I love them for that.
The Boule tournament was great fun. Even if my team, Sven and I, lost heavily every match we were kind of the .. best team spirited team. Jumbo place. Well well.. everyone wants to beat the boss... hmmm..... and we managed to get a Funny, lost with ....13-0 which means that the looser has the possibility to kiss someones ( Funnys) ass... and as the winner at that time was Ola,, it had been a very hairy one.... ugh,,,
Did I mention that the boule guy guide we had for the games was from Holland?... I fancy funny man with a lovely accent broken swedish and something.... it was dutch and I just shake my head. Those Dutch guys are everywere... arent they.
So... kiss and hugs and then a small team of 5 went to another bar for some drinks ( I had lovely Cosmopolitans, my favourite drink ) and some serious talk.
Serious and serious. My guys are really curious and we normally end up in the talk about man, woman, relationsship and yes.. that kind of talk, being and living single life. As the lovely girl Cecilia was there it is kind of a natural talk.. especially now when she has clearly stated that she has left the single swamp... really ??? uh.. what a word. Swamp!!
Tell me about it. Swamp no no. To me it is heaven and I dont know If i ever want to leave it....
and here was one of the discussions heavy ongoing. Why I dont want a man in life and if I am scared to be let down.. and why cant I open my eyes and get a normal man into my life and jadi jadi?
I get amused by these questions as I know, that some of the guys, they are all married, are so very jealous of this living and they are really curious to hear about everything ongoing.
Second heavy discussion was regarding chemistry between people and the denial of heaving a chemistry that almost put you on the edge for what you can do and not.
I have to watch my words and writing here... but sometimes its just in the air and it is so obvious that you can touch upon it. And to deny that is to be totally blind or, lets say.. you are really experienced to manage this kind of chemistry by being so totally open to another person and also make it visible without being aware of it.
I know, it is interesting for me to discuss this as I normally is on the other side of the table and part of the game... and this evening I got some support from one of the guys in my thoughts and minds about what was ongoing...
I also know that one person will be crazy mad at me for writing this and of course she will deny it... but sorry girl. Sometimes you cant help it , its just there. Go with the flow and start walking...
A
My manager had fixed a final party for me at he Boule bar including some great food and a boule tournament. The whole team was present and that is kind of fantastic, I was and am very greatful to see them all again. So much happiness with this team.
And the gifts! Holy moses. No limits.. i got 3 bottles of great champagne and, damn how lovely. And and the Fawlty Towers full DVD packade was kind of top of the cream and not to forget the lovely flowers.!! Obviously my team members know that I need some luxury addings to my Arboga life. I love them for that.
The Boule tournament was great fun. Even if my team, Sven and I, lost heavily every match we were kind of the .. best team spirited team. Jumbo place. Well well.. everyone wants to beat the boss... hmmm..... and we managed to get a Funny, lost with ....13-0 which means that the looser has the possibility to kiss someones ( Funnys) ass... and as the winner at that time was Ola,, it had been a very hairy one.... ugh,,,
Did I mention that the boule guy guide we had for the games was from Holland?... I fancy funny man with a lovely accent broken swedish and something.... it was dutch and I just shake my head. Those Dutch guys are everywere... arent they.
So... kiss and hugs and then a small team of 5 went to another bar for some drinks ( I had lovely Cosmopolitans, my favourite drink ) and some serious talk.
Serious and serious. My guys are really curious and we normally end up in the talk about man, woman, relationsship and yes.. that kind of talk, being and living single life. As the lovely girl Cecilia was there it is kind of a natural talk.. especially now when she has clearly stated that she has left the single swamp... really ??? uh.. what a word. Swamp!!
Tell me about it. Swamp no no. To me it is heaven and I dont know If i ever want to leave it....
and here was one of the discussions heavy ongoing. Why I dont want a man in life and if I am scared to be let down.. and why cant I open my eyes and get a normal man into my life and jadi jadi?
I get amused by these questions as I know, that some of the guys, they are all married, are so very jealous of this living and they are really curious to hear about everything ongoing.
Second heavy discussion was regarding chemistry between people and the denial of heaving a chemistry that almost put you on the edge for what you can do and not.
I have to watch my words and writing here... but sometimes its just in the air and it is so obvious that you can touch upon it. And to deny that is to be totally blind or, lets say.. you are really experienced to manage this kind of chemistry by being so totally open to another person and also make it visible without being aware of it.
I know, it is interesting for me to discuss this as I normally is on the other side of the table and part of the game... and this evening I got some support from one of the guys in my thoughts and minds about what was ongoing...
I also know that one person will be crazy mad at me for writing this and of course she will deny it... but sorry girl. Sometimes you cant help it , its just there. Go with the flow and start walking...
A
Wednesday, September 3, 2008
The news of the day......
This morning i woke up by a text from my lovely friend Åsa, telling me about the article in Arboga Newspaper this morning. Good article.. good photos.
Hm... I got some kind of a strange feeling then. The journalist promised to send the article draft to us for approval, and also the photos. He obviously did not.
As I am here in Stockholm I cant see it. The internet code for reading the magazine is not available, but here is the link to see a small piece of the frontpage.
http://bblat.ingress.se/
So.. the texts kept coming in. Happy text telling it was a great article and good photos. I am curious to see it all.
Curious was the owner of the Restaurant across the street as well, and not only curious.. he was kind of furious... about our plans. ...
So, here we go. Now the competition all of a sudden was very obvious... according to him.
To me, not. We take care of our business and needs to strengthen the hotel and the concept in total. We work towards a plan, that is for shure. We never know what happens.
But I will never build my business and business case on somebody elses business I cant control.. that is not my interest. And btw I do whatever I want.
There is room for all here and I guess that people has to get used to that thinking. Win Win.
I am sorry, I think the way he did his complain this day was very sad and definately wrong occasion..... on the other hand.. i am not surprised.
---
The hotel empire building has just started.
Love and successes to all of us
A
Hm... I got some kind of a strange feeling then. The journalist promised to send the article draft to us for approval, and also the photos. He obviously did not.
As I am here in Stockholm I cant see it. The internet code for reading the magazine is not available, but here is the link to see a small piece of the frontpage.
http://bblat.ingress.se/
So.. the texts kept coming in. Happy text telling it was a great article and good photos. I am curious to see it all.
Curious was the owner of the Restaurant across the street as well, and not only curious.. he was kind of furious... about our plans. ...
So, here we go. Now the competition all of a sudden was very obvious... according to him.
To me, not. We take care of our business and needs to strengthen the hotel and the concept in total. We work towards a plan, that is for shure. We never know what happens.
But I will never build my business and business case on somebody elses business I cant control.. that is not my interest. And btw I do whatever I want.
There is room for all here and I guess that people has to get used to that thinking. Win Win.
I am sorry, I think the way he did his complain this day was very sad and definately wrong occasion..... on the other hand.. i am not surprised.
---
The hotel empire building has just started.
Love and successes to all of us
A
Tuesday, September 2, 2008
Happines--- lovely chemistry
Back in Stockholm and in my apartment here together with the children. This night, all three are here together and we just finalized a great evening and some lovely hours together.
I have had a great day today. After leaving Robin to school I had some cool hours in the city. A combination of business, healthcare and pleasure meetings and I enjoyed every second being in Stockholm city again. In one way.. i kind of belong here .. as well.
All day, I walked around with a big smile on my face. I feel happy and strong and its kind of overwelming. There are many reasons for being very happy at the moment, but one strong reason is that my kids are kind of more relaxed to the situation they have been forced into at the moment regarding their coming two places to live situation. Its not easy but I think they and also I have come a bit forward in this understanding, how things will be.
Today, it crossed my mind that this is how the weekend parents situation is and will be. Kind of strange, sad .. but also acceptable for both them and myself so.. yes. It will be alrigt. And as I said... now they come without any arguments or crying....
I have not seen my older boys for a while So it was so good to see them tody and I could not stop hugging them. When I now see them I want to make everything so great to them of course . On the other hand I know, that if I try to hard it will in some way fail.. because that is not the natural way. I am glad I am aware of it... because this is really a situation where you can spoil them to compensate anything else.
Great hours, great closeness and also some activities together and it has been so good. Mostly because we have not had any arguments or discussions about anything that did not mean anything. How clever and mature that we all did choose the happines and relaxing atmosphere here today. Win win.
Regarding choosing and happiness. Sometimes I just wonder about my choices, I have told you before. The last week I have just made some great choices and the payback has been a lot of happiness.
When I seperated last time, I promised myself that I would be the manager of all choices i make, and just do things i really want to.
I normally also consider the consequenses of the choices as well to be prepared and also to prevent myself from being sorry I guess.
At the moment, I have the feeling I just execute and I dont think of any consequenses at all .. how good is that? well who cares.....I dont... i just reflect some minutes now and then and I guess I am just infected by the chemistry of love and happiness.
H & K
A
I have had a great day today. After leaving Robin to school I had some cool hours in the city. A combination of business, healthcare and pleasure meetings and I enjoyed every second being in Stockholm city again. In one way.. i kind of belong here .. as well.
All day, I walked around with a big smile on my face. I feel happy and strong and its kind of overwelming. There are many reasons for being very happy at the moment, but one strong reason is that my kids are kind of more relaxed to the situation they have been forced into at the moment regarding their coming two places to live situation. Its not easy but I think they and also I have come a bit forward in this understanding, how things will be.
Today, it crossed my mind that this is how the weekend parents situation is and will be. Kind of strange, sad .. but also acceptable for both them and myself so.. yes. It will be alrigt. And as I said... now they come without any arguments or crying....
I have not seen my older boys for a while So it was so good to see them tody and I could not stop hugging them. When I now see them I want to make everything so great to them of course . On the other hand I know, that if I try to hard it will in some way fail.. because that is not the natural way. I am glad I am aware of it... because this is really a situation where you can spoil them to compensate anything else.
Great hours, great closeness and also some activities together and it has been so good. Mostly because we have not had any arguments or discussions about anything that did not mean anything. How clever and mature that we all did choose the happines and relaxing atmosphere here today. Win win.
Regarding choosing and happiness. Sometimes I just wonder about my choices, I have told you before. The last week I have just made some great choices and the payback has been a lot of happiness.
When I seperated last time, I promised myself that I would be the manager of all choices i make, and just do things i really want to.
I normally also consider the consequenses of the choices as well to be prepared and also to prevent myself from being sorry I guess.
At the moment, I have the feeling I just execute and I dont think of any consequenses at all .. how good is that? well who cares.....I dont... i just reflect some minutes now and then and I guess I am just infected by the chemistry of love and happiness.
H & K
A
Friday, August 29, 2008
Rapunzel - Arun.... thanks for giving me great laughs... I need it badly
Arun... i just have to paste some of your lovely writings, sorry.
This morning when I had prepared the hotel breakfast I went to the pc and opened up your lovely message. And damn how i laughed. I laughed my brain out. And the good thing is that I can see you in front of me and hearing you as I am reading.
Holy moses. You have already made my day here and it is only 0842.
I referred myself to Cinderella before here in the hotel and your lovely sentence and explanation that it probably is Rapunzel i think of.... . read part of it.... it s amazing... You dont know me but I guess you can read me...
.......................................
"Rapunzel? Blonde hair trapped in a tower? Dunno - can't tell if you're a shoes girl or like long hair...hang on, you're right! You and your sex in the city shoes
:-D. ""
......................................
And as you also know, or have read here on the blog, I am a huge fan of Sex and the City and high heels shoes.... yes yes.. your comment was so fun to me. Just right in the middle...gosh..You are a funny great and nice man. Congratulations.
I promise you Arun, i will keep on being honest here in the blog... even if it maybe emabarrase you and some more.
But honestly... Rapunzel and Cinderella? I dont think I mean Rapunzel. I mean the Girl who was
kept in the mansion cleaning and living very sad since her father had married an awful stephmother that only cared for her own daughters. One night she went magic, got a lovely dress, was driven to the castle and met the beauty prince charming. At 00.00 the magic would be gone and at that time she lost one of her shoes made by glass... imagine... the prince went all over to find the beauty girl that had worn the shoe. ...
Enjoy this lovely day, almost last day of August.
'
Thanks Arun for inspiring me to this writing ...
Anna
This morning when I had prepared the hotel breakfast I went to the pc and opened up your lovely message. And damn how i laughed. I laughed my brain out. And the good thing is that I can see you in front of me and hearing you as I am reading.
Holy moses. You have already made my day here and it is only 0842.
I referred myself to Cinderella before here in the hotel and your lovely sentence and explanation that it probably is Rapunzel i think of.... . read part of it.... it s amazing... You dont know me but I guess you can read me...
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"Rapunzel? Blonde hair trapped in a tower? Dunno - can't tell if you're a shoes girl or like long hair...hang on, you're right! You and your sex in the city shoes
:-D. ""
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And as you also know, or have read here on the blog, I am a huge fan of Sex and the City and high heels shoes.... yes yes.. your comment was so fun to me. Just right in the middle...gosh..You are a funny great and nice man. Congratulations.
I promise you Arun, i will keep on being honest here in the blog... even if it maybe emabarrase you and some more.
But honestly... Rapunzel and Cinderella? I dont think I mean Rapunzel. I mean the Girl who was
kept in the mansion cleaning and living very sad since her father had married an awful stephmother that only cared for her own daughters. One night she went magic, got a lovely dress, was driven to the castle and met the beauty prince charming. At 00.00 the magic would be gone and at that time she lost one of her shoes made by glass... imagine... the prince went all over to find the beauty girl that had worn the shoe. ...
Enjoy this lovely day, almost last day of August.
'
Thanks Arun for inspiring me to this writing ...
Anna
Profile update on Linked In--- Power and effect of Network communities...
I am a networking person. As a matter of fact I got a reward by my favourite girl Annika Widmark to have world class networking skills..... ref Linked in recomendations.
I have talked about it before in the blog and it is a fact that I am truly so happy curious about the mankind that I just have to meet new interesting people, its my mission in life. It motivates me and gives me a lot of empowerment and a feeling of growing. Some people think I am religious or something else going on with me... and yes... why not? I am a people person.
Yesterday I updated my Linked in profile with the Hotel Director and TeamClinic information and sent it to all my connections.. obviously I did.
So, this morning my mailbox was kind of full of my lovely networking contacts mail to wish me good luck and all the best wishes.
Hello hello world... this truly make me so happy. My beautiful network of people from all around the world is coming back with a shorter or longer comment and yes.... it is fantastic.
I will not tell you about everyones comment....., go to Linked in and connect with me and you will see all my world class "people" in there., but I will comment one at the moment.
A great skilled Danish colleague, a manager from Nordea wrote to me and told me some great thoughts, thanks a lot. He is always very frank, open and honest but I am also very much a fan of his way of dealing with things.
He actually hit me with some great words regarding my profile text but also.. i got some relevant and good critical feedback... and that i truly like.
He commented that I had written to much fluffy texts and not been really specific and clear... especially not regarding what i will do in my new IT company and some more as well..
Thank you thank you... I immediately went back to the profile and deleted a lot. Great...Especially since I had not written anything about the new company TeamClinic profile and offerings.. that will come later. This company is something really brand new and Yes.. it will be noticed.
The best thing with this comment was that i truly agreed in everything. I am not a fluffy person and should not have to much fluffy text describing me either.
Next time I will ask somebody else to write about me. I think that will be the best actually. Why not my Danish colleague?
Btw... did you read Anthony Crains recommendation to me on Linked In?
I am so proud that I could dance all night long. i will publish it here next blog.
I just have to show you.
Good night sweetheart .. well it´s time to go.
Anna
I have talked about it before in the blog and it is a fact that I am truly so happy curious about the mankind that I just have to meet new interesting people, its my mission in life. It motivates me and gives me a lot of empowerment and a feeling of growing. Some people think I am religious or something else going on with me... and yes... why not? I am a people person.
Yesterday I updated my Linked in profile with the Hotel Director and TeamClinic information and sent it to all my connections.. obviously I did.
So, this morning my mailbox was kind of full of my lovely networking contacts mail to wish me good luck and all the best wishes.
Hello hello world... this truly make me so happy. My beautiful network of people from all around the world is coming back with a shorter or longer comment and yes.... it is fantastic.
I will not tell you about everyones comment....., go to Linked in and connect with me and you will see all my world class "people" in there., but I will comment one at the moment.
A great skilled Danish colleague, a manager from Nordea wrote to me and told me some great thoughts, thanks a lot. He is always very frank, open and honest but I am also very much a fan of his way of dealing with things.
He actually hit me with some great words regarding my profile text but also.. i got some relevant and good critical feedback... and that i truly like.
He commented that I had written to much fluffy texts and not been really specific and clear... especially not regarding what i will do in my new IT company and some more as well..
Thank you thank you... I immediately went back to the profile and deleted a lot. Great...Especially since I had not written anything about the new company TeamClinic profile and offerings.. that will come later. This company is something really brand new and Yes.. it will be noticed.
The best thing with this comment was that i truly agreed in everything. I am not a fluffy person and should not have to much fluffy text describing me either.
Next time I will ask somebody else to write about me. I think that will be the best actually. Why not my Danish colleague?
Btw... did you read Anthony Crains recommendation to me on Linked In?
I am so proud that I could dance all night long. i will publish it here next blog.
I just have to show you.
Good night sweetheart .. well it´s time to go.
Anna
Thursday, August 28, 2008
You do not .....
This morning I got a very strange comment from one of the hotel guests... and I dont know what to think about it. But to be honest it felt kind of interesting.
One of the Pakistan prominent guests had a small chat at the reception disk and it was kind of interesting the business ongoing, flight industries and high technology .. of course I ask my guests about their business... i just have to and I am just to curious to not do.
Some tell more and some tell less.
This guest had been here 6 months ago and noticed that there was a "younger " person here now and that just ended up in some curious questions.
One of the first was... - do you come from Arboga ? ( this small little city)
Proudly I said yes and I also told I have moved back after 22 year in Stockholm and jadi jadi jadi...
Then the comment..... -- you do not look like you come from here!
eh.... what a lovely honest comment, dont you think? I thought so. And I just realized that people have more interest in culture and people then you can ever imagine.
I just had to laugh but also think some minutes... Well.. how does a girl look like that comes from here? and from where do I look like a come from?
- he just commented my surprised face and said that no.. you look like you come from a big city more fashionable.. and some other great words as well.
I dont know if I should thank you or not, that might be rude to the other Arboga living girls and people... but it is obvious to not only Arboga citizens that I am some kind of different and they know for shure I want and will make a difference here. That will be my mission for some years.
Good luck Anna, it might be a mission impossible .. but also, the mission possible. I prefer to think like that.
Cheers
A
One of the Pakistan prominent guests had a small chat at the reception disk and it was kind of interesting the business ongoing, flight industries and high technology .. of course I ask my guests about their business... i just have to and I am just to curious to not do.
Some tell more and some tell less.
This guest had been here 6 months ago and noticed that there was a "younger " person here now and that just ended up in some curious questions.
One of the first was... - do you come from Arboga ? ( this small little city)
Proudly I said yes and I also told I have moved back after 22 year in Stockholm and jadi jadi jadi...
Then the comment..... -- you do not look like you come from here!
eh.... what a lovely honest comment, dont you think? I thought so. And I just realized that people have more interest in culture and people then you can ever imagine.
I just had to laugh but also think some minutes... Well.. how does a girl look like that comes from here? and from where do I look like a come from?
- he just commented my surprised face and said that no.. you look like you come from a big city more fashionable.. and some other great words as well.
I dont know if I should thank you or not, that might be rude to the other Arboga living girls and people... but it is obvious to not only Arboga citizens that I am some kind of different and they know for shure I want and will make a difference here. That will be my mission for some years.
Good luck Anna, it might be a mission impossible .. but also, the mission possible. I prefer to think like that.
Cheers
A
Management in small scale...
So, today was actually the first day when I acted like the manager I am for the two employees in the hotel and it felt very good but also very strange.
Strange because I have been used to work with a large team of 25 people in a structured and very openfriendly, valuebased atmosphere... and the difference here is kind of very obvious.
Together here we are a team of 4 and the values and our common way of co-operation has not been set at all. It has been just to much work lately which does not give me a chance to prioritize a Team meeting. Today we had the first one. And it felt very good. The information and communication within the team is critical and will be a part of our daily operation as well.
It is lovely to realize that we are four different persons with varied backgrounds, values and behaviours. I will bring some of my great Nordea experience to implement our common values within this team and company.
Our first Kick in meeting is planned and we will have a workshop to set our commone values, behaviours and strengthen the guest focus. I also plan to put up some guest satisfaction metrix together with the team to be part of our motivation and work.
Of course the focus will be on the guests and ourselves as the one to make this a magic stay.
Today I actually got a call from a guest that had been here since the owner change and it was obvious he will come back because of the good feeling here. That will be our best brand.
Some other guests were very openspeaking and gave some positive feedback today regarding their stay. And I have understand one thing very clear.... even if my hotel is not so very damn perfect and not a 5 star hotel in many ways,.... the behaviour and the way we meet our guests is actually world class. That can be a good compensation. I know it.
So.. lets keep on managing I am thrilled about this new challenge and experience to do it in a small scale.. it is fascinating and I love it.
// Anna
Strange because I have been used to work with a large team of 25 people in a structured and very openfriendly, valuebased atmosphere... and the difference here is kind of very obvious.
Together here we are a team of 4 and the values and our common way of co-operation has not been set at all. It has been just to much work lately which does not give me a chance to prioritize a Team meeting. Today we had the first one. And it felt very good. The information and communication within the team is critical and will be a part of our daily operation as well.
It is lovely to realize that we are four different persons with varied backgrounds, values and behaviours. I will bring some of my great Nordea experience to implement our common values within this team and company.
Our first Kick in meeting is planned and we will have a workshop to set our commone values, behaviours and strengthen the guest focus. I also plan to put up some guest satisfaction metrix together with the team to be part of our motivation and work.
Of course the focus will be on the guests and ourselves as the one to make this a magic stay.
Today I actually got a call from a guest that had been here since the owner change and it was obvious he will come back because of the good feeling here. That will be our best brand.
Some other guests were very openspeaking and gave some positive feedback today regarding their stay. And I have understand one thing very clear.... even if my hotel is not so very damn perfect and not a 5 star hotel in many ways,.... the behaviour and the way we meet our guests is actually world class. That can be a good compensation. I know it.
So.. lets keep on managing I am thrilled about this new challenge and experience to do it in a small scale.. it is fascinating and I love it.
// Anna
Tuesday, August 26, 2008
Back in town..
I write Tuesday 26th of August and it is exactly 22 years since I left Arboga last time.
I promised my self never ever to move back. Today I did and it feels great. Early morning and the big boys came with a huge big truck to pick my things up. Halleluja. I thought it was to much space but in the end we filled it up. Unbelievable.
To see the men carrying all my stuff was kind of good, of course it was not for free but worth every single krona.
Now, I got a home and I am just very happy about it and it feels great. A wonderful flat just on the square in a pink house with old lovely touch. Newly fixed by the painting company and i invite you all for a look. Its lovely. Light all over and it is very much me.
So... I could have spent the first night laying in my lovely big bed watching the old ceiling and enjoying every second of silence ... but instead I have checked in to the hotel again for the evening and the morning sessions.
Its like in Eagles song... You can check in any time you like, but you can never leave...
AT the moment, my heart is red lovely open and my mind is happily spinning and my body truly suffering from non existing exercise ..... I just feel like finally have come home.
The girl is back in town... that is another good oldie song... lets find it.
Cheers
Anna
I promised my self never ever to move back. Today I did and it feels great. Early morning and the big boys came with a huge big truck to pick my things up. Halleluja. I thought it was to much space but in the end we filled it up. Unbelievable.
To see the men carrying all my stuff was kind of good, of course it was not for free but worth every single krona.
Now, I got a home and I am just very happy about it and it feels great. A wonderful flat just on the square in a pink house with old lovely touch. Newly fixed by the painting company and i invite you all for a look. Its lovely. Light all over and it is very much me.
So... I could have spent the first night laying in my lovely big bed watching the old ceiling and enjoying every second of silence ... but instead I have checked in to the hotel again for the evening and the morning sessions.
Its like in Eagles song... You can check in any time you like, but you can never leave...
AT the moment, my heart is red lovely open and my mind is happily spinning and my body truly suffering from non existing exercise ..... I just feel like finally have come home.
The girl is back in town... that is another good oldie song... lets find it.
Cheers
Anna
Monday, August 25, 2008
Last night....late night...facing the truth and fuck my choices for some minutes...."Big girls dont cry"
So the last final hours in this lovely house/flat. I have had my boys here part of the day and that was great. Today I was reminded about my part time mothership and it was some kind of painful in more then one way.
This morning I picked up Robin for following him to school. First time for me but not for him.
The teachers watched me carefully and was happy to see there is a mother in Robins life as well.
Everything went great and I left a little happy boy in school after he had given me a tour in the school and telling me all the rules, the ways to go and everything else that is important to him. Kiss and good bye mamma.
The mother Anna was not happy I can tell. I cried all the way to the car. Fuck me for all my choices. 'Well tears are not needed at the moment so... just to gather myself.
A day full of packing and it seems that the stuff will never end. I have threwed away a lot but obviously there are lot more to considered needed or just over kill. Most of the stuff are kind of not needed.
Back to school to pick Robin up. As happy as when I left him and it is so lovely to join him in his energy. Also to have his guidance to my wrong parking as well... he is in control my little boy.
We enjoyed the afternoon together. Rented a pick up car and he loved to be in the frontseat with high volume on and just watching me working, loading and yes... he was the king in the car.
He was also the king when his father joined us for some work and support. Thank god... it was help sent from above. Robin Even more happy to have a pizza with his both parents talking in a nice mood and atmosphere as well. Mostly about the x-.s new girlfriend/ woman... i have to admit I am curious about her. And extremely happy for him. He deserves all happiness. Robin is a bit jealouse but that is kind of natural.
So... time for the question... do you want to stay with mother tonight or go "home" with father ?
Well .. I guess you can realize the answer... and I admire my son´s strengthen and choices.
And more tears... fuck me for my choices. Robin is happy and confident and that is the most important. Robin will never notice my tears, that is a golden truth.
Simon and CHarlie are here with me and that is of course happiness in a huge other dimension.... they will sleep over this last night and it is good sharing.
Where the hell do I get my strengthen and happiness from still? That is a damn good question.
Bye bye Hässelby suburb. You have been nice to me and my boys. Something new is waiting for us and it will be exiting. Fergie... this song is good.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=O5AyHbrCYb0
Love and confident
A
This morning I picked up Robin for following him to school. First time for me but not for him.
The teachers watched me carefully and was happy to see there is a mother in Robins life as well.
Everything went great and I left a little happy boy in school after he had given me a tour in the school and telling me all the rules, the ways to go and everything else that is important to him. Kiss and good bye mamma.
The mother Anna was not happy I can tell. I cried all the way to the car. Fuck me for all my choices. 'Well tears are not needed at the moment so... just to gather myself.
A day full of packing and it seems that the stuff will never end. I have threwed away a lot but obviously there are lot more to considered needed or just over kill. Most of the stuff are kind of not needed.
Back to school to pick Robin up. As happy as when I left him and it is so lovely to join him in his energy. Also to have his guidance to my wrong parking as well... he is in control my little boy.
We enjoyed the afternoon together. Rented a pick up car and he loved to be in the frontseat with high volume on and just watching me working, loading and yes... he was the king in the car.
He was also the king when his father joined us for some work and support. Thank god... it was help sent from above. Robin Even more happy to have a pizza with his both parents talking in a nice mood and atmosphere as well. Mostly about the x-.s new girlfriend/ woman... i have to admit I am curious about her. And extremely happy for him. He deserves all happiness. Robin is a bit jealouse but that is kind of natural.
So... time for the question... do you want to stay with mother tonight or go "home" with father ?
Well .. I guess you can realize the answer... and I admire my son´s strengthen and choices.
And more tears... fuck me for my choices. Robin is happy and confident and that is the most important. Robin will never notice my tears, that is a golden truth.
Simon and CHarlie are here with me and that is of course happiness in a huge other dimension.... they will sleep over this last night and it is good sharing.
Where the hell do I get my strengthen and happiness from still? That is a damn good question.
Bye bye Hässelby suburb. You have been nice to me and my boys. Something new is waiting for us and it will be exiting. Fergie... this song is good.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=O5AyHbrCYb0
Love and confident
A
Sunday, August 24, 2008
Say it right.... and just... Rise to the occasion
These songs are my favourites at the moment and I dedicate them to someone out there....
enjoy.......
Say it right..... so damn good always.....
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=AO6SnX9s5-w
Rise to the occasion......
You’ve been down the dark detoursYou have seen most of it allCrashed into the million facesBut never listened to them talkYou’ve got so much on your mind right nowIt doesn’t even help to try to solve them allYou used to smile when hope and a pat on the backWould last throughout the dayAs the rain kept falling down on youYou wouldn't let them wash the feeling awayHope itself dried out in you as you heard your man walking awayWithout a word
You thought
Who’s gonna make my decisions, I can’t make them on my ownWho’s gonna rise to the occasion when there is no one aroundWho the hell is gonna believe me, I dont believe in myselfWho’s gonna be there forever, well it aint gonna be him
In case you didn’t know I really care for youI just wish you all the bestAnd if love should come and knock on your door Ihope it treats you with respectI cannot count the times I’ve seen youOh just slipping away with a broken heart
You thought.....
No no noEverybody is going away, I’m barely hanging onNo no noDo not lovers seek me, what am I doing wrong?
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Say it right.....
In the dayIn the nightSay it rightSay it allYou either got itOr you don'tYou either stand or you fallWhen your will is brokenWhen it slips from your handWhen there's no time for jokingThere's a hole in the plan
Oh you don't mean nothing at all to meNo you don't mean nothing at all to meBut you got what it takes to set me freeOh you could mean everything to me
I can't say that I'm not lost and at faultI can't say that I don't love the light and the darkI can't say that I don't know that I am aliveAnd all of what I feel I could showYou tonight you tonight
Oh you don't mean nothing at all to meNo you don't mean nothing at all to meBut you got what it takes to set me freeOh you could mean everything to me
From my hands I could give youSomething that I madeFrom my mouth I could sing you another brick that I laidFrom my body I could show you a place God knowsYou should know the space is holyDo you really want to go?
love
A
enjoy.......
Rise to the occasion..... Kurt Nielsen fantastic ........ listen to the text
Say it right..... so damn good always.....
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=AO6SnX9s5-w
Rise to the occasion......
You’ve been down the dark detoursYou have seen most of it allCrashed into the million facesBut never listened to them talkYou’ve got so much on your mind right nowIt doesn’t even help to try to solve them allYou used to smile when hope and a pat on the backWould last throughout the dayAs the rain kept falling down on youYou wouldn't let them wash the feeling awayHope itself dried out in you as you heard your man walking awayWithout a word
You thought
Who’s gonna make my decisions, I can’t make them on my ownWho’s gonna rise to the occasion when there is no one aroundWho the hell is gonna believe me, I dont believe in myselfWho’s gonna be there forever, well it aint gonna be him
In case you didn’t know I really care for youI just wish you all the bestAnd if love should come and knock on your door Ihope it treats you with respectI cannot count the times I’ve seen youOh just slipping away with a broken heart
You thought.....
No no noEverybody is going away, I’m barely hanging onNo no noDo not lovers seek me, what am I doing wrong?
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Say it right.....
In the dayIn the nightSay it rightSay it allYou either got itOr you don'tYou either stand or you fallWhen your will is brokenWhen it slips from your handWhen there's no time for jokingThere's a hole in the plan
Oh you don't mean nothing at all to meNo you don't mean nothing at all to meBut you got what it takes to set me freeOh you could mean everything to me
I can't say that I'm not lost and at faultI can't say that I don't love the light and the darkI can't say that I don't know that I am aliveAnd all of what I feel I could showYou tonight you tonight
Oh you don't mean nothing at all to meNo you don't mean nothing at all to meBut you got what it takes to set me freeOh you could mean everything to me
From my hands I could give youSomething that I madeFrom my mouth I could sing you another brick that I laidFrom my body I could show you a place God knowsYou should know the space is holyDo you really want to go?
love
A
Monday, August 18, 2008
Anna a ........hmm..?
Anna A= alcoholica..... well hello. Have you ever considered being a summer alcoholic and got the lovely nickname alcoholica buy a fancy man you wish had taken you for a date instead?
I have. Some weeks ago there were a lot of parties ongoing and you keep on drinking and drinking. ok I kept on drinking and drinking... that is the truth. I was not dead drunk the nights and evenings I talk about but anyway.... little bit to much.
The Highlight of the eveing was when one guy called me Anna Alcoholica during the evening..... !! thank you sir. Obviously i was a little bit too tipsy and I guess my mouth was talking to much as well..
But anyway.. i felt kind of stupid and for some minutes i woke up and got sober for some seconds. Not all the time you are in control... not me at least.
I have not done anything that i regret only said things that i can be some embarrased about ok ok...
At the moment i am kind of happy that there are not to many parties ongoing.. i need to rest. And it feels very good to be sober.
One of the first nights at the hotel I was so dead tired and exhauested to I actually took a small glass of pure absolut peach vodka and just drank it.
I hated myself for doing it but I just had to. That was not the best thing i had done.. but at that moment it was the only right thing to do.
Never ever i will do that again... and always ever i will remember that nickname and it will be my best reminder ever.
Who wants to end up like Anna Alcoholica... well.. not me.
I am to happy for that.
Love
A
I have. Some weeks ago there were a lot of parties ongoing and you keep on drinking and drinking. ok I kept on drinking and drinking... that is the truth. I was not dead drunk the nights and evenings I talk about but anyway.... little bit to much.
The Highlight of the eveing was when one guy called me Anna Alcoholica during the evening..... !! thank you sir. Obviously i was a little bit too tipsy and I guess my mouth was talking to much as well..
But anyway.. i felt kind of stupid and for some minutes i woke up and got sober for some seconds. Not all the time you are in control... not me at least.
I have not done anything that i regret only said things that i can be some embarrased about ok ok...
At the moment i am kind of happy that there are not to many parties ongoing.. i need to rest. And it feels very good to be sober.
One of the first nights at the hotel I was so dead tired and exhauested to I actually took a small glass of pure absolut peach vodka and just drank it.
I hated myself for doing it but I just had to. That was not the best thing i had done.. but at that moment it was the only right thing to do.
Never ever i will do that again... and always ever i will remember that nickname and it will be my best reminder ever.
Who wants to end up like Anna Alcoholica... well.. not me.
I am to happy for that.
Love
A
Wednesday, August 13, 2008
Golden mornings.....
Imagine the alarm at 0515. Imagine the smell of coffée and fresh baked bread. A finalized breakfast buffée just to be eaten. And imagine a cup of coffée in total silence in a small hotel reception in Arboga.
I have to admit I enjoy here. Even if I am dead tired when the alarm rings. And I am kind of dead tired even during the days.
The last week I have worked a lot, early mornings and late evenings and I normally am on the run here almost every minute. I think of it all the time. Comparing my work in Nordea with this.
It is a huge difference. Maybe the biggest difference is the customer experience. Here you get some direct feedback when things are not to good and vice versa from the customer.
One customer told me that he got the worst made coffee ever here in the hotel one day.... one evening.
I went crazy on him and asked why he did not tell me and I would have made some new coffee. ( not to crazy but anyway)
The coffee he insisted on having was actually a few hours old and I told him that and insisted on making some new one. He just drank it.
The customer, is he angry and not satisfied with the stay here? Well... to be honest, I dont think so. If he is , its up to him.
Some customer are just so lovely and make this job worth everything.
Love / A
I have to admit I enjoy here. Even if I am dead tired when the alarm rings. And I am kind of dead tired even during the days.
The last week I have worked a lot, early mornings and late evenings and I normally am on the run here almost every minute. I think of it all the time. Comparing my work in Nordea with this.
It is a huge difference. Maybe the biggest difference is the customer experience. Here you get some direct feedback when things are not to good and vice versa from the customer.
One customer told me that he got the worst made coffee ever here in the hotel one day.... one evening.
I went crazy on him and asked why he did not tell me and I would have made some new coffee. ( not to crazy but anyway)
The coffee he insisted on having was actually a few hours old and I told him that and insisted on making some new one. He just drank it.
The customer, is he angry and not satisfied with the stay here? Well... to be honest, I dont think so. If he is , its up to him.
Some customer are just so lovely and make this job worth everything.
Love / A
Tuesday, August 12, 2008
People management
So another day has passed here and I am both happy and concerned about certain things. The employee belonging to the hotel came back yesterday with the signals, attitude and behaviour that she would not like to stay here more then the coffee breaks lasted.
Influenced and of course loyal to my stepmother, she just had to be very skeptical. And mostly, as she thinks I am a monster.. she just cant like me.
I guess it took her about 30 minutes to realize how stupid it is to judge and create stupid minds of someone you dont know, based on another persons story.
After yesterday and todays work, I can promise. She will not leave this building and this work. Today she came back with a name of a person that she actually would recommend to start working here. That is not to bad. That is very good.
Now, she also smiles, feels reliefed probably and can relax since we have no competition in this company among the employees. We are as much equal as anyone of us. Well... what does she think? We should treat her as a slave? hello and hello.
This Hotel will be the best place to work at with the people, the guests as the priority number 1, no doubts. Filled with values, focus on the guests and of course the great customer experience.
I am not surprised about the change we have seen during this 2 days and neither am I surprised that people call in, asking for a job here. The atmosphere, the values and the happiness and proudness in this company just is visible even from the outside.
It is a 24:7 work here in the hotel and I have just realized that it is a lot . And hopefully its worth it.
Give me some sleep and I will soon be back to normal again. That kind of worry me... so little sleep and that is no good.
A
Influenced and of course loyal to my stepmother, she just had to be very skeptical. And mostly, as she thinks I am a monster.. she just cant like me.
I guess it took her about 30 minutes to realize how stupid it is to judge and create stupid minds of someone you dont know, based on another persons story.
After yesterday and todays work, I can promise. She will not leave this building and this work. Today she came back with a name of a person that she actually would recommend to start working here. That is not to bad. That is very good.
Now, she also smiles, feels reliefed probably and can relax since we have no competition in this company among the employees. We are as much equal as anyone of us. Well... what does she think? We should treat her as a slave? hello and hello.
This Hotel will be the best place to work at with the people, the guests as the priority number 1, no doubts. Filled with values, focus on the guests and of course the great customer experience.
I am not surprised about the change we have seen during this 2 days and neither am I surprised that people call in, asking for a job here. The atmosphere, the values and the happiness and proudness in this company just is visible even from the outside.
It is a 24:7 work here in the hotel and I have just realized that it is a lot . And hopefully its worth it.
Give me some sleep and I will soon be back to normal again. That kind of worry me... so little sleep and that is no good.
A
Sunday, August 10, 2008
Something new .....
In place in Arboga and in place in the hotel. What a start. So many challenges, so much work, but so much fun. And the most lovely thing is to meet all the guests visiting the hotel.
Gittan and I have got a great start here even if we both just have to make sure we have the water up under our nose. It was a great idea to have the Café in the restaurant, but also some naiv. If my lovely friend Åsa had not helped us it would have been a catastrophy. The hotel has been fully booked for the last nights and we have worked our asses off and to put a café on the top of that... yes.. that was kind of too much.
Luckily I have been able to get some great energy here from some unexpected sources.
You never know what is behind the corner and I am damn lucky about that.
Last night I went back to Stockholm for a quick pick up of Robin, my son and it is just lovely to have him back after 3 weeks of vacation. To feel his little arms around me gives me another kick and energy and at least he is both curious and also very exited about our new home, even if it is a smaller room in the annex of the hotel. Love just conquer it all.
/ love A
Gittan and I have got a great start here even if we both just have to make sure we have the water up under our nose. It was a great idea to have the Café in the restaurant, but also some naiv. If my lovely friend Åsa had not helped us it would have been a catastrophy. The hotel has been fully booked for the last nights and we have worked our asses off and to put a café on the top of that... yes.. that was kind of too much.
Luckily I have been able to get some great energy here from some unexpected sources.
You never know what is behind the corner and I am damn lucky about that.
Last night I went back to Stockholm for a quick pick up of Robin, my son and it is just lovely to have him back after 3 weeks of vacation. To feel his little arms around me gives me another kick and energy and at least he is both curious and also very exited about our new home, even if it is a smaller room in the annex of the hotel. Love just conquer it all.
/ love A
Tuesday, August 5, 2008
Headache...
One of my colleagues told me today he got headache by reading my blog. Hm... he said i write about my minds and obv. it is some tricky to like that or not. Anyway... i guess he is to curious to let go of my words so.. yes I am happy that so many reads it including him.
I surtenly had some kind of a great day today. Even if I went home very late from work I managed to keep away from headache.
Went directly to buy some Japanese food and further on to a store where I bought a new laptop.
Strange. I dont know to much about it what kind and brand is good and so on... and i did not really want to buy one of the cheapest to be forced to upgrades and stuff like that very sonon.
So... here I am sittning with my brand new and fancy laptop. It is great and fantastic. And so fancy good looking. I thouht i should not care but I do.
So far so good. One of my sons came home today and it was great seeing him after almost 2.5 weeks away from me. But but... something was not alright.
Now to the headache.... the real headache. Late this evening he had kind of a breakdown of sadness regarding this whole thing about me moving and so on. And so he cried. Me too. that is really the worst thing to see you children sad. That really sucks and kills. And gave me headache.
It will be a great challenge this movement I am doing but we will fix it. I cant make it visible yet to him to convince hime about that things will be great in the end.
oh holy moses. Another day of tears. Well I guess it sometimes just is the real thing just to cry out loud. He did and I did.
And actually.... when we left each other the tears were gone and also the headache.
Time for bed. Countdown at Nordea is here. Damn I will miss everyone so much.
love and hugs
Anna
I surtenly had some kind of a great day today. Even if I went home very late from work I managed to keep away from headache.
Went directly to buy some Japanese food and further on to a store where I bought a new laptop.
Strange. I dont know to much about it what kind and brand is good and so on... and i did not really want to buy one of the cheapest to be forced to upgrades and stuff like that very sonon.
So... here I am sittning with my brand new and fancy laptop. It is great and fantastic. And so fancy good looking. I thouht i should not care but I do.
So far so good. One of my sons came home today and it was great seeing him after almost 2.5 weeks away from me. But but... something was not alright.
Now to the headache.... the real headache. Late this evening he had kind of a breakdown of sadness regarding this whole thing about me moving and so on. And so he cried. Me too. that is really the worst thing to see you children sad. That really sucks and kills. And gave me headache.
It will be a great challenge this movement I am doing but we will fix it. I cant make it visible yet to him to convince hime about that things will be great in the end.
oh holy moses. Another day of tears. Well I guess it sometimes just is the real thing just to cry out loud. He did and I did.
And actually.... when we left each other the tears were gone and also the headache.
Time for bed. Countdown at Nordea is here. Damn I will miss everyone so much.
love and hugs
Anna
Monday, August 4, 2008
Sex & the City.....
I have waited for the day to see the movie Sex and the City as it is my number one favourite Tv -show. I just love it.
Yesterday I went to the see movie and it was great. I laughed mostly of all, and I probably cried most of all as well. It was a happy movie... but mostly I think it was really sad moments that i could refer to in my life as well.
To remember how hard the break up thing is, and to be cheated and let down. I cried like crazy that is the true. But also... true strong love and friendship. As high as I laughed the silent i cried. I could not stop.
It was a great ending and I cried at that too. With red eyes but a great smile , me and my lovely friend Gunilla left the movie and I drove back home to a kaotic house.
I had planned to do some packing this evening but I could not move. I logged on to check my emails and started to chat with some friends and I cried even more. To notice so much friendship and love just killed me yesterday. To add the working load and pressure the last months yes... i would call it a smaller breakdown.
Luckily it has nothing to do with men affairs... and such complicated things... , I promise, and as my heart is so very open and happy at the moment, I kind of managed to control myself after a while.
Well, not really myself.... after getting a kick in my ass and a push to shape up by one of my friends of course.....thanks.
But sometimes even a strong girl like me need a shoulder that is for sure. And why not a Mr Big, it seems convenient and lovely.
I will go and see the movie again. It was great.
My colleagues asks me who I represent of the four girls.??? I leave that to you to have a guess....
Many knows that we are a team of girls going out and having a great friendship like the 4 girls and I keep telling everybody that the reality is much more better then the tv -show ... I mean .. its true.
And I need to by a pair of those lovely shues MB.
Take care. I have to .
// Anna
Yesterday I went to the see movie and it was great. I laughed mostly of all, and I probably cried most of all as well. It was a happy movie... but mostly I think it was really sad moments that i could refer to in my life as well.
To remember how hard the break up thing is, and to be cheated and let down. I cried like crazy that is the true. But also... true strong love and friendship. As high as I laughed the silent i cried. I could not stop.
It was a great ending and I cried at that too. With red eyes but a great smile , me and my lovely friend Gunilla left the movie and I drove back home to a kaotic house.
I had planned to do some packing this evening but I could not move. I logged on to check my emails and started to chat with some friends and I cried even more. To notice so much friendship and love just killed me yesterday. To add the working load and pressure the last months yes... i would call it a smaller breakdown.
Luckily it has nothing to do with men affairs... and such complicated things... , I promise, and as my heart is so very open and happy at the moment, I kind of managed to control myself after a while.
Well, not really myself.... after getting a kick in my ass and a push to shape up by one of my friends of course.....thanks.
But sometimes even a strong girl like me need a shoulder that is for sure. And why not a Mr Big, it seems convenient and lovely.
I will go and see the movie again. It was great.
My colleagues asks me who I represent of the four girls.??? I leave that to you to have a guess....
Many knows that we are a team of girls going out and having a great friendship like the 4 girls and I keep telling everybody that the reality is much more better then the tv -show ... I mean .. its true.
And I need to by a pair of those lovely shues MB.
Take care. I have to .
// Anna
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